Brokeness - Hello Poetry

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

I am homeless
I can see
No place to go
or feeling free

On the street
Under the bridge
Next to fire
Starving I cringe

Smell of stench
of tired souls
Stomach turns
Feeling cold

Torn up clothes
with withered hearts
Bend don't break
Not torn apart

Condemned, no fortune
take it all in
Trash can heat
Seeing no end

To many homeless in the world and we just walk by them like they don't exist

#sad #help #homeless #care #assistance #veterans

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Slum *** Crash

I have lost my way,
please draw me an arrow
Five corners of slum
Deep in the boroughs

A decayed old soul
with smells of masters
Alcohol and poisons, mixed
Death comes much faster

Living in a box,
discarded like trash
Pushing farther below
Slum *** Crash

#living #the #on #street #homeless

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Tap Tap Tap

Cold air whisps
in the blue October

Tap Tap Tap
On the broken glass

Spine chilling sensation
creeps up on you

Tap Tap Tap
On your broken back

Closed burning eyes
never want to open

Tap Tap Tap
Across the wooden floor

It stands over you,
embracing your inner fears

Tap Tap Tap
On your shoulder

You are going crazy,
mental anguish sets in

Tap Tap Tap
It's all in your head

#fear #depression #worry #depressed #dark #chill #sensations

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Candles

I sit in the middle of a dark room
Surrounded my forty eight candles

Burning brightly and quietly,
they flicker with the slightest breeze

One candle is one year of my life,
their wax melting graciously to the floor

One burns out then another
my life is being extinguished swiftly

Darkness envelopes me whole
a little light and warmth present

Twenty four candles out
haunting feelings set in

What has happened to my life
sickening feeling besets me

Three to go, its going too fast
my final words, my final breathes

Pitch black
Heart stops
I am gone

#feelings #fear #dying #depression #alone #dark #by #surrounded

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Never Again

We talked
I listened

We loved
I cared

You got mad
I got upset

You yelled
I was cornered

You slapped me
I was red

You pushed me
I hit the wall

You hit me
I was bloodied

You said I am sorry
I didn't believe you

You said I love you
I didn't believe you

You said never again
I didn't believe you

You said Please come back
I left you for good

For a friend that went through this. .

#abuse #dark #stop #angry #violence #physical

Oct 2014

Sequoi devare eley

ahhhhhhhhhh

The voices in my head are crazy they yell at me
Bark at me scream at me I guess their all the same
I try not to listen it doesn't work they scream
My name, I scream "STOP IT""STOP IT PLEASE ""WHAT DID I DO WRONG" they torment me call out to me
Drive me, crazy what to do what to do
SCREAM!!!!!!!! SCREAM!!! SCREAM!!!!
I look into the fire and see my future
I'm burning, dying and the voices laugh at me, they carry a tone, a tone of jolly, and cruelty,
The voices yell at me, scream at me
The voices **** me
I can't be saved
I'm already dead
Their is silence

Oct 2014

Sequoi devare eley

ME

The walls are thin very fragile like me
I'm fragile, but only on The outside on the inside
I'm as thick as can be
Break me you get me
Crush me you get me
Hurt me you get me
Love me and you shall see
What's been hiding underneath
Me

#love #hate

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Pressure Cooker

Get me out of this jar of pain.
Tightened lid.
Pickled inside with devastation and destruction.

Blending in with the brine.
Seasoned by torture and violence.
Time to turn up the heat.

Pressure cooked inside.
Temperature rising.
Steam valves are about to burst.

Rapid boil begins.
Screaming release is heard.
Moments are building up.

Angst has set in.
Can not take any more.
Head explodes.

Was it all in my brain?
Casualty of society.
Tripped on the switch.

Pulled the trigger.
No more of me.
Lay here eerily quiet, gone.

Another school shooting I just heard on the news now, in Washington state at a high school. So sad.

#depressed #up #dark #mental #angst #my #head #inside #pressure #built

Oct 2014

Erenn

R(h)ope

These lines on my neck
Scars scarred of regrets
Reminding me everyday how i’m blessed
If the rope didn't break by chance
If those 'angels' hadn't come in time
I’ll be in a place where heaven & hell doesn't coexist

I live my life differently now
Every day breathing in spores of hope
Everyday with families & friends pulling me back-
from my melancholy past
Every time i intend to plummet

These strangers that i now called friends(angels)
Saved me from myself
When they saw someone from their pane
With a hope pulling end
They cut through every enmity
Cutting that rope of contempt

As I dropped
Head first kissing the floor
I knew then & there
Why my life is so eminent
Why let love end my existence
Why there are still people who cared
Why leave when there's-
so much more to live for

All these answers gushing in
Making me realize
Just like a rope
You can either use it to end your life
Or you can climb your way to the top

*Choose before you lose to the noose.

There are many form of suicides. And all of them are obtusely deluded.
More or less painful or the quickest way to die.
But hanging yourself by a rope that helped you to pull difficulties in life is just a stupid way to die.
So if u want to die, My best advice is wait.
Wait until you aged.
Wait until you can't remember your sins.
Wait until you cant remember why you wanted to die.
Flaws are meant to happen.
But don't let the intent/influence of suicide fool you.
You can never go back.
I assure you.
You can never ever come back.

#suicide #depression #pain #hope #you #suffering #demise #noose #rope #hang

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Drunken Remorse

Drowning in the sauce
I sink to the bottom of the bottle

Rage fueled inferno
Explodes with ever sip

Blacked out visions can't see a thing
Abandoned in the second and lost

Seven hundred fifty gone in an hour
Lives turned upside down and split

Total carnage and all my fault
Don't remember a thing

Lights flash, sirens scream, cries a plenty
Taken away and put in the tank

Two days past, five are dead
Sitting all hazed from all of the pain

Created a disaster, messed up lives
Hit the bottle. Why did I drive?

I lost a few friends from people like this. . Almost lost my dad as well

#drunk #pain #death #dark #driver #caused

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Five Ways to Die

Flood on me
Drown me deep
Gasping for air
Daunting mystique

Impaled vulture claws
Tearing out vein
Captivating ****
Wretched in pain

Injected in the arm
Poison me slow
Agonizing sediments
Driven in the hole

Trapped in the wreck
Impaled by the steel
**** drunk driver
Can't really feel

Long way down
High off the bridge
Rejecting my mistake
Dead on the ridge

#death #depressed #die #dark #to #ways #five

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Garden

Walk through the garden of evil,
crushed petals of broken flowers fall quietly.

See the shadows between the trees,
their prickly branches bruise my thoughts
and trick my mind.

The heavy mist covers the moonlit path,
but I am blinded by the dreary images that are in front of me.

Slipped on the moss covered rocks,
I lay peacefully in the cold water.

I have become the garden of evil,
overtaken by the discord of flowers as they take me in my sleep.

#depression #dark #mind #garden #thought #my #deep

Oct 2014

Silence Screamz

Crayons and Dreams

Broken crayons still write but broken dreams remain shattered.

#depression #dreams #dark #crayons