trouble shifts
our troubles seems
to be always negative
its like a wake up call
my trembling hands though
shriveling up in a ball
no matter how you go
im going to close my door
lay down
and go to sleep
never ever wake up
youve had enough
you have had enough
it was just right
but you broke the light
hey go away
its dark as night
you were shaking
you cant just walk away
you just cant wait
for the end of story
but you illuminated the tunnel in me
then you leave me
then you leave
hurting my mental health
until i get confused
and let go of the other girl
its been hard to eat
so i go to sleep
i have no hope
my dreams are laying down
because no matter how you go
im going to close my door
lay down
close my eyes
until im confused again
and i die inside
i lost the sight of your eyes
it leaks away
like my heart pouring
onto the bed
in which i lay
going down
trouble shifts
upside down
cant stop the lies
so i blow out the lights
so i close my eyes

When the nights were tempestuous or very dark
These great big sheets would disintegrate
I'd scarcely make your side my dwelling-place
Spectre out of the room, through the hall, into the park
Under a molten sky, beyond the grass, we wait
My bedraggled face
Drunk of whiskey to ease the sporadic space
The fevered plastics that seal your body
Dissipating in a violet chase
Tonight a special memory serves me

Where I
Over the sharp edges of the slate-rock, glittering with a prize
Boisterous attempts to restore the spirit of the evening
When she was pounding on the wall
One had seen me enter the hall, yet there i was in the midst of them
Removing the stones and burying myself underneath them
My red and white mouth blew a putrid scent, hovering my pampered lament

You'd blurt out something unforgivable
You'd yell out to the monkey in the room
Say it and I'll have to go alone
Mute your unkind mind from those things you call distractions
Sending you the truth, saying things like that are pretty sad
Your dad is an automated system
Driving recklessly, laughing at my pains
Listen turn that down, listening to your faceless friends
Skin color is only a screen blinding you
Why does it matter anyway
But you won't just leave it alone
Saying stereotypical rhymes out loud
Just leave me alone
You blurted out something unforgivable
You were screaming to the monkey in the room, which you'd soon regret
Enough was said

There is a shadow i belong to
It ran away from the light shined upon me
The sky isn't dead yet
We have one more night left
Together
The night is coming
So i hope i see the sky naked tonight
It had me like a ricochet into the highway
The shadows rise up
To defeat the purpose of avoiding danger
It went left to take on the ride
Nobodies gonna find you when your hiding at night
Never coming back home again
Leaving my side
No ones gonna save you
No ones gonna catch you
No ones gonna love you
You have to make up your mind
And then destroy all the emptiness
Dance with me
This one last time
The sky is crawling around the clock
The sky is crawling back from everyone
The sky isnt dead yet
Make up your mind please
Because im still fond
Dance with me
This one last time
There is a shadow i belong to
It ran away from the light shined me
The sky is crawling around the edge
The sky is crawling all over again

Please just respond
I hate it when you ignore me
Stop this madness
I won't give you up
Where are you hiding?
I need you right now
Don't leave me stranded in the middle of nowhere
I want you to know, I know you're hiding
We can bond again
Please just respond
I hate it when you ignore me
Am I not enough?
Or is the other guy coming out
Lets talk again
Your love just gets me confused a lot
These slots you put me in are breaking down
Please just respond
I hate it when you ignore me

Someday you'll see
Youll see someday that nothing will be...
And the ocean will wipe out all of the trees
They will fall on the tip of your feet
You keep hiding under the sheets for what?
We are all rising up to them
You're just dancing in a hurricane you know, but I can help you
(What can you do?)
I can find a drop of rain to strain the fire bursts, and we will use our strength then let go....
Oh no
(What can we do?)
(The fire is burning the door!)
The ocean bursts the door open
Illuminating all what was riding us up
You were dancing on the hurricane
(You were right)
Now we can chose to run away or let go
The storm is gonna pass us by

I knew it wasn't a dream
After all who could tell the difference between reality and fiction anymore
There is just too much gore which is relevant to this caustic situation
For some reason, some odd reason I'm walking on a building
I can see everything
The building is stacked up too high
I want to fall
A spirit keeps me near
I don't understand why
Grief begins to consume my lifeless body
I don't know if I'm dreaming or not
I'm still on this building
Now the color is gray, and the world is gone
There are only few left
Metal Machines are now our gods
I want to fall
And I can, nothing is holding me up
I wonder why
I knew this was a dream
Ships began to line up against the tower
They try to pull me down
I don't wanna know if this is real or not
After all who could tell the difference between reality and fiction anymore

Age is a number
A number of height or maturity
Height is a number
How long does it take to know how long you really are?
How lomg are you in the mind
All the things that drag you down
Are you a serious person
Or constantly smiling?
Does it matter?
Whether how different you are
I ache everyday
Not finding a way to say
Why so many delays
Now this is the future
You know its true
You don't say a word to the person
Even if the persons next to you
All the words you wish you said
Are now stuck inside

The room exploded with her screams and screams of joy too
She rarely notices
The dark figure following her every move
Light blonde hair was sticking up all over the place, very smooth
She rarely notices
My smile from her sinking down my drowning blue
During a movie it’s easy to let your mind wander
My thoughts call out my will to take her number
Something caught my eye, and my thoughts suddenly snapped back in my head
My already pale face was completely drained of color
My heart will be buried where my body is, so don't mourn when i'm dead

I knew who she was before, with that crooked smirk on her face
I knew she was looking at me like it was an instinct
She always had her ways of looting me
She's always had a beautiful face but inside she maybe anything except rightful
She knows I could've done more but I was such a kid not understanding what she said
Oh so she knows that I know that I like to be unknown but still says she's maybe out to get me, I know that she knows that she's not gonna wrestle with me, the two of us it could've been, but she's just so intense also insensitive to the point
Though she looks like a diligent sweetheart, she likes to act like she is, but so intense she is
She goes into a alley way to hide away from me
I just die everytime i look inside
Shy she called me, when I hid away from the drugs, she took a shrug and kept going and blowing the smoke my way
She knows that I know that I like to be unknown but she's maybe, maybe out to get me, I know that she knows that she's not gonna hurt me, the two of us it could've been, but she's just so in-fenced she just too intense
I just don't wanna let it go
I don't wanna let her down
I knew who she was before, with that crooked smile
Though she looks like a diligent sweetheart, she likes to act like she is, but so miss understood she is

I'm determined to bleed
If i sleep i can see what'll happen
Sometimes i feel a warning
Warming inside my bones

Play this movie
Over and over
Believe me its old
It freaks me
I'm legally out
Talking man less by side
I hold my heart
Waiting for the signs

I'm determined to bleed
If i sleep i can see what'll happen
Sometimes i feel a warning
Warming inside my bones

Laugh at what you want
Yes
Im a comedian
You applauded
I feel silly
I have this feeling
Im always high
You're always high
Craft what you want
Oh yes
I have materials
And i feel dizzy
You dropped the brush
And grabbed me
Im always down
Youre always down
Sometimes I'll shout out whats wrong with me
You're right for me since you always know the answer
I wanna go where you go
I will do what i can for now
Because i found what i needed

Doors closing
You sat to watch
My little show
Crafts and such
So you walked out
Talking about what you said
You stained my chest and it wont cone clean, she drugged me down
As soon as i tried you cried
With words saying it feel right
Everyday you come away from the show
What it takes so much
To make you happy
I try and cry
I'm breaking sound
Oh this feels so right
Then you almost overdosed
Taking another's hands too many times
I was there to help but i must leave
You can't figure out which hand is true
You're gonna be the one to lose
Now there's another door closed
You come and come
But nothings left for you
I'm just no longer fond of you
I thought it be fine
Of course i want you by side
But you took the wrong lane
Leading to exploration
Peaking through the curtain to leave me
Just know I'm happy

Doors closing
You sat to watch
My little show
Crafts and such
So you walked out
Talking about what you said
You stained my chest and it wont cone clean, she drugged me down
As soon as i tried you cried
With words saying it feel right
Everyday you come away from the show
What it takes so much
To make you happy
I try and cry
I'm breaking sound
Oh this feels so right
Then you almost overdosed
Taking another's hands too many times
I was there to help but i must leave
You can't figure out which hand is true
You're gonna be the one to lose
Now there's another door closed
You come and come
But nothings left for you
I'm just no longer fond of you
I thought it be fine
Of course i want you by side
But you took the wrong lane
Leading to exploration
Peaking through the curtains to leave me
Just know I'm happy
You were just another door to close

Sitting in my bedroom
Daydreaming about screams
Smoking like Charlie sheen
I'm not going to be seen
I'm sick of eating collard greens
Get this plate outta my face
Before I chase you around the house
Legs crossed on the couch
Too lazy to even open my mouth
Looking forward to seeing you because you actually got that invitation
I've got that transportation
We can ride together with our own designation, focus
Right now I'm looking at my wall
Feeling the sensation of my craziness
Call your phone to have a good conversation
Two bottle caps snapped back
Wearing my old snapback
Putting in the next track
I'm getting cold matter a fact
Strapped in a box loaded with socks
I would interact but I'm trapped in my mind
Sinking because of my Overthinking
Skimming through this book which is uplifting, focus
I'm gonna get high tonight

Mom said I can have a Tyrannosaurus but she lied again an instead gave me pie
I sighed and grieved for days
Then she told me she got me one and it died in the car
That was far long ago before I worked Petco
But I really give a crap though because I would of broke its neck anyway
Just saying, I would've got bored if playing
Am I stating I have something against prehistoric figures, well I didn't say anything about ******

Sitting in my bedroom

I hear the way you call
Keep all your needs
I cant carry them yet
When i can, i will be there
I can hear the number eleven
Took me that many seconds
To come next to you
You know
I hear the way you call
Coming for you now
Coming now

I have to come clean
I've been thinking about the meaning
I live behind the curtain
Searching to be a new person
Rehearsing in the mirror
Took a second to think about it
Not about to talk about it
People telling me to wake up
When I sing my songs and live my life then I'll be up
Clinging to fact of being alright
I just wanted you with me, alright
Holding on with all my might all night
Scared to fight the ghost under my desk
Infested with ludicrous thoughts
I could not believe
Received all that you gave to me
You ran away from me
I didn't cheat, you see
But it all started with Emily
I have to come clean
I've been thinking about the meaning
About where did we go
With these cops though
Beating blacks with a paycheck
When they die I hope they find there way down, hope they hear the flames sound
Brighter than the sun
Drowning in a pond of words
You told me this
What to search, is what life is for
Never thought about like this before
Never seen me like this before
You asked me more
Stringing the wrong chords
Then I told you sure
Walking down to the shore
You said how could you ignore
I started to think of my wrongs
I went down and laid on the floor
You took me down to show me that it wasn't meant to be me
Hiding away from my family
Sinking lower daily
I have to come clean
I've been thinking about the meaning
Because it all started with Emily

She's so soft and warm in my arms
My hands are resting on her shoulders
There's no reason to hurry
And I held on brightly, crushing quietly reason to be nervous
Just start that brand new story
All real but still unseen
There is no more decision
You say things will be well and fine
I think I'll be alright
I think we'll be alright
Stay close to me
Stay close, believe
I wont let them destroy these dreams
We can't let them delay those dreams
I think we'll be alright
I think we'll be alright
And I held on brightly, crushing quietly

I hold you all day in bed
You dream of dancing
Soft and angel like
You should be alright
It was just too sad for you there
You put your hands on my face
They can see whats left
I can see whats left
You can see whats left except you're breathing to be human once again
I hold you all day in bed
You need comfort
You took my heart away
I've already decided
I let you find yourself with me
Nobodies searching for you
I want to be there for you
When in need
Once again
I let you find yourself
Because I've already decided

Pictures gleam on the wall
I hope it will stand there forever, without one fall
All we have are memories and dreams
Memories that last long enough with us telling a vivid story of our drops and leaps
We always stopped on trips to steal the feelings of  life
We made a painting but we didn't get to put in the final touches
We were sad at first but it brings back a great time

its insane but a little something to contain, I just want to be remembered so you can remember my name

Dear friend
You cannot handle light when you're five foot three
Now to dig deep trenches in the beauty's field
But don't leave me
To feel my vacivity

Dear friend
Its easy to become a shadow when you're five foot three
Your name is as majestic as your bedraggled face
We're an all-bottled shame, with all-throttled praise
Growing weary

Dear friend
Your love is greed with a stomach that can't be satisfied
Yell your final words, and forget me so easily
You're not used being asked, where all the beauty lies
So very desperately

If I had only one wish I would use it for the community
Who would've thought that was an option
Who would use it as an opportunity
To stop the abductions and deductions
You know the way to get what you want
But you kept taking a wrong turn, you could help us build the 2D town
You just won't dismount that thing
You are like spider creeping on my skin
I try not to stomp all over you
If I had only one wish I would use it for the community
Who would've thought that was an option
Who would use it as an opportunity
To stop the abductions and deductions

My balance shifted when i saw you
I push and push away from embarressment
I run away
I feel horrible
But for my safety
I will take the free and easy way
Im alone
I will be alright
I always believed we were friends
But now you've had enough
I said I'd be alright
But im restless
My balance shifted when you called me
I didnt say a single thing
You saw me before
She told me to find someone else
I said i would be alright
But im suffering
The party we had is tearing me apart, i grabbed the microphone and shouted out the truth about my feelings
She said alright
I will be alright

Sometimes she gets on with life as a model, She's a funny kinda gal. She likes listening to music and playing chess. She likes to contemplate studying. But when she starts to daydream, Her mind turns straight to socialising.

Sometimes I look at her and I look into her eyes, I notice the way she thinks about me with only a smile, Curved lips she just can't disguise. But she thinks it's studying making her life worthwhile. Why is it so hard for her to decide which she loves more? Studying or... Socialising?She likes to use words like 'quirky' and 'lovely.' She likes to use words about people. But when she stops her talking, Her mind turns straight to depression.

Sometimes I look at her and I look into her eyes, I notice the way she thinks about me with only a smile, Curved lips she just can't disguise. But she thinks it's studying making her life worthwhile. Why is it so hard for her to decide which she loves more? Studying or me?She likes to hang out with Justine and Vitta. But when left alone, Her mind turns straight to her loneliness.
She hates herself and the rude people who stomp on her like ants. But she just thinks back to socialising, And she's happy once again.

We laugh
We launch across the yard
We were so alive
Only to become older
They laugh
They play with costumes
As wizards and kings
We were so deprived
But we only became older
Growing out of the stages
Away walking out
Cant find our way back
We were so alive
We wore vests
Swords under our arms
We laugh

The lights skate across her cheeks and shine in her eyes
Argued that beauty's red and virtue's white
Yet our ambition makes us still to fight

Her touch that lifts the day from the mundane
My tongue-tied patience with too much disdain
Knowing her look torments me with disdain

She might think me of some benighted youth
My head swears to heart that she is made of truth
So she I lose, likely through my unkind abuse

You trade in your reality for a wing You trade in your sense for an act
You give up your ability to feel, to put on a mask

Away he steals your heart with an open listening ear
Stuffed up with his lust, as minutes fill up into hours
I'm used to your inner indecisiveness that is as wavering as a coward

I've once soared upon the barren land's monitor
Before the snow dimmed my outdoor activities
Shrouding me below the christmas gossamer
Until the upcoming stumbling lump of leaves-
Began to prosper

Yard work
Just another weekend worked off again
Yard work
Just something to protect against
Yard work
Just had to check in again
My clothes are ruined
My water hose busted then made an ocean
My siblings ran outside and began to swim
How could this be?
Yard work
Summertime will end again
And I will be back inside
Who's controlling this outside these walls?
These days will never die off alone
My green pants are thrown away
My white shirt was burned away from home
The sun had shown up with nobody, the clouds were gone
Yard work
Our troubles will begin again
Yard work

You woke this morning upside down, feeling underground
Your ear would crack if you headed a sound
Feeling like a sad clown
You were out of town
You were in need of money
Raining outside
Raging about wanting it to be a clear sky, but nothing's going to done about that
You get a phone call from an unknown number
Your son was in an accident
You put on your raincoat
And hurried out to the gun store
You bought a 1928 Tommy Gun and a S&W; Model 19
Later on you're getting off of work, waste management
You got in your car and drove back home
Meanwhile you were driving and caught a glimpse of a boy and turned the steering wheel hard
The car took a crazy drift off a cliff
You survived for 2 hours before too much blood was lost

Open up your heart
Now i can tell you what i see
How amazing is this day
Now i can tell you what i mean
Everyday is a different day
I sway to you always
I care enough to enlighten you
Open your heart
If your happy to explore
My needs and my feelings
When your hurt
I will heal you
When i change
You will see
Your heart is what it seems
I feel it more and more
I open up and see whats inside me
Honestly i want to explore
Our country with you
Soon we will
I opened my heart so you could see your everything in my life
Lets hop on an airplane
If your happy to explore with me

The feeling was gone as I made position
Sounds like gold, Skin like porcelain
Hunt the faint hints of increasing distance
You will only find me in boxes of light
Standing in the rain
Nearly washed the day away
Dressed in black with eyes of grey
When our footsteps were searing
It nearly lifted your shackled face
Spending hours adoring every single thing
Your mystic power calls to me
The end result is an absence of luxury
Here we are
Together building another way to the morning

Mesmerized listening to the shame you ha take
No more repealing the game
Staring at a frame to understand what its saying
Staying here, I can't give up
I will not be controlled, I will show you what I've been deciding
What is going on in that head of yours
Warning all the people just to ignore in the source of you igniting
My instincts are telling me wrong, I try to make it work
You touch me and it starts to burn, just tell me what is wrong
Every day its the same thing as well as the first time in the past
When you kept coming back wanting my feed back on what you're learning
Advice is my only use, how I feel and its burying inside bones alone and scared
It was a dare to talk to you, then I walked with you, it was the just two of us
Plus you were stalking my conversations
You were my sensation and now your just a reminder of the month

You say hello
Holding some old photo's
You never say anything
But you look below, their faces
And chase that low face away
You die inside
Shouldn't you know
When you lie to yourself
That you're a waste of time
To go home and cry
Without a bed, or a shoulder
Go and hide
Between the doors and spaces
You won't, you won't come out
You won't, you won't come out
And then blow
Out the window and die
These dire nights
Might **** you
Out between the walls
The walls
The walls
That call out for help
But what can you do
You can't say hello
But then you fan away
Cold and hopeless outside
In between the walls
The walls
The walls
And you go
You fall on an empty road
And yell hello
At the ghostly people walking
That go home and cry
They stay inside, and fly like butterflies in the homes
In between the walls
And you stalk in saying hello
They say hello and hide
In between the walls
The walls
In between the walls
The walls

I shouldve known
I was a shadow
I dont wanna see her that way
Because I cant look into her eyes
I missed my target
I heard her story
In walking it off
think twice
She doesnt think straight
I think she feels a little outside
She hangs bymy locker all the time
I feel frozen in glaciers when i see her, she only saw a friend
She had her eyes everywhere
Her voice is hurting my ears
She said she cant sleep
Cant dream
Shes blue
So am i
She came straight at me
I know what she wanted
Shes blue
I shouldve known
Because i cant hear her voice anymore
The new her is here
It was cold around her eyes
Hung up across her stories
I dont wanna see her that way
But I shouldve known
I shouldve known

They like walking on the highway
Highways highways
But they push harder to be alive tommorow
They are usually criticized as insane boys
But they keep blowing side ways
Some of them are afraid of what might be insight while they're flyer than a flight
They love strolling on the highway
Highways highways
And they keep with passage ways
But they sometimes go where they want to
They like walking on the highway
Highways highways
But they push harder to be alive tommorow
They are usually criticized as insane boys
Insane boys insane boys
They want to live together
They think life is just a lousy freeway
Freeway freeway
They get ridiculed into the gangway
Later on they try to break away
But they went down the wrong pathway
The think life is a freeway
They like walking on the highway
Highways highways
They like walking on the highway
Highways highways
They like walking on the highway
Highways highways
They like walking on the highway
Highways highways
But will they survive tommorow?

The lamppost was on the left
Except only the forest was next filled with beer cans and foam cups
It was dark and mysterious
Feeling like a dilirious boy
I leaped over the fence
Finding myself as a dog in a cage kneeling periodically to the darkness
Shadows leak against the trees
The beer cans are gone
All the garbage is gone
My soul is gone
I jumped back over the fence
In the hollow street
Fog lines up on the side
I start to walk
stalking the voices in my head
The street turned to dirt
Feeling lost at street
Maybe I need a drink
But sometimes I just want the little things
Running through the fog
Leaning against my old friends
They know I was lost and want to help me
They walk among other shadows
Leaking up the street into a swamp

Sometimes i wonder why I'm afraid of why i stay
But that's an illusion for today and illumination will begin okay
I don't know what to do about the writings on the ceilings and i don't want you to forget me
I don't Sense victory of the war outside my home, the powder across the fields
You can the trembling of everyman and everything
My ceiling is peeling away the beautiful day, its gone, its gone
What do i do, I'm too late, its fate, I'm too late
I wonder why I was chosen, maybe I'm just a reminder that there was no answer or reason for the fighting,
Is this my home anymore?
Therefore I am lost
My fingers are frosted from the weather
It doesn't matter whether we had a good day or not the day is over
Therefore there are no more writings on the ceiling, and no more healing
the day is over