I was once a rebel
I did some things I wasn't expected to do
I am a hard headed kid
Don't know how to listen
Don't care if someone will get hurt
Or if someone will be harmed
Then one day I saw my mom cry
And all of a sudden everything's change
I tried hard to be good enough
For my works to be sufficient
For her to be proud of me
For her to be happy
Though it takes so much wounds on me
I took all the risk
Somehow people can change. I thought so
Cause once a Black Sheep
Will always be a **Black Sheep

Why would she needed to be happy
While she know that she's not
Is it because she don't want to be pity?
She always wanted to be like others
Though she have her own personality
Does she wanted to seek some attention?
Why does she need to gain more intelligence
If she has the knowledge enough
Maybe her parents told her so
She was always wanted to be the best
To be the most obedient and kind of all
To be love by him, To be like by them
Could she take it til the end?
Or would just break down that no one knows?
Or nobody cares?
Cause she hides it very well
The feeling of being lock inside
She's being a *Grate Pretender

I tried to call you so loud
But it seems you didn't hear a thing
I tried to reach you
But you're keeping a distance
I held your hands
But can't feel anything
Now I'm staring you from afar
Cause you're always avoiding me
And that's all I can do
Am I disgusting?
Am I that invisible for you?
Cause you make me feel so **Unwanted

Mistakes was perfectly made
I heard you from behind screaming
You're begging me to stay
But I didn't turn and I resumed my walking
Holding my tears as long as I can
From afar I still hear you're crying
I ignore it still
Months and years past
I still remember the pain
Everything I've brought on you
Then one day I bumped unto you
With a girl clinging on your arm
I looked at you and our eyes met
You seemed so happy because of her
You showed a smile and so I do
Then you passed me and I was left standing
Processing things, things that I see
I can't help but wish that I was her
The one you cuddle with
The one you spent time with
And I realize I'm the one who was hurt
Hurt by the decision that I made
I wish I have Time Machine
To turn it all back and make things right

You acted like my man
Protecting me when I'm harm
You act like my best bud
Comforting me when I needed to
Then later on I'll be left behind
Watching you to walk away
Walking towards the girl you love
A scenery that really torn my heart into two
I'm confused on the way you act
On the way you treated me
You make me fall
And expecting someone to catch
But my expectation fails, because no one did
I tried to pull you out on my chest
Cause you wreck me a lot
But I guess this is how my fortune goes
Though you hurt me more and more
My love just go deeper
My friends told me to forget about you
Honestly, I tried to
But what else can I do?
If this feeling was stronger than me
Now I'm acting like an idiot
Really don't know how can I forget you
Just to escape on this rail you've done
I'm tired of this *****!
I wanted my heart to take a rest
Of this Heartache I' going through, because of you.

I Lied and still lying
I Stole something, more important than a thing
I Killed someone but only in my mind
And in HIS eyes it is already ******
I am a sinner, yesterday and today
Yet, I'm still having an Unconditional Love of yours

She who cutted her wrist
And got scars
She who drink
Until she get drunk
She who doesn't care
But with herself
She who hurts anybody
But was so sorry
She who won't listen to anyone
But have regrets
She who feel pain
And hatred
She who seeks attention
And still searching
She who needs Love
Was *No One But I

Heard the crowd's noise
It made me cover my ears
Saw the people in pain
Make me wanna nurse them
Have a lot of thoughts
But not saying anything
Feel like drowning in my own tears
Yet there's no one to help
Wounded so deep
But they just shrugged it off
Nobody knows how it hurts
To see them like they don't care
When they really don't
Acting like blinds
Cause you're just so invisible to see
Hearing nothing from you
Oh please give me wings!
I just wanna escape and *fly away

He's walking down the stairs
and so I looked away so he won't know I am staring
He says Hi for the very first time
and that starts everything
He was so sweet and caring and loving
my daily vitamin and protein
he never failed to make me laugh and smile by his silly jokes
his killer smile makes me high whenever he did it so
he was my darling and everything
my only light in my darkness
and I will keep you forever amore
but I just thought so
because back then Love for me has no end
the days has past and goes by
this relationship seems to be cold and forbidding
your stares went blank
your smiles get weak
and even your glow can't be seen anymore
I don't know but everything on us was gone wrong
You're already in a distant
do you love me no more?
I'm crying out in pain
I didn't see this coming
Is this the end of it?
Will I just accept it without fighting?
does it even still worth it tho?
he approach me that day
with a weak smile on his face
he say's Hi without looking in my eyes
I'm holding it back
the tears that might fall
and he started talking
which is a clear murmur
and the only word that I heard was the one hurts me most
Goodbye and watched him walk away and didn't see him anymore