For Elijah
Who saw me as just another teenage girl
Whom he thought he could fix
After he unknowingly broke me

For Luke
Who was always too sweet to me
And didn't tell me until a year and a half later
That he only saw me as a sister

For Eric 1
Who shared his music with me
And started dating M
Before I could tell him

For Rusty
Who stabbed me in the back
With help from F
When neither of them were aware that they were holding knives

For Eric 2
Who reminded me of Rusty
And maybe that's the only reason
But who respected me without hesitation

For Cam
Who has a reputation of being nice
Who is problematic at times
And can't seem to leave my head

You're my umbrella
Constantly protecting me
From rain and wind
And other things of the sort

I know for a fact
That I always appreciate you
Whether or not
I always tell you

Last week I noticed
That while I was struggling to stay dry
You were struggling
To stay together

I hadn't realized
That while keeping me safe
You were in constant pain
And close to being torn apart

You'll forget me
I promised you
I could never*
You promised in return

I was hoping to see you
Next summer
When I'll see the rest of them
But no

You won't be there next summer
You'll be away
Doing research
Or something

That gives you
Another whole year
To forget
All about me

I know what you promised me
But I wonder if you know
Because I know that most people
Do exactly what you promised not to

It'll be easy for you
To forget me
Just stop thinking about me
No big deal

If only
It were that easy
For me
To forget you

On Thursday
I found out what you said
On Tuesday
I'm going to **** myself

I tried to tell you
No
It's not worth it
We both know it

You said you'd stay
For now

I can't bear the thought
Of losing you
Forever

You're one of the few good things
That I have left in my life
I know it's cheesy
But please stay

You don't know how much
I need you
Or how much
My life would crumble without you

We both admit
At first
We hated each other
But look at us now

We're so close
Rumors started going around
That we were dating
So we made it look even more so

I tell you things
I wouldn't tell another soul
Or another person without a soul
Not even him

We've gotten in one
Maybe two
Fights
In the two years we haven't hated each other

That's impressive
For people like us
But being like us
Brought us closer together

You're better than anyone else I know
And I know a lot of people
You're one of my favorite people
In the entire world

I can't see my future without you in it
Without wanting to cry
Or scream
Or wish you were there

So for now
At least for tonight
Please
Stay.

Would anyone care
If I disappeared
Nobody seems to understand
That I hate it here

High school is definitely not
All that great
The best four years of my life
More like the four easiest to hate

The girl with the bracelets on her wrist
Doesn't eat lunch
She'll throw up breakfast when she gets home
Because she sees herself as "not much"

The boy who covers his face with hair
May never go to college
All of this goes on
Without his parents' knowledge

The quiet kid in the back of the class
Won't eat tonight
They won't do anything
Except escape to paradise

Isn't it funny
How when you're sick
You have two options:
Get better
Or die

When you're with someone
You can break up
Get married
Or die
(Before either of the other two can happen)

Isn't it funny
How death
Always
Seems to be an option
Somewhere in the list

I
Would
Appreciate
It
If
You
Could
Not
Make
Comments
Like
That
Be­cause
They're
Still
Very
Hurtful

Don't
Think
That
I
Don't
See
My­
Flaws

Everything
Bad
You
Tell
Me
About
Myself
I
Promise
I
Saw
I­t
Ten
Times
Worse
Than
You
Do
Before
You
Mentioned
It

Now
I
See
­It
Twenty
Times
Worse