Timing is a hell.

Let's just love each other

in the afterlife.

Does he still love her?

She spent countless times daydreaming of them together,
Even at nights, he appears on her dreams,
Maybe it's a terrible habit to keep on holding on to their memories,
But **** was she terrified,
And oh was he madly in love... or used to.

So she asked him if he still loves her,
She closed her eyes and
My God, she was hoping...

Silent stares came and,
She  took a sharp breath and whispered,
"Spare me what you think,
and just tell me a lie".

I want to rip my name
              out of your throat  
You are not allowed
                  to speak it anymore.

I keep thinking about you.
I keep on missing you.
Sometimes I get so **** scared that I thought I'll lose my mind.
I keep on reminding myself to forget you, though. Ironic isn't it? Remembering to forget.
But the hardest I try, the deeper I fall.

I keep on loving you.
I don't know why but my God, I do.

And I.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I keep pretending that I don't.

Just met a man.
Every single thing about him is amazing or was I just under some spell?
Truly enchanting, he is, with the stories he had shared and I still remember the sound of his laugh that is music to my ears.
How endearing I find him. I'm still in awe and I'm running out of words to describe how endlessly fascinating he is.
Radiant smile is what my lips involuntarily form whenever I meet his eyes or hear the vibration of his voice or simply just the thought of him cross my mind.
One day, maybe, one day, he'll leave me, too, or maybe he'll choose me. But I thank the Heavens above that I've known this man whose name is somewhere along this poem.

Many a time, I watch you from afar.
You’re a beautiful flower that I admire.
To me, you’re my sunshine, my only star.
But we can’t be together cause I’m a burning fire.

I stare at you as you dance in the breeze.
You caught me looking but you smile at me.
The moment is so wonderful, I want it to freeze.
You said you like my color, it makes you happy.

Day by day, we talk from a distance,
Sharing extraordinary stories of our own.
I know the fact, our difference is a hindrance.
But I came to realize my love for you has grown.

You told me you want to hold me, to feel my heat.
You have no idea that I’ve been dreaming of that, too.
But darling, we can’t, for once our bodies meet,
My flames will only destroy every piece of you.

I’m a scorching fire and you’re a lovely flower.
I will do you no good, I’ll just bring harm to you.
Maybe we are not really meant for each other.
So baby for your own good, even if it hurts, I’ll just leave you.

Baby if you call me at 4 am,
Too sad to even say hello,
I will listen to your sadness,
Until you fall asleep.

I remember when we danced
In the night full of lights
You took me by the hand
And whispered a thank you
I didn't know why
Didn't know still

I remember our laughs
The shots, the bottles
I remember our goodbye
And that night the sky was crying
I remember it all
And now,
I have to remember to forget you.

Once upon a time,
there was a girl with beautiful scars,
she called herself nothing
because that was what she was
and that was what she feels
many times she wanted to run
to run so far from home
and never return
the walls that she built fell
she’s mad at herself, at her family
nothing special, nothing important
she’s hurting, her heart’s beating
no matter where she looks
it all seems so dark
she whispered to herself that
everything’s gonna be okay
but she can’t drown the demons
inside of her
they know how to swim
she’s crying, she’s hurting
she’s a grenade and she’ll explode
which will bring casualties
and damage to everyone
she holds her own hand
she gives herself a hug
and a slash on each ****** wrist
she wants to go so
she grabbed a chair and a rope
and hung herself to tears
she left a note that says
"maybe I'm better off dead".