My dark lipstick is an act to look tough and my nose ring is a joke; I belong to the zoo.
Twisting and screaming I wriggle out of your tight grip, you say: how the hell do you live with yourself for ending up in a choking clench? Oh, my feet must have slipped into your lethally poisonous death grip.
- i'm not going to apologise for standing up for myself. -
I want to tell you, Everything, But I'll never, Get the chance, Because, When I see you, (Almost never), The words catch, In my throat, My hands, Won't stop shaking, And when I look at you, Your eyes burn me, Alive.
It hardly matters now what's been hoped for in my heart, revealed in the demeanor of your words is the ice cold unhoped for fact that you don't. and maybe you never will enough. My presence doesn't fill up the air in the room when we're together so that all you can breathe is me. Those dark brown eyes of yours stray away from my face long enough for your mind to wander away from thoughts of who you came for, and my mind is quiet now that it's no longer buzzing with possibilities of staying, this is all we'll ever be; two sets of unspeaking mouths and wandering eyes, even though at times the thought of you makes me nearly choke the words out to empty rooms: I love you. But you'll never love me and I'll never be enough to make you.
And I've realized It's just another thing we have in common: We both don't love me.
Your arms are wrapped around my neck containing me, choking me, holding me in place so you can **** me faster. You push yourself against me in the hopes of me returning the gesture but instead, you're crushing the air from me and now I'm deflated. Heart-throb. You touch me but there's no more to you than skin. You don't want me, nobody does. So don't touch me with those hands of yours and pretend like you do.
The lies choke me, constricting my throat with their icy tentacles. Vines riddled with thorns, twist and scrape inside my airway. Blood running down my trachea pools in my lungs, Each burbling breath a disturbing reminder of the webs I've woven.
Breakups are like being uprooted from your home, Pulled away from the familiar Things you're comfortable with and things you've known Finding yourself in the weirdest situations Not quite comfortable in your skin
I've lost the boy who sang to me I've lost what I thought was meant to be I can no longer look at this place without remembering the times we had A sin I indulge in when I'm feeling sad I'm lost and I'm not sure if I can be found I hope he sees this but I hope he's bound I can't make up my mind The words choke me up I drown
This is not a poem This is not a song I can't think of either Without my smile going down
This is not a sonnet This is not a love song Those were what we exchanged But you've buried me down Locked me up Tied me down I hope you're happy I hope you won't frown I hope you know I love you I think you should know Even now.
I hope you see this But then I hope you don't I hope you've found someone But I hope you don't
This is not a poem This cannot be my song I cannot claim to keep What was so fleeting So transient I tripped