it was so vivid to me
the way you're not letting me go
the way you pull me closer
the way you look for me
the way you come for me
sometimes i feel
is it just yesterday
sweet warmth was once shared
that fall on the bed
that hug when cold
it was my 30th
it was you right
i might be mistaken
this is just a vivid memory
as they say
it was
sorry that i lied
i did like you from the start

xoxo

a song was played
some tears fell
some memories was remembered
i was in that phase
i was in that place
waiting
almost crying
but still loving
caring
there are four decisions
but the f*
you made me wait
you made me give
you made like this
thanks it was forty dollars
no need to pay for it
i got it
i regret it
i think
that's life
hope your shoots bounce back

the scar is big
it is bleeding
the wound is real
it is aching
i haven't reach fifty
i feel like sinking
i always thought i am fine
but no i am not okay
it is bad to blame
it is hard to be ashamed
those scars where really there
you just made up
another
or it is burning up

are there more than 60 songs
related to you and me
is that the reason
i skipped a lot
just to forget
just to dismiss
just to miss
for we shared a lot
for we kissed a lot
for those songs in exact moments
are perfect
just like us
before
in the past
not now
maybe i can try to listen again
but not for you anymore
for those times
for the memories
the end

there is earth, wind and fire
there is nothing's gonna stop us now
the time where best love songs are
still can't believe how
looking back on the hope
it brought something in my heart
both like a band with seventies
nostalgic as it may seem
being true is rare
being real is more
i guess
that will be all memories
after all

xo

will it be nice
if we can go back
is there a hack
to check on the time
the time we felt it
the time we made it
the time we create it
maybe looking back
might bring a lot
of those feelings
of those missing
of those running
of those kissing
of those chatting
just to realize
it was all for nothing

its like a nineties song
nostalgic
a bit wrong
a lot of memories
but all from the past
you glance
i glance
you linger
do you want more
but just for show
i know
but why
who are you again
we are once kissing
we are once hugging
we are once something
we are once us
but now it is a was

it was a big shift
from friends to strangers
but it could be worst  
if the shift did not happen
shifts happen
***** happen
life happens
and for all you know it
it is still ninety-seven
or it could be just
being seven more than ninety
curveballs and shifts of universe
just happens
live with it

xoxo

the time when you are just seven
the time when you just know odd and even
the time when you don't breakeven
missing that year seven
where we are not mistaken
where we are not longing for affection
where issues are not getting worsen
can we begin again

what is the percentage
that i miss you
that i reminisce us
what is the chance
that you miss me too
that you miss us
what is this feeling
that i thought of you
that i create an image of you
is this ninety-nine percent
confirming
believing
that we miss it
that we must kiss it
to close it
to end it
coz 1% is not ours
to take
to risk

xoxo

maybe you will think
maybe you will feel
we all have reasons
we all have decisions
we all have explanations
does it count
does it matter
will it evaluate who we are
will it assess our personality
sometimes it will take seconds
or minutes
or years
what if it takes 100 years
to get back again
to turn that chance again
to hug her again
to say you love her
to say sorry
to make her feel
she's the one
she's the only one
of all the hundreds

xoxo

in this time
in every line
in this and every moment
inside this short poem
i hope you know this is for long
in sad times
in happy times
in all the nights
in each coming days
in all the seasons
i will fight
in tears
in joys
in all my hi's
in all my hello's
is you
inside my heart
i am thinking of you
i know you too
i really like you
i never think
i feel and i need you
i will say it
i am in love
in you

what it is really
that we crave
that we need
that we value
that we shout
in our hearts
into the world
in silent nights
in our sweet prayers
into the void
is it a person
is it a thing
is it a place
is it a moment
can we hold it
can we touch it
can we keep it
can we create it
can we feel it
will you be willing
will you risk it
will you take it
will you have it
will you make it
will you accept it
will you say it
love?

you don't know
you don't know
really you don't know
do you know i hurt myself
do you know i cry on random stuff
do you know i'm weird
do you care
do you still care
do you love
do you really love
i am a ****
i am a mess
i am a glass
i am a bomb
i can instantly break
i can create more mess
i can explode anytime
i have a time in my life
will you make time
will you be there in time
will you make space
really do you
are you willing
is it really you?

lots of laugh
lots of cries
lots of smiles
lots of frowns
in all the lows
and in all the highs
you are there
you are here
in my heart
in my mind
in my spirit
i know
location is far
but your
loyalty is on par
this is for a longtime
this is for the long haul
i like you
will lock this
look
definitely this is not lost
it is a sure found
LOVE

xoxo

some windows open
by force
by clicking
by checking
by pushing
by pulling
but this interface needs a user
the user is me
i open my window
i open my heart
i open everything
to experience again
to feel again
to love again
to be loved again
and this is one hell
of a user interface
this user interaction
is a
universe intersection
i found my red string
we found the You(U) and I
on each other
and i can't be grateful enough
for giving me the U in my I

xoxo

zealous
not jealous
make a zen
count to ten
will be in the
zone
no zip
no buts
all those
zzzs
and
zooms
let's turn them to
zephyrs of hope
zines of bravery
zero negativity
but trust the zodiac of love
for every year is
always us
yours
and mine

xo

this year was never
yours
it was all about
you
your choice
yourself
you yielding
towards any
yeses
yays
yums
yucks
but most importantly
this is all about
you
so just let's turn everything around
with new hellos
turn those yawns
to happy smiles
paint them yellow
let's yell
our young selves
with yearning

xo

the moment you touch that
xylophone
i feel your feelings become
xerox of mine

xoxo love

the moment you touch that
xylophone
i feel your feelings become
xerox of mine

xoxo love

where are thou romeo
why are you not here
when will you come back
my love
my knight
waiting
wishing
if this is the
will
we will
win

xo

i  miss you
very much
very often
very frequently
it will never
vanish or even
vaporize
it will just
volumize
more and more
this is
voluntary
i surrender my
vulnerability
coz this love is
visible
this will be
viral
vocal
******
vital
vivacious
viable
even if just for now
it is just
virtual

xo

understand me
under every situation
underlying those experiences
underneath those scars
understand
please

xo

tell me how
tell me now
tell me why
tell me not to cry
tell me when
tell me to count one to ten
tell me love
tell me when to say yes
do i say or do i tell
i think i fell

xoxo

sway
stay
say
may i be your
soulmate for the rest of my life
same space
subtle
surreal
but at the end
sure
I'll stay
and say
I'm safe
and see
I'll save
I'll sacrifice
I'll sail
with you
on all seas
only to see
you

xo

right time
right place
right person
right moment
right feeling
right moves
right touch
right hug
right kiss
is this right
am i right
to feel this way
coz you said hey
you made my day
everyday


xo

quiet moments
makes me miss you
quite an understatement
makes me want to see you
quarter of my life
makes me think of you
quest of a lifetime
makes me feel you
question is this
do you feel the same way too

xo

pray when your heart starts aching
also when you are breaking
pray when you least expect it
also when you feel like ****
pray for when, why, and how
also when you feel to take a bow
just actually pray
pray
pray
until you learn
to lay everything
and just let anything
be immersed in praying
in loving
in hurting
just pray


xo

open your heart
to the chance
open your life
to this romance
open up
this is not a breakup
open now
forget the how
open those eyes
no more whys
coz in opening
there is a beginning

xo

note that you are
strong to come this far
note that you may
laugh, cry any day
nothing is permanent
if you just embrace your element
no one is like you
you are exceptional
even if you are emotional
you are loving
and that is final

xo

Make my day
Never go away
Make me feel
That this is real
Make me smile
That is worthwhile
Make me laugh
When everything seems tough
Make me realize
All those are lies
Make me think
That this ship will not sink

Even if we're miles apart
You're always in my heart
Distance doesn't matter
Because we have each other
Me and you together
Forever and ever

make me believe
you are such a relieve
make me trust
you are a must
make me yours
you call me for hours
make me love
you are the one
and make me say
hey
this is
what make you
and will make me
this is
meant to be
just you and me

xo

what is not to like
are we too alike
what is not to love
are we floating above
when you feel a lot
are there so many buts
when you see a lie
are we gonna say goodbye
where is the land
are we gonna hold hands
where should I leap
are you feeling it so deep
what do you like
are you sure for me
what do you love
are you worth it to have
so many question
but this is a connection
where are the answers
will you say never
will you
will it be
you

xoxo

Love is like an open sea
That is so deep
Love is like a precious gem
That I will forever keep
Love is like a song
That plays on and on forever
Love is like a photo
Of me and you together

Love is a choice
More than a feeling
Even in hardest times
I will be staying

finally saw myself
when I arrange a shelf
of memories
of people
of experiences
of heartaches
of mistakes
of instances
of chances
of everything
finally
saw
me

xo

i see a brief preview
of a perfect view
beside me is you
a vintage hue
my head leans over an arm
i never feel a single harm
the smell so familiar
i hope it is similar
it was sweet
but no one can beat
how you just hold my hand
tight and warm
you definitely understand
we are each other's alarm


xo

seeing you stumble
makes me mumble
some words you will remember
not just because you are sober
i could see some spot
on either of your cheek
i could totally kiss
i bet you miss
i think i do too
i think i feel too
let's wait and see
i'll let you be


xo

to be able
to be likeable
to be lovable
to be capable
to be adorable
to be pleasurable
to be desirable
all you need is to be you
and never pretend to be
just live and
maybe
you are destined to be
just who you are meant to be

xo

a memory pop up
what' s up?
missing me or missing her
don't blame me that I cannot bear
the thought of you with someone
the thought of you of being not the one
i have this tendency
i can't see some consistency
until i can touch
until i can kiss
until i can hold
those hands that you say will hold me
those hands that you say will love me
hear me say
hear me cry
hear me
i just want me

xo

Music is an art
An expression of our heart
Music is a melody
We feel it from the very start
Music is an escape
From all of our worries
Music is an emotion
That creates happy memories

With Music
Amazing people meet
Without music
Life is incomplete

we went someplace we both know
it is familiar it is a safe place
you don't say no
no hate, no haze
the time spent together is enough
I'm satisfied but at the same time need to be tough
check out some warnings
there might be some beginnings
to be yours to be called your own
wanting you to own me
make me and be jealous for me
never let anyone touch me or laugh with me
is this a hurricane or a storm, is it?
are you here to find the eye and go ride with it?
be selfish just to love me
hey love, can you miss me
coz right now i miss the smell, the touch
why are you not missing me
please say that you miss me too

xo

when our eyes meet
it's like burning fire
and now i will say to you
it's great to see that
once our eyes meet again
we’ll be on the same path
no more wrath
will be wearing our hats
showing that our feelings will last

kind heart
king of hello
key of every song
know my feeling
kneel when needed
kin to you
kiss me
keep me

xo

just once
just now
just stop
just go
just feel
just heal
just love
just cry
just laugh
just hold
just try
just do it
just us

xo

in time
in line
in that moment
in short
in long haul
in sadness
in happiness
in those nights
in days i fight
in season
in tears
in joy
inside every hi
is you who make me smile
in my heart
i think i know
i think i like
i think
i need
i feel
i am in love
in you

xo

hear me out
heal me in
his tongue seems good
his mouth seems bad
have feelings
had meanings
hush the fuzz
hum the buzz
heat my cold heart
hit it until it hurts

xo

i wish i could just be a song
that you could remember for so long
i wish you will see me as your favorite
that makes you feel every beat
i wish you could memorize my lyrics
that will make you repeat for weeks
i wish i could just be this good
that will always light up your mood
when things are rough
when things are not enough
coz a good song
is just one click away
and one drive away
to your pathway
in a skyway
in an airway
in a subway
when you runaway
anyway

xo

feeling i long for
friend or more
fire and ice
you are so nice
you laugh
you cry
you try
you said hi
this fight
this flight
this might
let's see
i don't know about we
but thanks to you
i saw me

xo

enter my heart
exit my life
enjoy my company
entertain my day
embrace my flaws
enhance my strengths
endangered persons
eagerness
emotions

xo

dare to care
dare to change
dare to share
dare to rage
dare to dear
dare to hear
how lovely
how pretty
how green the fields are
how blue the sky was
twas a perfect day
wishing all worries go away
but the end is near
i can sense the fear
but all is good
when we had food
and smiled those sadness
crazy madness
total kindness

xo