Elle me toise
sans ironie, sans frivolité –
la garçonne

You've only seen a glimpse of my world.
A glimpse of my hatred,
happiness,
sadness,
depression,
anxiety,
loneliness.

A glimpse of whatever I want to show you because I'm scared.
Scared of how you'll see me when I sob on the ground because I've dropped a plate.
And yes, it may be just a plate but I've been so clumsy and tired.
Disturbed and discouraged by the voices.
The last thing I want to do is drop a ******* plate.

I'd be rattled if you knew that I can't function without pills.
I hate taking them because I can't feel,
But I don't want to hear anymore voices.
I don't want to be the usual freak on the street you know.

If you knew how hard it was for me to get out of bed you'd be surprised.
I only slept three hours last night but I was terrorized the whole time by my own personal demons.
I lay there with my eyes bloodshot and wide open, my body numb.
I want to get up, but what is there for me when I do?
Work?
Like I'd actually want to be there.

If you knew that people stared at me and thought I was hot until the scars adorning my body changed their minds.
And the whispers began.
"Oh my god..." "She's so ugly, such a freak." "******* emo's."
I don't go outside without long clothes anymore.
The only good thing is that I don't have to shave anymore.

I don't visit my family.
I haven't in the last 2 years.
They don't need to see the person I've become.
Even though they've helped made me this way.
And they never stop calling, and calling, and calling!
Can't they understand that I don't want to talk!?
Oh, yes!
Another ******* breakdown.
This time, I didn't drop the plate on accident.

I'm no good to anyone broken.
So I'd rather pretend to be fine and smile.
Than to let you in...
Than to let you see more than that glimpse of what is really *me.

I let my skin soak in the bath,
I see a glimpse in my palm,
Suddenly; I convinced’
many things visible even in mist.

By: Nida Mahmoed.

My tired eyes won't stop
Searching for you
They want nothing else
Except a glimpse
Just one look from you
That halts everything
Time stops ticking
World won't turn
Lost in the trance
We dream on

When estimates are made, then they are not just estimates,
it’s a way of ascertaining an uncertain future.

An uncertain future gets a glimpse of what seems to be possible in the present at the present moment in time when the estimate is being made.

Scope with regards to future varies in the present and also over a period of time along the future.
Each and everything comes into focus when an estimate is ready and needs to be followed in the present at the present moment in time.
Following a proper line of action comes later, much later.

Initially when everything related to making an estimate comes to mind it's important to take the right steps at the right moment in time.
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Initially everything starts with particular line of thinking.
Initially in the present the thought process is very well defined,
so well defined that everything needs to be done keeping in mind the right moment in time.

Over a period of time things change and everything starts taking the right shape.
Now comes the moment in time to make an estimate since everything that is going on in mind gets sorted out and becomes clear.
Now the only thing that comes to mind is that time is going to be important.

Along with time comes an experience when efforts are been made
Along with experience comes accuracy in making an estimate
So never give up in life.

Give your best and always make efforts
A time will come when the importance of time will not only be understood, realized, agreed and accepted, but also it will be kept in mind.
An estimate will then be required keeping in mind the future.

So, there is nothing wrong in making an estimate
After all it takes only a small space of the entire page when making an estimate
So always see to it that you have your estimate ready for the plan that you have made in your mind and then only move towards taking the line of action.