And with the first showers
Comes the kind of sadness
Which only half loved lovers
Can feel.

It was in the end of September,
The kashmir trip i still remember,
The thought of going to the heaven on earth made me feel so excited,
I was happy and delighted,
Our eyes filled with enthusiasm and hope,
And to kashmir we wanted to lope,
Just the twelve of us,
There wouldn't be any ruckus or fuss,
We were accompanied by ma'am Handa and Mr. Pandey,
We enjoyed everything from gondola rides to our house boat stay,
We went to places like Sonamarg and Pahalgam,
We'd get tired reach the hotel and apply Jhandu balm,
We enjoyed all our horse rides,
We were accompanied by well-versed guides,
We always managed to take out time for shopping,
From shop to shop we went hopping,
Kashmiri kawah and authentic Kashmiri food for almost every meal,
Would make the tiredness for long distance walking heal,
A Kashmiri wedding is also what we attended,
For back and forth rides on shikara we depended,
Oh! But to sum up I have to say,
In kashmir we loved it each and everyday.

I remember my childhood days,
Those times are now memories I embrace,
Every evening we would play together like a bunch of inseparable souls,
Don't know how and when somebody dug a hole,
That love and friendship all lost,
The power of love, covered with frost,
As time flew we grew older,
We missed our company and the helping shoulder,
Somehow distance still remained,
The hole was ingrained,
The memories are now only preserved in a frame,
And there's no one to blame,
Our relation was cursed,
And I'm just unleashing a blaze of my pent - up emotions, an outburst.

If you are petroleum,
I'm a car,
You're a towel,
Then i just had a shower,
If I'm freezing you're my cozy coat,
If I'm drowning you're my rescue boat,
You're more than just a friend,
You're a necessity,
I hope we have no end,
In my life you're the top celebrity.

I want to scale your every inch
From head to toe, mouth to chin
Your arms against my heart as they clinch
Sending shivers down under your skin

To grasp your neck & take you whole
Ravish your senses as you endlessly moan
As I explore your body & take my leisurely stroll
I take you down an alley alone

Raw passions threaten to explode
An insatiable feast
You scream out our safe code
Piercing warmth  
As our bodies sin
You finish, before I even begin.

I write him in my sentences,
I write him in my diary.

I print him on pages,
I print him on stories.

I carve him on stones,
I carve him in designs.

I sketch him in my moans,
I sketch him in my mind.

I etch him in tattoo,
I etch him on woods.

I sculpt him in statues,
I sculpt him into the man he stood.

I inscribe him on ripples,
I inscribe him on the swirl of my wine.

I draw him in circles,
I just can’t draw the line.

A look shared by two people each wishing That the other will initiate something that both desire but that neither one wants to start.

I'm lost somewhere in between,
Finding the way out,
Trying to figure out,
If what I'm doing is right or wrong,
But I'm confused,
I can't, I'm fading away into the dark,

Your spark, your smile but most of all the things you said to me,
I miss all of it,
I want to love you but I can't ,
I'm fading away into the dark,

The touch of your hands,
And the memories you gave,
I can't let go of them,
I want to but I can't,
I'm fading away into the dark,

Those long walks,
And winds blowing,
My heart beats get faster,
You've changed the world around me,
I love you but we had to part,
And now we're fading away into the dark.

Have you ever watched a storm,
And see it slowly take its pace.
See all the shapes deform,
The ruins of your beautiful place.

You asked me once if I was honest,
My eyes contained it all.
It's only you that matters, not the rest.
I drove towards you as if it was my call.

Losing you felt like being pricked by a thousand thorns,
I bled, I bled, I bled.
Nothing could cease my mourns,
Drowning in woe and dread.

My arms are wide open,
And eyes search lights looking for you in every rack.
longing to reach out to you and give you a pen,
So that you can give me my poetry back.

Dear love,
            She deserted me,
            For someone against my will.  
            Not seeing the pain in me,
            Why do I love her still?

Dear love,
             She left me in a maze,
             Her words I swallowed like  
             a bitter drink.        
             She walked past me stealing  
             gaze,
              My eyes dewy as I sink.

Dear love,
           Does she love me ?
           A question I've worn on my
           lips for days.
            My heart aches to be free,
            I'll love her come what may.

Dear love,
            Has she forgotten me?
            Please tell me all you know.
            I fend her memories silently,
            Her remembrance I can not
             throw.

Inside me is a hunger
Craving for your affection

I remember the day I met you,
The time was half past nine.
You and your photogenic smile,
Made my heart fall out of line.

We talked until midnight,
Under the stars all old-style
The sunrise came to call you
And My heart was on the dial

All the poems that I wrote before
Were swayed by my whims
I wouldn’t fall for him, I swore
And now all my words belong to him

It
Would
Be
Too
Less
If i
Say
You get
Me
Quavering
In the knees
But
To be
Precise
And
Forthright
You
Make me
Forget
If i
Have
Knees
At all
I
Express
My gratitude
Towards
This
Dacoity
With
Utter
Earnestness

We were in grade 1 when we became friends,
We made a pact that we will be friends till the end,
Playing on the playground, swinging on the swings,
Next thing we knew we would be teens,
Telling secrets, talking about boys,
Growing up, getting rid of all our toys,
Talking to each other on the phone,
Knowing that we would never be alone,
You're the person i can tell everything,
And you wouldn't laugh when i tried to sing,
I could always be a dork with you,
And you could be a dork with me too,
And even when we had our fights,
Somehow we knew everything would be alright,
Ya, sure we had our ups and downs,
We shared our smiles and our frowns,
But no matter what we stayed friends,
You were here through the thick and thin,
I love you more than words can can say,
And i wish we never had to part,
Even though we can't be together,
I thank god for all the years that we got to spend together,
Our friendship i will always treasure.

The hands that held me when I was just an infant,
The one who was from heaven sent,
The one whose hand i held and learnt how to walk,
He put values in me and taught me how to talk,
He inspired me to be the leader,
The one whose love over time just grew deeper,
He always cared about my happiness,
He took away all my stress,
He was beside me in all the seasons,
And for no mistake did he ask for a reason,
The one whose love is so divine,
The one who I can proudly call mine,
The one who never lets me feel low,
The one who tells me to enjoy life's flow,
All the decisions that he made for me were just to right,
Even then unknowingly i bring up fights,
The one who doesn't judge me at all,
The one who thinks that I am his baby doll,
The one who fulfills all my wishes,
For him i have a bag full of kisses,
He has always been there by my side wiping all my tears,
He is my dad he will never let me sink in fears,
Daddy it's too less to ever thank you,
But all I can say is i can't live without you
Papa it's true,
The best daddy is you!

Her Eyes spoke, what her lips couldn't

She knows
She
Has a
Crush
On him
But
She can't
Get
Too close
To him
For
If she
Let's
Him in
The
Pin sticks
Farther
In
For her
Heart
Is
A dart.

When i
Look
Within
The depths
Of
My heart
I see
A
Clumsy me
Craving for
A celestial
Being
Who
Is nothing
But a
Hallucination

I was drawn to him,
      Like Icarus to the Sun.

In and around his every whim,
        My feet nimble as I run.
    
His eyes, a shade of sad blue,
         Ever so charming and fickle.

My heart without a slightest clue,
          Grew fonder little by little.

But every wave that struck the shore,
    Took you far, far away.

What I would give to keep you in store,
   I would give it all away.

When I saw your first glance,
My feelings for you enhanced,
You're twinkling innocent eyes,
In them all your charm lies,
You have got the perfect smile,
You are the one who is always in the best style,
You've shot my heart,
You were a thief right from the start,
Now the damage is done,
I have nowhere to run,
You are my saving grace,
I want to be surrounded by your embrace,
Along the woods i want to walk with you forever,
I want it to be a walk to remember.

To my angel in disguise,
The girl whose words are so wise,
The girl who make my days shine,
The girl who never lets me whine,
She is my angel in disguise,

To the girl who has got the most melodious voice,
When she sings she makes my heart rejoice,
She has got the cutest features,
She is fantastic at sports but she is always at the bleachers,
The girl with pink cheek,
The girl whose nature is so meek,
She is my angel in disguise,
She is the prettiest girl with a heart so nice,

She has got beautiful black hair,
And when i look at her my jaw drops and all i do is stare,
All of it started in grade seven,
And when i look back at it I feel like I'm in heaven,
I thank you for all these years,
You have transformed me into a person with no fears,
You are truly an angel sent from above,
And to no friend in this world this much i can love.

Perhaps we were never meant to be
And here i am bereft of we
Because now its only I
Where is the you?
Knows not I.

Love
Is
Nothing
But
Letting
That one
Person
Wreck and
Crush
The
World
You
Created
In
The
Warmth
Of
Your heart.

Even though I have a complicated heart
My love for you is still not barred
I love you with a passion so blind
Yet our souls towards each other haven't inclined
Know that I'll love you as long as i breathe
And the day i stop, this earth I'll leave.

To know that I crave for you
With an intensity so deep
Is to know that I love you
Higher than you can perceive.

In love
As
I was
Dazed
And befuddled
I thought
My
Sensible heart
Would pick
Me up
But
It fell
Before
I did
I
Waited
For
The spring
To
Come again
To
Fill my
Broken
Heart With
Mirth
Again.

We talk in emojis
21st century style you know
Our conversation wraps
A few moments past dawn

He reports every second on the gram
Almost as if that’s his beau
Before exchanging good morning texts
He says Insta Fam hello  

And when we do get intimate
It just doesn’t feel right  
He goes on to publish
She’s my Aphrodite

Oh I want to be teleported
To the age of billet doux
Just two love birds
On a hilltop with a great view

So on a fine Monday morning
I told him what I really want
He said it much like a warning
That the Stone Age is long gone.

She ran away
From
The demons
In her
Just
To be
Enveloped
In
Your
Embrace
Long
Enough to
Make
You realise
That
you were
her
Seraphic  grace.

How life and destiny gave me you,
We hit each other with the size six shoe,
How we laugh and talk,
And attack each other with the box of chalk,
How time can never separate us,
We fight for a little seat in the bus,
How we wipe each other's tears,
And slap our faces to sink in fears,
How we always have a helping hand,
And the way we snap the elastic rubber band,
Friendships only might remain,
But I hope you'll always be the same.

Two men
Strung to the poles
Bedazzled in love

A girl
At the apex
Stringing them along

A classic triangle
Hopeless romance of sorts.

They meet on the decision day
Under the cherry blossoms
The girl having made her mind

said,

“No thanks I like my triangles with crust, marinara, and mozzarella spread.”

I asked "what is it to be in love?"
"It is to be with me." Said he.

You spill magic all around,
By your allure I’m spell bound.
Your words work like elixir on me,
Filling me with inexpressible glee.
You make me your marionette in an instant,
From a 22 year old girl, I follow you like an infant.
Your touch leaves me frozen to the ground,
I want to know , if I’ll ever be more than just your rebound ?

The unseen flash, the unseen pain,
She cried a lot, she cried a while,
She was so hurt, she ran away miles,
Her sadness bloomed her in,
The way you kissed her on her chin,
Why would she cry, how could she feel?
You dint know that for you she'd kneel,
She slowly tore apart, hiding all her words and deeds,
She wanted nothing, you were her only need,
It was an unseen flash, an unseen pain,
All tears she cried were in the rain.

You had my heart at the first Hi,
You’re so skeptical, I don’t know why.
You got me roses when I’m a sunflower,
Making me blush, draining me of my inner power.
You create an aura around yourself,
I try so hard to delve into your shelf.
You get me hot and craving in an instant,
To call you tempting would be an understatement.

There are things we spend years forgetting,
But with just a tiny wave of hope all that forgetting is washed ashore.

You are the quiet after a storm,
You are the devil dressed as a lord.
You are Deceitful in every form ,
Your glamour can’t be ignored.

You sweet talk me into your charm,
Helpless I am your little pawn.
Intentionally I brought upon me this harm,
I often wish I could be your swan.

You trick me into the web of lies you spin,
Moonstruck and infatuated, I Fawn over like a clown.
In cold blood I endlessly commit this sin,
Pursuing your heart that could be the diamond of my crown.

All this while knowing you are a figment of my imagination,
In a dream I once dreamt a cosmic creation.

Now, when I enter through the door,
there’s no wagging tail.  
I miss how you’d wake me up,  
Your tongue licking my face.

I miss how you’d bark,  each time I ate fruits alone.  
Now they no longer taste as sweet,  
Engulfed by grief, by my pain I’m overthrown.

I remember the day you came home, my sweet ball of fluff.  
You jumped on my lap with such certainty; it’s like you knew the depth of my love.

I recall feeding you milk and singing you to sleep,
Your departure makes my sorrow steep.
You clutched your paws to my palms tight,
My heart melted with each loving sight

You sensed when I was happy, you sensed   when I was low.  
You’d lie down next to me; you were there through the winds and snow.

You grew insecure when I fed other dogs,
Barking to say, “I’m just yours.”  
Now that you’ve ascended to the heavens, My ailing heart finds no cures.

You’ve taught me how to love and be loyal; for that, I’ll forever be in your debt.  
You’ll live on in every memory, every song;
Your companionship, I’ll never forget.

What I’d give to hold your precious little paws in my hands today?  
I’d give it all away, I’d give it all away.

Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined a love this sweet,  
May the rainbow bridge you cross lead to a day we soon meet!