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g May 2015
it
happened
again. It’s happening
again. I can’t stand to look at
your ******* face. I can’t look at it
because if I do I won’t want to stop. I hate
myself. I hate everything. Somebody please
rip the organs out of my body so I never have
to feel again. Rip my heart out last. Let it keep pumping
blood everywhere. Let my blood run wild. Let it stain
the gross dorm carpeting. Let my blood get all over your
hands and scar your mind so you can never look at blood
the same ever again. Kneel over me, over my dead body. Tell
me how much it hurts to see me like this. Look into my lifeless eyes
and tell me how much you miss me. Tell me you miss me I dare you.
I’ll look back into your cold, heartless eyes. You never cared for me.
I was only convenient. Let me know when you get to my lungs so I can
Hold my breath for you, like I always do every time I see you. Let me
know when you get to my heart so it can stop beating like it does
every time I’m near you. Tell me you’ll miss me I dare you.
And once you wash the blood off your hands and you go
and hold hers forget all about me. I am nothing.
I’ll always be nothing. I am and forever
will be nothing. Because I
am just convenient.
Erica M Apr 2015
For Elijah
Who saw me as just another teenage girl
Whom he thought he could fix
After he unknowingly broke me

For Luke
Who was always too sweet to me
And didn't tell me until a year and a half later
That he only saw me as a sister

For Eric 1
Who shared his music with me
And started dating M
Before I could tell him

For Rusty
Who stabbed me in the back
With help from F
When neither of them were aware that they were holding knives

For Eric 2
Who reminded me of Rusty
And maybe that's the only reason
But who respected me without hesitation

For Cam
Who has a reputation of being nice
Who is problematic at times
And can't seem to leave my head
I've been trying to organize my thoughts on the last several guys I've had a thing for. These go from the summer before freshman year (Elijah) until the spring of junior year (Cam). The initials are the girls' last initials because I don't want to incriminate them. This is a work in progress because I will add more (possibly) as I admit to more crushes.
Amul Garg Apr 2015
You glow with happiness,
I hide in darkness.

You are so full of life,
I live in eternal strife.

You are your friends' darling,
I'm a lonely soul absently wandering.

Your face is a painting of a thousand lovely colours,
mine is an utter blank ever.

Compare and contrast, our match seems impossible,
Is this why I find you so irresistible?
KA Lix Mar 2015
You can ask whatever you want, darling but

Oh please, don't ask me why I'm always angry

Please don't ask me why my lungs are always filled with fire

When fire is all you've ever spat at me
Alan S Bailey Mar 2015
The children laugh and I walk until night.
I will walk again tomorrow
hoping you will but once again follow. I have seen you before,
you must know now I am quite the same,
still a child by heart,
sigh* I know...Remember my words
for they are true dear.
I will be here for my
lifetime 'til you are again near.
tap Mar 2015
There he is.
God, he looks like a dork.
Not *my
dork, no.
Far from it, actually.
He’s just a dork
who just so happens
to dribble my heart around
in his rough, warm hands
without even realizing it.

There he is.
Oh, ****. He’s smiling my way.
Wait, wait, no.
His eyes so brown,
so ******* brown,
aren’t on me.
I turn around.

There she is.
She’s waving him over.
Oh.
Her.
She’s nice.
They’d make a cute couple,
now that I think about it.
The thought makes my stomach flip
like some sort of surprised pancake.

It hurts.
But after the first hundred times,
you get used to disappointment.
You accept it like a champ,
accepting the fact
that he’s someone else’s dork.
they're not official. not yet.
Issa Jan 2015
I still listen to music with words
When I am writing words

Sunlight streams through the window
Trees sway outside, with branches scratching the glass window
-
I smell fresh coffee beans
Starbucks, from the Philippines

A piece of paper flutters down
I look at it with a frown.
-
And one thing I suddenly recall,
It gives me an idea, a reason to stall

From what I am doing, (hummingbird mind, my friend.)
And I went into an imaginary glen.

With only my pen and my notes
For company, then my mind began to float.


He wrote in the most perfect handwriting
Compared to my scatterbrained black scribbling

He strummed a chord on my heartstrings
Without him even knowing


His name sounded like
the gold-tipped wings
of angels.
While mine sat on the
brown earth,
dreaming to the skies.


Though, once we'd meet once a week
And I would smile in the hallways
looking like a freak

There was always something idiotic
the way his teeth stuck out like a bunny's
He reminded me of Ishaan from
Taare Zameen Par
A dyslexic student, great artist, had a smile so sunny.


I'm playing Owl City on my mp3
That's our secret anthem

Tears were there
The melody from the speakers
I wished I could've sat beside you
When your fingers waltzed over the black-and-white keys
Now I'm sitting all alone by myself
Tapping on black-and-white letters on the Mac


Even though I play the violin
I can't accompany you
My bow screeching against the strings
Just doesn't do your mesmerising piano justice

What I can only do is write
And draw with a cheap ballpen from a meeting hall
I will draw your eyes and your crooked grin.
And my dreams of you that remain unfulfilled.


I finish the poem
Rip the page out of my notebook
And tape it to the wall with my other works
and newspaper clippings, oh just look.

Tomorrow I take it down again
Slip it into an envelope
Wonder if I should buy a stamp.
Maybe mail it overseas with forlorn hope.

A month passes by,
The envelope gathers dust under my bed.
Oh my darling, oh my darling
The chances with you are hanging by a thread

We're going to fly back home once more
So I decide to get you a keepsake from here.
A wooden owl, carved by hand
I slip the poem inside, thinking what you'd think when it appears…
Winter Silk. You may somehow get this.
sour avocado Dec 2014
I don't know
What you did
But I don't
Like it not
In one single
Bit it's gnawing
At me that
I don't know
The answers to
Anything or everything

And that it
Makes me nervous
And shaky when
You're around and
I don't like
That, but there
You are sitting
Tall and proud
And like a
King upon his
Merry throne of
Gold and silver

Other people see
How you light
Up too so
I don't think
I'm too awfully
oh-so-special
But I overthink
The words you
Say every single
******* day.

I didn't mean
To sound so
Stupid or rude
The other day
It's just we
Met over a
Book of fate
And you stepped
Out of your
Car the same
Exact time I
Did mine when
We were all
Alone and when
Everyone had left

You asked what
I was doing
Now, but I'm
Not too smart
So I just
Said 'going home.'
And turned away.
I don't know whether or not this boy was trying to lowkey ask me on a date, but he's cute so hopefully, but that's also why I doubt it. Tons of girls talk to him so I don't stand a chance. This isn't the same guy as before whoops.
sour avocado Dec 2014
It's a mistake
It's a crude
Crude mistake of
Me to let
Myself talk to
You again when
I'm sure of
Why I stopped
On day one

You make me
Nervous with your
Passion it's not
An angry within
You but just
Sweet sorrow that
I can't understand
I don't know
Why you would
See me so
Tenderly and sweet
When I've been
Cold and brash

Abrasive and rash
With my words
To you just
Out of fear
And general distaste
For the emotion.
Tried a kind of new style. A sweet boy has feelings for me, but I don't reciprocate them. I'm sorry...
NeroameeAlucard Dec 2014
I'm finally free from someone that never did belong to me
I'm finally free as a falcon in the sky
I see know you weren't worth all those tones I cried
I'm finally free like the damphir that is my namesake
I can finally attach myself to someone who cares for their and my sake
I'm finally free these chains have been lifted from me
I can now see it was never meant to be between us
you did me a favor by saying no so thank you very much!
Finally Free from a crush that crushed me!
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