Don't run
Won't hide
Don't shun
Won't lie
Don't punch
Won't cry
Don't hunch
Won't deny
Don't plunge
Won't die

Morning
Touch the darkest shade of me, missing dads embrace killing me how i cant see my face, believed since my hikikomori
Always had a date, i'm attacked by fakes doing my years on this island praying for a quiet night and...
He was my friend and you played with his heart like its tennis, he's atrophied and doesn't have time to put in, disturbing the tranquility
Subtlety, with those flying white kites scarce of their integrity, if you feel that way i hope you're satisfied
Out the soul, i gotta focus on family problems while mommy making solid amity offerings
Back switch, no fraternity, no honesty just a couch covered in green, i'm the burgundy
Head lopsided, stomach growling. scanty pride, slim chance of lies from me
There's no worst feelin' then waking up and not knowing why you feel so empty, not hungry but G.A.D got me walking with a time limit
Only happy with a clutter of my nig's, don't sass when i'm hectic, two boxs of cig's now its getting mephitic
I'm pathetic, i know they said it, even though they're not looking my way, against it in sturgis, i misinterpret like this
Morning
Burdens on my skin, belly of her lungs, moms been smoking again, losing the negativity but choosing my belief
Throw my virginity off the balcony? cause everyone is into me? you must still be sleeping, you must still be dreaming
You're nineteen, said you're impressed by my aplomb and i try really hard even when you're on my phone, i apologized for my anxiety, for my inability to process equanimity
You're nineteen, i don't really care that you're older, i must be a loner? all i need is your closure, illegal so we gotta think it over
Of course i hate my foes, history repeats and that's how it goes, hearts gold when my soul is sold, brothers?man have plenty of those
sinking, drowning in life. overly suicidal holding my fathers rifle
Riddled from my past, tell the preachers and satan'll ask
Touch the darkest shade of me, missing dads embrace killing me how i cant see my face, believed since my hikikomori
I'm fifteen

We breath in the open air
We see beautiful animals and we stare
We like to be free
The leaves burst into scene
And the animals fall asleep
We'd play games and listen to indie bands in the forts
All sorts of fun, but this kid didn't bring his shorts so we had to share
It was disgusting
But no need for fussing, we were excited for the bizzare stars we sought
All of us fought tiredness
We tried not to fall asleep
But everything was running outta scene

Played until nightfall
Six months since we made landfall
I've seen it all, I've seen it all
Shes the dream-catcher, fall she'll never
let go, that's your curtain call
let go, that's where the dreamers take control
She changes the weather, she changes the weather
Seems like its always getting colder, as she draws closer
fantasy, it was solely us in garden city
worry worry, noted for her austerity

Our first allision, in the offing
Nothing ever stuns the onlooker
Ripple out into meditative layers
We are a pair of choplogic ships
Blending in multiple narratives
I notice a splash of color, snapping
Your oceans' scenery is crystalline
With a high-tension passage
Rising tides grew like ivy
Issues are a grain of sand
Fluttering in the slight breeze
Are in my flaccid hand
Your tousled, bold-spry knees

In a skin of pink that would blossom into thoughts
Conjured confidence incessantly walks the sidewalk
Leaving you with little else but a trail of smoke
Exposed and relentlessly reeling from across

Care is weight
While we remain anemic
Observing my bedraggled face
You can tell we haven't been eating
We're just fading away

Filthy chins are heaving
Weeks in and weeks out
To see the daylight leaving
My eyes pointed south
As i turn in

With eyes that fully see and hearts that fully love
The cows and sheep and crept onto houses one by one
The city icily eyes the approaching sun
As the light crawled, it all began to awake

Allowing our lungs to wane
Upon the school's rooftop
Watching these good times disappear
Like tears in the rain

A Lackadaisy
Stealing
Fictional reasons to ignore the blooming summer

A Lackadaisy
Stealing
Hazy shades of you become shreds of consuming hunger

You've written me a note
Though you're flattered at most
In memorandums, words seem to choke
I want to die, I want to cry with my eyes shut
The process is just a big spin of a wheel with no control

Once a kiss becomes a piffle
Once a **** becomes so little
Your hair will turn into clearest blue when under water
You'll alter, you'll alter
You can be my finishing touch, come hell or high water

Overwhelmed with pride no matter where you go
You'll be choking highways with your soul sold
Smiles etched so deeply on your face of gold
Homegrown, hiding the truth in rotten smoke
Advanced apathy has shrunken and rode to a new road
Drag yourself for hours to a whole different hope
My only path is an everlasting rope
All of the machine hearts kicked to me
To make my steel skin show its attached bones

Pick up your pen and scribble down a suicide note
Pick up your soul and forgive me for the tone
Where I'm going to, you can't ever bemoan
Conversations we had before are gone and can't be condoned

We slipped into our socks, eyes were closed
Soaking boldly within us, acedia's warm coat
View the clement fate, endless reaches cold
Every step lead to atrophy past the belt post
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City's first pinching, whipped us into a storm
They pin down our wings so we'd conform
Every breath is an option to plummet or soar
Yet like a moth, i'm drifting down to the floor

Born within a terrible mess
Nothing lasts in your sleepyhead
Music dashes your thoughts to bits
By some sort of gnawing loneliness

Your composed of broken bones
Dethronement shifting within control
Enclosed are senses so unknown

You are now a means to an end
Though your wonderful view is hidden
The shine lifting you, bent and dimmed
By some sort of gnawing loneliness

You're beautiful across the room
With the skunk next to you
Though you'll never discover
That I could be your lover

My skin is made for the eyes hatred, what my parents never said
That its lunacy and it's all in my head, 7 years of what my parents said
From my sight, from what I'm brain fed
Gun shots, fireworks, and explosions are now pinching the imperfect night shift
Go run for the fire escape, but first tilt and flip over the candle sticks
Then hear the screams of them ignifying between the excessive crevices
I will be gone forever by the time you're fearing this
Eternal journey of mistakes, vows, loves, and spurns
Angels have passed, burned and have been mutilated to the dirt
Little did I know, each second is a high point of concern
Lately my unfenced self-esteem has been exceedingly porous
Since he, the amorphous monster that has pulled closer to our forest
Began to ****** his way in
And I vow to stay in, as long as earth doesn't become heavily horrid

My face blew up at such a casual sight
Every minute is moderated by a memory or concern
The shower's fog clogs my throat, yet it feels right
Because the surface of your heart never embraced mine

There's an opening gradually slipping and wearing thin
I'm freezing to the bone and you're steaming homes
Plucking the pearls and personality from me, inch by inch
And I thought you'd be different

We all looked up to your encrypted pattern
Like a baseball, they fly past our eyes
Right into & through the saturn

Few have cut their strings
And risked it all to chase their dreams
Few have grown their wings
To take pride in the task they achieved
To pleasure on materialistic things
Or to take part in the view of other's agony

From your monster height, they please
You the queen
You fail to find someone to trust
And your downfall undoes it's rust
Drink at all costs, avoid the pain
Shame comes down on you at once
Like a bullet to the brain

As the clouds began to howl
More glorious than the gods
Of those evil neighbors of ours
Glory shows up
Exposes us
I’m naked here
Forsaken here
Strokes my ego
Echoes a hole
As the clouds began to roll
Into a thunderstorm
They shook loose
From the whispering fingertips
From the flickering flames
Standing in the sun
In the morning
We are new
To stiff upper lips
To crawling palisades

Towns grow and run over somewhere these years
Can't stop thinking about those tears
Pounding into the dirt forming a tree
Filled with imagination
We are free
Now we hear cheers not so much of fear
But the tree was burned down and the kids are traumatized by the end
We wasted our time
I need you so
Im chasing the time
Following the glow
Awakening in Germany
I feel ready to leave but the people will not let me, I have a choose a route
Left or right, which is right?
Where will I write?
I need you so much
We wasted our time
We chased for the time
Losing the shine
Oh no
Oh I need us to be together
Doves fly because of the love left over
We wasted our time
I need you so
So i'm chasing the time
Following the glow
Fighting for the show
Shooting through the sheets trying to reach
Dear, I need you to hold my hand against the wall and the same thing we trained for all those days
We waited
We waited for something more
We wasted our time
I don't blame you so
Im ceasing the time
Catching the glow
Flowing through the night
Awakening in Germany
I feel ready to leave and the people will let me, I have a choose a route

My chin is ****** in the piles of plastic cups
After nibbling myself out, the tables are bused
Onward unlatching, mussed my steady cause-
she was seducing my balance, I had to adjust
She dented concrete when sussed
She saw my incision and continuously cut
She saw my face when her description didn't fit
To be weak, anemic, and homeless I admit it
Now that my leash is leaking out of the tub
I'll remain spiraling like when in cuffs

In the backyard I strayed far, far along
It was bound to happen
You find your balance and start to tip off
Still you go on and on
Floating right by your flaws
Float by empty bottles when you scoff
I know its not my place
But you need to stay inside
Take time to recover from memory loss

I know it's not my place
but should you care about fame and pride
If you refuse to remain alive?
You should close your eyes
I'd press them with my cheek
You cannot live without the thought of genocide
Hold your ears and fall, fall asleep
The next pill when send you a hundred feet high
This time you won't trip off the peak

Slowly the space makes me quiver
The moment i wake up, i descend
I bestow rust upon words i could remember
Scrutinize titters, like they've done the impossible
Tape covering my eyes
A spoon to feed me lies
I try and try, so futile
I try and try, i negate
Eleven passages, heart horrifically corroded
Sat with me with my dinner
Ignorant to light, everyone seems benighted
Yet you glimmer

Nobody knows who you are until you've told them
But you can't tell everything
Therefore you won't be the same
You wont notice it for a while
They will make suggestions periodically to make you change
Then when you find out you've changed
You can't go back
Which brings me to the point
You never feel like you gained much
But you lose the touch you had before
Nobody knows you anymore