do me a favor
are you having trouble
finding the door?
tell me are you lost
was the exit not
worth finding anymore?

you've been sitting in my head
for what seems like an hour or two
was it at least comfortable?
I think the space in my mind
is big enough for you

were you walking in circles?
are there blisters on your feet?
honey, you've been running on my mind
for the thirty second time
on repeat

it's not that I don't want you here
you're always free to wander in my dreams
just know it hurts a different kind of way
when you think about someone you can't keep

and as much as I want to kick you out
this run down mind of mine
rid me of infatuation
let heartache be a sign
but why do I remain stubborn
still I let you stay
promising myself to
free this heart from you the next day

empty promises soon fade
maybe tomorrows turn into maybe nots
I let you make yourself at home
within this foolish heart you caught

by now you might be wondering
what am I to do?
the simple answer is nothing
but then again I haven't got a clue

who knows? maybe indifference isn't the ideal
what's a girl gotta do to make her wishes real?
Paying it no mind won't make it hurt any less
but don't worry
looking at you from afar is what I do best

sun

from here the sun looked small
a yellow dot in the distance
so far yet its warmth seemed
to reach me as if it were a breath away
I loved the way it shone
my how beautifully did it shine
I wondered if it shined as bright
if I were close to it
the sun beckoned me to swim
in his golden rays
it shone brilliantly as I came closer
yet little did I know
as it shone
it also burned
it hurt
but my heart was too busy
admiring the sun
my eyes were to focused on etching its beauty in my mind
fearing I would forget it
if I looked away for
just a second
it was painful
loving you
but my did it feel so good
eventually
I had to leave you
burnt skin
a broken heart
it was an honor to
find out how much you shone
and how much it hurt to be burned
by you
my god
the sun looks small from here
doesn't it?

I don't have perfect hair
I don't have a perfect face
I don't have a perfect mind
but in my heart, I have a lot to say

In the outside you may see a smile
Maybe you'll see a laugh
but somewhere deep inside
I've had enough

Who cares if I'm a nerd
who cares if I'm a geek
It's not my fault I was born this way
I apologize for being a freak

I'm not asking for that much
all I want is for you all to stop
stop telling me I'm worthless
I've really had enough...

hold me together
as i come undone
i pretend that
these shrapnels of
you aren't digging
into my skin
we are hurting
we are broken
but we are one
we'll walk on faulty
bridges and lean on
crumbling walls but
i trust that you won't
break down
in the end the weight
of my broken pieces
were just too much for
you weren't they?

My heart isn't meant to be played with
it definitely isn't a toy
but if you want yours broken
give it to a boy

I let my heart
dance with yours
even for just
a moment
but I knew
this song wasn't
meant for us

this heart of mine
will not keep still
this fast pace rhythm
won't stop until
my lungs continue to
gasp for breath
until this soul wanders
to the arms of death
my love for you
shall never die
it shall go on
as I am alive

break
away
float
away
fly
into my
thoughts
swim in
my memories
and I'll
tell you
why you
can never
love
me

this debris
i cannot
give to
someone
expecting a
heart

why did I
settle for less
why did I
settle for
second best
when I knew
I'd be starving
when I knew
I'd be wanting
more
from
you

I'll make
you feel
better
I'll make
things
better
use me
to feel
happy

I don't miss you
I just miss the person I thought you were.

lips
hands
unfulfilled plans
miles of skin
places we've been
hair
eyes
all of the lies
we told
so we could hold
each other when
we fall apart
our hearts
are broken
and these words
never spoken
make this universe of us

after I burn everything you gave me
will you still be here?
when these pictures turn into ash
will I still hear my heart whispering your name?
if i force myself to forget every song you made me listen to
will I still hear you somewhere in the melody?  
if I gave away every single book you bought me
will my eyes stop watering every time I hear the title?
somehow
you are no where
yet I find you everywhere
no matter how many times i take a bath
i cant seem to rid myself of you
soap cannot erase what you left behind
im stuck with you
well
with the memory of you rather
tell me if its wrong to feel your lips against my skin
when im alone with my thoughts in public transport
tell me if its wrong to remember how you said you loved me
when Im standing in line to grab lunch
tell me if its wrong to miss you
because I do
but you’re not coming back
to make it stop

L-O-V-E....
Easy to spell
hard to define
and impossible to live without

i am
i was
you are
you still are

My soul was dark
my heart was cold
" Do not love. "
my heart was told

My heart obeyed, it didn't love
it was numb from the stars above
I was shielded from the beauty of the world
a normal condition of a heartless girl

The feeling of affection, I despise
I speak without a hint of emotion in my eyes
for I believe that love is only for the weak
You will not receive what you seek

Here's my advice, don't fall in love at all
because you will literally fall
the pain when crash is unbearable, it's too much
Don't let a little feeling destroy you
Don't fall for a crush

How could I forget
when you gave me so much to remember?

When you told me we were just friends
My world came crashing down
for all the years we've been together
how come you haven't noticed until now

Like how I get butterflies in my stomach
whenever you are near
Like "Hi" is the only word from you that I need to hear

Can't you see how lost I get
when I stare into your eyes
or how I die inside
when you have to say goodbye

we were at McDonald's
and you only ordered fries
there weren't any stars
that night

you held my hand
like you always did
after a meal
your fingers were as cold
as the midnight breeze

weird

you were always warm
whenever we touched
no matter how cold it was

it was strange
your skin somehow felt foreign
it was as if we were
doing this for the first time

you were staring at me
I didn't notice
I was on my phone
your eyes felt different
looked different
I used to describe them as
deep
captivating
oceans
I could drown in
forever
but now they're just
blue
dull
eyes

weird

you were smiling at me
I didn't notice
your smile felt different
I used to describe it as
breathtaking  
beautiful
but now it's just
red lips and teeth

you were talking to me
I didn't notice
you were saying something
about a movie?
I wasn't listening
I used to love your stories
your voice used to breakthrough
my ears
straight to my heart
I used to describe it as
smooth
calming
soothing
but now it's just
noise

weird

you asked me what was wrong?
I didn't notice
I told you I was fine

we were at McDonalds
and you only ordered fries
there weren't any stars that night

you held my hand
and I held yours
god
help me tell her
I don't love her anymore