Your my highway girl,
I'm your backroad boy,
And you've become my joy

But when you see jet trails
your heart longs for rails
And steel and carriage wheels

And your mind takes wing
And your feet sing
For places they have never been

And I'm here hoping
That the trails on my arms
And the tales in my mind

Will be too much
To touch
And leave behind

So if you'll pack your bags
Put me in too
Cause home isn't home
Unless I'm home with you.

Media is the muse of our generation
Media amuses our degeneration
It's in the air abusing our obsession
If you cared it would feel like an intervention

We're failing at living upto what we're dying for

Opening our eyes
To the open skies
Seeing past the hoardings
Looking past the lies

The TV tells you a stolen story
That the advertisers asked to put before me
And paid an extra dime to change your mind
Cause it's laid on prime time

We're failing at living upto what we're dying for

Opening our eyes
To the open skies
Seeing past the hoardings
Looking past the lies

I forgot what sunrise looked like
What mama's sundays cooked like
What I really like
Before I went on this mindwarp hike

We're failing at living upto what we're dying for

Opening our eyes
To the open skies
Seeing past the hoardings
Looking past the lies

Your eyes are the sweetest kiss of all
Your smiles are the brightest list of small
sweet thing, that keep me singing
And stringing musicals out in the rain

It's the kiss in the touch of your hand
In the cookies burned in the baking pan
crying one batch went bad
But I see you're not sad over coffee and cards

You're the gasoline to my spark
The sand to my toes
The ravine in my heart
That nobody knows
You're the river that carves out
The shivers and doubt
And finds that the ocean can wait
Buried in sky we're satisfied -high on our fate

You remember the words I forgot
That December my heart was in knots
that it tied down the three words
I'd known you deserved but you let it go

I remember the letters I burned
The tear etched pages I turned
Around into long-winded prose
For my long distance hopes in your arms

You're the scene to my art
The sand to my toes
The ravine in my heart
That nobody knows
You're the river that carves out
The shivers and doubt
And finds that the ocean can wait
Buried in sky we're satisfied - high on our fate.

She says I don't understand what it means to be alone
I guess that's been true since the day I met her
She sat out in the storm on her own
And as I watched her I knew she was wrong

She always said the wind reminded her of home
Until I asked her to stay
I knew she was a rebel but how could I have know
That she would turn away
That she would run away

Nothing hurts more
Than standing at the shore
Watching a horizon
As the sky opens
Wishing you weren't on the other side
And I'm numb
Nothing hurts more than love

And she's off on another adventure
Somewhere between the lines
And I'm here trying to find where we were
somewhere between the lies

She's sitting at home in silence
And I'm walking in the rain
It's more than the distance
I guess somethings do change

Nothing hurts more
Than standing at the shore
Watching a horizon
As the sky breaks opens
Wishing you were still on my side
And I'm numb
Nothing hurts more than love

And I'm sitting out in the cold on my own
I never felt this way before I met her
I understand what it means to be alone
And I guess I will forever

Nothing hurts any more
I'm standing at the shore
Watching a horizon
And the sky's broken
Wishing you weren't on the other side
And I'm numb
Nothing hurts more than love

She teases me with please and sees the ease with which she kneads her seeds of plain jane ideas that inflame maimed ideals in the mind she unkindly winds to blind the mimes and hide the chimes behind my cruel foolish heart that she has ruled and ghouled apart with vanities and sanities sweet depravity that eats into the cavity in every meat memory that follows me until I am spilled and thrilled with the **** in the mirror, the bottomless fear that I see so clear is in time and climbs up my spine, but it doesn't rhyme.

Though she slay me
Yet will I love her

Her weapon was a stick of chalk
And her black board was my clean slate
With every word she'd talk away my fate

She taught me to imagine
And tied my wanderings down
Until exams were things that deserved a crown

Thoughts would end and curiosity was piqued.
And doubt and questions were words to be critiqued.

Slept alone, awoke to familiar eyes.

I found a piece I lost of me
In a songs release I found a key
So high it opened doors in me
Set a trapped note in my heart free

And every word flows over us
Over flows at the chorus
And something lost has come
Come to life from an anthem

And I am never as before
I am the encore

There between my mirror and me
Is a darkness, a dislike
Between the same and opposite I see
Is a sense of spite in-spite of me

I'll close my eyes
And try to see
The humor in a raspberry
But I still see what I can't see
Who I am
Is not who I'm meant to be

I fell in love with the walls around your heart
An elaborate maze, a work of art
So high no one could climb
So deep no one could find

You

Never counted on an architect
Finding your masterpiece perfect
And wandering the corridors
Walking every floor

My

Heart leading me deeper
Pulled not by the design any longer
But by the heart crumbling as I walked through
I came to a door and I knew

You

Were inside,
Our hearts collide
Our walls collapsed in
But you were wrapped in

Me

No more walls just skin
Roofs of hugs and chins
That the rain drips down
As you hold your ground

We

Are standing vulnerable and same
Troubled and strange
But now I know your name
That wall won't change

It's more beautiful than anything you ever built.
Because it is who you are.

Purpose is the thing between amazing and now,
And somehow I find that I am now the in between.
The seen and unseen not in the darks hold,
Held in the folds of fog, because I want to be light.

I sat in the back of the bus,
And I knew every day he would come
With some new joke for us
Some quip about how dumb we were
I can still hear the laughter

And if I raised my hand
It would be twisted and turned
Until my eyes burned and
The pain was returned
Two fold, and my heart was scorching hot and freezing cold.

Too hot to be silent too cold to move
And one day I proved
Enough was enough
And beat him until he cried
Until my rage was satisfied
And his was forced to subside to fear

Now he sits in the back of the bus
And he knows every day I will come
With some new joke
To poke the wounds I made
That he gave me
Of which neither of us will ever be free

If only I'd said sorry.

It's right there
Between your skin and my smile
Like a film of dust, or paper
Like the ache of days gone by

Why, I don't know why.

It's not the days gone
Or changing the songs
Or putting the pen down
It's just a look in your eyes

Why, I don't know why.

So I'll flail and slash
At the paper and ****
It's creases
Until there's nothing between us

Skin on skin
Eye to eye
Peace within
That's why oh why

Im fighting for the energy,
That I need to be me.
But it's tiring to be,
Where I can't,
Even decide,
What I am
Supposed
To be.
Be
Me.

I was walking one day and,

I felt it slip like a shadow between me and the ground
And it flips me off my feet and but i'm falling without a sound,
Or momentum or the hum of wind, just a shadow beneath and within.

I can't explain it in words, but it's the fear of failure
And the dark, and all unheard and stark and the masks whisper,
That I am nothing in a million eyes, and my disguise is known and paralyzed.

Remember to breathe.
Remember the bliss.
Remember others need you to get through this.
Know that your frail.
Know that you're scarred.
Know that doesn't stale who you are.

Walk on...

I don't know If I'll ever look in your eyes
But I've imagined it a thousand times
Me and your mom are still hung up on your name
But we'll pick a good one all the same

I wanna give you more than I had
But I'm not sure I can be a good dad
I hope this song can make you feel brave
Even if I don't know the right things to say

Love I know the worlds gonna change
But I hope you still find me this way

I'm somewhere between, a boy and a man
Somewhere between my hopes and a plan
You're somewhere between a gleam in my eye
And in bed so if this is your lullaby

Close your eyes
And know you are loved
You have a father below and above
So be strong,
Don't be afraid to be wrong
Be brave,
The darkness will turn to day

If your impatient it runs in the family
So be patient with the ones in your family
I know it's hard but try to love your enemies
Your doing it right when they join the family

Fall in love but be patient waiting for the one
Be spontaneous but don't lose sight of what is yet to come
Jon foreman was your daddy's favorite poet
And andrew mcmahon was on top of your mommas play list

Even though the songs we love may change
Our love for you will stay the same

Close your eyes
And know you are loved
You have a father below and above
So be strong,
Don't be afraid to be wrong
Be brave,
The darkness will turn to day

My greatest fear is that you will or won't read this
Because your mom and me can never really see us
Raising a kid with the way the world is
So I hope you know that if your listening to this

We decided we could love you and God would do the rest
Cause we've seen him love us and know you would be blessed
So long before we decided he decided for us
Let love be your engine, be strong and courageous

Close your eyes
And know you are loved
You have a father below and above
So be strong,
Don't be afraid to be wrong
Be brave,
The darkness will turn to day

I'm lyin under the stars.
Talking to myself
And suddenly I remember you
I remember all the scars
The years up on the shelf
The lines you tied to me that pulled me through.

But you never knew the lion
You only knew the lamb
And maybe that's for the best
But I remember how you were cryin'
And I'll never understand
Why God always makes us fail our last test.

And I'm lyin' under the stars
Counting the scars in the ceiling
I'm trying not to think
You might have never made it through
As far as the earth is from the heavens
My thoughts are chasing after you
And as I wonder where you are
Suddenly the stars fade from view.

You lulled me to sleep
With stories I would keep
Even if the details kind of blurred
And I remember I heard
In more than just words
That love could over come a broken world

And I'm lyin' under the stars
Counting the scars in the ceiling
I'm trying not to think
You might have never made it through
As far as the earth is from the heavens
My thoughts are chasing after you
And as I wonder where you are
Suddenly the stars fade from view.

The hand that held me up
Shivered as it fell
And I just stood there saying it would pass
I never should have let that moment pass

And I'm lyin' under the stars
Counting the scars in the ceiling
I'm trying not to think
You might have never made it through
As far as the earth is from the heavens
My thoughts are chasing after you
And as I remember your eyes
All the sugar coated lies
I remember your smile
And those long homeward miles
I remember how you cried
Years after grand pa died
I remember holding your hand
And me trying to understand
How something once so strong
Could shiver too
I prayed but I could not believe it was true
That you...

I remember your eyes
And suddenly the stars blur from view.

I'm searching for light in the shadows
Beyond where light ever goes
Because it's easier to look for it
Than to be blinded looking at it

There is nothing in here worth saving
Nothing worth taking or leaving
But I can't let go
I can't just go

Because there in the stillness
There in the panic and illness
I find me
A lost me

But it is still me in the mess
Just ignore the ssilent hiss and rest
Knowing I am
What I am

Because you are beyond my scars
You are beyond my stars
In your own shadow
Looking for windows

To send light into the dark of me

This is who I was
Lost in who I was meant to be
Found all I was not meant to see
In between you and me

This is who I am
Still picking up my tab
Even the one you said you'd grab
But debts are all I've ever had

This is who you are
You won't let go
Cause your love won't let you
No, you won't let go...

This is where we stand
Inseparably apart
Your love pursues my racing heart
And when it stops is where we start

This is where we fall
Half way to where you are
Slipped as I start to pass the falling star
At least the ground is not as far

This is who you are
You won't let go
Cause your love won't let you
No, you won't let go...

If this is all this is
I just want you to know
I know you loved me more
More than love could ever know

Here in the widerness
There's much you should know
Like how to make less seem like more
Or look past impressions and behind smiles.
To know who really cares and is therefore worthwhile.
Know how to turn loss to a profit in days,
By redefining profit a hundred ways.
And making the most of life's little fails,
Because chances are you will never prevail.
So welcome to the wilderness, learn how to lie.
It's a nicer way to live before we all say goodbye

I never knew loneliness... until you

Letters
A word
A phrase
That form a sentence.
It's a new beginning,
If you can see past the present,
At a glorious future,

Van gogh's crayon scribbles
Ramsay's teenage nibbles
Jordan's first shaky dribbles
And this thing,
A letter.

There in the wreckage of me,
Where I hit the blood stained tree.
I breathed my last, You took my past.
My flesh died, but my spirit flew free.

I hear the stars sing
And still the night with song
A song so loud
It makes the world still

And as the cold wind blows
The warmth I feel
Is warmer than the sun
Or a lover's arms

And their light leaves the night
Dark and cool
But fills my eyes with a light
Only those who look deep enough can see

I hear the stars
And whisper back
And wonder through the void
If they hear me

In every heart there is a pane of glass
That separates the open from the closed
Where people come, from where no one goes
From where the sun shines to where nothing grows

Crack

From one side the light reflects
And we see ourselves like a mirror
But as the light and image grows clearer
We have to turn away for fear

Crack crack

We retreat behind the glass
Still we see beyond the pane
But no reflection remains
Only separation and pain

Crack crack crack

And the world becomes muddled
Words are barely heard
Everyone outside seems blurred
And it's quiet, yet stirred

Shattered

And everyone leaning against falls in
So we can fall out, and the glass cracks skin
And stains but at least there is no heart pane

Beside a well waiting for rain.

I find you reflected on the surface
The weather is warm bright and sweet
But sunk in the depths of the abyss
My heart's in a maelstrom beneath

And the water is crushingly cold
And dancing light mocks from the sky
But here in the shadows vice hold
I search but you're nowhere nearby.

I need you to step off the waves
To where no living thing can survive
Prove to me you can still save
I'll hold my breath til' you dive

Hello lonely eyes
Looking through the lies
Bright as the summer shine
She's easy on the eyes

We're in churches in chains
Singing of a love that's blind
Her chains are chained to mine
She's easy on my mind

Oh lonely eyes
If only our love were blind
She teases me with goodbye
But she's easy on the eyes

We swim in the rain
In the river we find
When we're drowning in pain
She's easy on my mind

Oh lonely eyes
Reflected in your eyes
And you're reflected in mine
You're easy on the eyes
You're easy on the mind
You're easy on the eyes
You're easy on the mind

I'm on the edge of awake and asleep
And the blade is pressed below my eyes
Hard enough to bruise but not to break
Soft enough that I can't sleep and I'm not awake

Just love on display
Ever dismayed
Stripped ripped
Undone
Shunned

Love hidden in secret
Overcomes the violent
Vindicates the silent victim
Ends the torment within
So we can know freedom

Yes we all need to decide
On the path we'll abide
Until the love inside can live outside

I see your voice and feel your eyes
In the void between my skies and soul

In the gap where life denies
In the wound between broken and whole

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

There where your bones meet mine
Where blood washes through

In that war between the divine
I feel you breaking through

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new

Here's my altimatum
If you want my life so good
Make silence my anthem
Cause only you could
Make gentleness my fist
And forgiveness my kiss
Until I can't resist
Cause I will resist
A new heart
Set apart
Solid
Without I
Sold
I must die

You're inexplicable but I can explain
That your touch doesn't look the same
Your silence will not sustain
I can feel you call my name
And it's just beyond view
But I see you're doing something new
And I hope I don't survive you.

Hello my heart of hearts
Why do you scream at the stars
Do you not know that they cannot hear you
They are far too far

Why do you hold to these sorrows of sorrows
Why do you rage against yourself?

Give up, There is nothing good in you, What is wrong with you, So ******* useless.

Heart of hearts this will not do.
That simple sorrows would rise this tide
And wash away the joy inside.

Remember small battles and losses mean naught.
They are the shadows between the stars,
That we trace behind our eyes.

Heart of hearts, if you believe this truth.
You will be the sky of skies.
That gravity cannot help but let fly.

She numbed the pain without needles

When I was lost in my way
You knew the day you would call me son
Like the son who ran away
You faithfully stayed cause’ you knew I'd come

You waited for me,
So here I am waiting for you.

Every moment so far has drawn me to your arms
You've worked it all for the good
Every moment that's left I give back to pay a debt
I can't make good on
Cause all I can give, is all you have given
When I give it all back there's still heaven left to pay
So I can gladly give my life away

When I felt orphaned
Abandoned and knew that I had no home
Your love was open
A love that awakened a love all our own

You made room for me
So I am clearing space for you.

Every moment so far has drawn me to your arms
You've worked it all for the good
Every moment that's left I give back to pay a debt
I can't make good on
Cause all I can give, is all you have given
When I give it all back there's still heaven left to pay
So I can gladly give my life away

When my hopes are broken
When I can't lift my hands to you
When my heart is aching
And darkness is all that's in view

I look to the cross
And I see you broken
I look to the cross
I see your hands lifted high
Praying for me
In your final moments
Your heart poured out
Your love lifted high

Here I surrender
Here I lay my life down
Here on the altar
I give you my love lay down my crown

You gave your life for me
So here I give my life for you

Every moment so far has drawn me to your arms
You've worked it all for the good
Every moment that's left I give back to pay a debt
I can't make good on
Cause all I can give, is all you have given
When I give it all back there's still heaven left to pay
So I can gladly give my life away

Her eyes are like the threads in a sweater when you looked close enough to see.
Warm and brown and beautiful.
And when she looked at me, on the coldest December.
The cold would melt away, and I'd feel warm.
Even in a storm.
Her eyes would warm.
And her smile would shine
And send shivers down my spine.
I've never been so warm and cold at the same time

I am the line on the road
White black and grey
Isolated from the way
As I guide others home

I am the traffic light
That turns of at night
Because I cannot stop or go
Amber in the cold

I am the path
Less traveled for the wrath
Of wind and storms
That longs for a foots warmth

I am where others roam
And I am never home
I am the place none but the poor stay
I am the highway

I'm falling he said looking away
Distance in his eyes
I asked him if it was love or dismay
And to my surprise, he said both

With a smile that could only bring tears
He sighed and looked me in the eye
And I caught a glimpse of it through the fear
The hope he could not deny

He would not be the mistakes
That made his voice shake
He would not succumb
To the fear that made him numb

He made himself a promise
To be strong, and make courage his form
And that this, this was not his end.
But just life's journey's bend.

I his comforter was comforted to know,
All I had to do for him to grow
Was sit in silence,
While he decided his future.

Amazed at the man my boy had become.
And the boy who sat by his side.

With three words we give our hearts away,
To people who hold it lighter than a word on the ear.
Lighter than a whisper.

With three words we give our lives away,
When people echo those three words strong and clear.
And hold each word dear.

With three words on one dark day,
We will give those lives away with words heavier than rain.
That fall in puddles on deaf ears.

With three words every day,
We will remember them with joy and pain.
Until they wake us with three words whispered in our ear.

I recall
Wonder wall
At 3 in the morning
And love was dawning

Somewhere in the darkness

But I was wrong
You were gone
Before the sun's first light
Or night

In the twilight of your heart.

And I'm sitting in the room
We would fall asleep in
Where you told me It will be fine
If I ever leave you
It's cause I left the world behind
Silent in the shadow
Wondering if you chose
The day or the night. The rest or the fight
When you walked through twilight

And I missed out
On your doubts
And the heresies
The blues and bottles of brandy

On nights I couldn't turn in

And the faith
Scarred by the hate
Of men who can't see
Past themselves

To see there is no grey in the night

And I'm sitting in the room
We would fall asleep in
Where you told me It will be fine
If I ever leave you
It's cause I left the world behind
Silent in the shadows
Wondering if you chose
The day, or the night. The rest or the fight
When you walked through twilight.

I remember as a kid
I would lie with my face next to a bed sheet,
And the closer I slid,
The wrinkles became waves and I imagine a desert of dunes and heat.

Or pull close to a wall below a window sill,
And press myself right up against it until,
All I could see was the edge with the light outside like a beacon.
And imagine I was trapped from a fall in a canyon .

The thing about imagining you're small is you feel more alone than you actually are.
The space between is the same, it just seems bigger.
Because you're more out of reach.

Rub me clean down to skin,
Raw and i'll ruin,
With sweat i'll chafe black indeed
Scrub me cleaner and I'll bleed

Chain me until
Marks bleed still
And I will sing
Until bars swing

Beat me until I am silent
I will be violent
With my eyes above
And hands that love

I will never be white
I will never be held
I will never be quiet
Until your hatred is felled

So tired that my mattress is pixels
And my body is static
My breathing is ripples
And my chest is aquatic

And that last sentence made sense
As my breathing is tearing
The sway that gives way
To sleep from awake

Be a thief and rob my sin
Your squatting my heart anyway
My rebel chief, usurp my king
I never liked me anyway

Be my jealous one and cull my lust
Until my heart beats for you
The surgeon I place my eyes and trust
That you'll blind all else from view

Be the thorn in my weary flesh
When the spirit is willing to work
Be the scorn that will refresh
When my heart is about to shirk

Be the door closed when I want my way
Over the the path you've trod
Be my fatal dose when my faith might sway
And when life's over be my God.

There in your eyes,
Is a reflection of me.
And you stare at skies
Like your ma did the sea.

And you tell stories like nana
Without the pauses.
And cringe like my brah
When I clean your bruises.

You laugh like a man
And you smile like my dad.
I don't understand
How all they had,

Got into a heart
As small as yours ,
And still makes me start
Just because,

You have a spark.
That lights the dark
And reminds my heart
Of a work of art.

Red splashes and dark
Finger marks
Of someone
More than anyone,

More than you and I
More than this love of mine.

This poem leaves me torn.
Because I'm your father.
But you haven't been born.
But I'm full of fear.

That you'll never see my reflection
In your eyes.
So here's my reflection
On your life.

So you'll understand.
Before your life began.
I saw your reflection.
I saw your perfection.
And loved everything about you.
Through our fathers' eyes I know you'll know it's true.

Today gravity gave way
The lost finally flew home
You led them on parade
From your grave to your throne

The bolted gates gave way
On both the sides of death
And she was dismayed
As she took her final breath

Oh... The day between dark and life
Oh... The day between death and light
Where the world thought all was lost,
and you left death double crossed

Oh... we took a sabbath's rest
Oh... while you overcame the test
Our works for heaven done,
the lamb of God has overcome.

They thought the light went out
It was just shining underground
You'll clear all of their doubts
When tomorrow comes around

The day before today
They ran from where you died
Soon they'll be running to the grave
To take their places at your side

Oh... The day between dark and life
Oh... The day between death and light
Where the world thought all was lost,
and you left death double crossed

Oh... we took a sabbath's rest
Oh... while you overcame the test
Our works for heaven done,
the lamb of God has overcome.

We are the second man
On the second day
Every second we're here
Till he comes again
Is all for his glory

Oh... The day between dark and life
Oh... The day between death and light
Where the world thought all was lost,
and you left death double crossed

Oh... we took a sabbath's rest
Oh... while you overcame the test
Our works for heaven done,
the lamb of God has overcome.

Somewhere between the rain drops
Theirs lightning
Somewhere between the rain drops
Theirs wind

And we're moved to and fro
Between the clouds and the shore
But the sky is where it begins
And where our journey ends

There is something depraved
That cannot be saved
Deeply enslaves
Makes us cave
And crave
Graves

I'm sitting in silence.
Six strings beneath, 5 fingers above, a four time, three chord, two bit, one direction song.
I've got to practice...
But I'm sitting in silence.

We are all paper pens
Stemmed in ink
What we write splashes back
And sinks in our skin
Cuts deeper than blood
And bleeds within
Finds a link in the flood
And is ink again

Then there's words that splash
And thoughts that crash
Upon our paper backs
And lash deep
Cut steep into the knib
Like a knife to the ribs
Or a lie to the lips

And from that lash
The **** makes the pen skip
But the ink still bleeds
Pools and words
Like tools to be heard
Tunes to the herd
That soothes up the hurt
Or destroys their worth

We are what we word
Or so I heard
Cause in the end
We're just paperpens
Stained while we stain
Until only ink remains

I thought our love was evergreen
Ever seen an evergreen fade
I cleared your things with gasoline
With gasoline until the garden was greyed

Well the smoke curled like your hair
But it's gone
And I've been teary eyed here
Too long

Goodbye
I hope you never see the tears
I tried
To hide them all these years
Not that you care
That I'm singing it from here
Goodbye
From a song you'll never hear

I watched the clock to pass the time
At last it seems our time has run dry
Your love it tastes like alkaline
Poisoning the earth once it dies

Well we were like a battery
That drained
The toys are all gone but well
Poison remains

Goodbye
I hope you never see the tears
I tried
To hide them all these years
Not that you care
That I'm singing it from here
Goodbye
From a song you'll never hear