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347 · Mar 2017
Amour
Maybe...
If I was more, if I was better,
Not so moody or
Inadequate. The way I always am.
Maybe if I could help him,
Try a little bit harder,
Give him everything he wants,
Sacrifice everything for him.
If I could be a better version of
The girl he dreams of
And change the person I am.
Maybe, just maybe,
He would love me more.

Maybe he wouldn't leave...
347 · Dec 2014
Vecordious
My words are running out...

Daunting.
An empty page--
It spells out my name,
Calling on me--
Nagging--
It pushes me
To build a new castle--
Find a new kingly knight.
But I would want to go back.
It was simpler
When the old pages were full--
When I knew what to expect.
I don't want new adventures--
I love the old ones with
My blood pounding,
Head spinning,
Heart breaking.
I would rather fall with my broken wings
Than learn to walk with my broken soul.
But--
It gradually fills--
Life, like a journey on this empty page
Brings us back to the beginning.

I am full once more
But just as broken as before.
Vecordious: Senseless, insane, mad
346 · Jan 2015
Ignorance
It feels like standing
On the edge
With a choice to fall
Or stand.
But either way
The depths cannot be suppressed.

It is exhilarating
And feared, just waiting
For the crash at the bottom.
345 · Nov 2015
Feelings
This emotion of flying,
Falling...
I'm not use to it.
It's against the rules,
My silly rules,
To trip into someones arms.

And it's against the rules for
Someone to catch me.

Why did you?...
345 · Jul 2014
Mumchance
They don't know what they do because
Plastic and powder can
Perfect the impurities and
Mask the undesired feelings.
Like painting the roses red,
Imperviously,
The grenade is tempered,
The moon disguised,
And gray is given a new color.
Since when could someone love
This beast lurking inside?
All is unknown behind my lucid eyes.
I guess that's why I have fears:
Afraid of falling,
Afraid of showing them who I am,
Afraid of what they think.
I feed the monster my fears,
And then put more powder on my face.

You have never seen me sad before.
Sorry I've shown you now.
Mumchance Definition: to stay silent.
344 · Apr 2015
Please...
I
Gave
Up the fight.
Now
will you?


Would you call it cowardice
To kick someone who
is down and
surrendered?
343 · Nov 2015
Look up
I’m the one at the lemonade stand.
“25 cents, 25 Cents, 25 CENTS!”
She calls with her friend,
Years younger (but they’re BFFs).
Running up and down the road,
Never making a single penny.
But that doesn’t matter to
The scrawny one with bleach blonde hair,
Tamed for once in two braids.
Usually it’s long and
She won’t even let you touch it with a brush.
And sunburned again—for the umpteenth time.

You can’t tame this girl.
She talks to animals
And speaks to the wind (her protector and friend).
She’s a princess
Running away from the evil queen and the crows,
The black sky devils, the queen’s spies.
Hiding when they come,
For they will recognize her singsong voice
And bright blue eyes.

She sings,
Dances,
SOARS above the clouds,
She is the sun, she owns the sky.
Making the world her perfect stage,
A rule breaker,
A trouble maker,
Who fancies herself a country girl.
Her sock never match
And her smile is wide.

Beautiful and
Unbreakable.
343 · May 2014
Scaphism
I feel gone--
Dead by some accounts.
Lonely and abandoned I fall
Exhausted from the pain.

Pangs of emptiness
Flow through my veins.
I am diseased with
Hopelessness.

Stricken,
There is now way out.
Abandoned,
There is no way to get there.

Shade the gray light from me,
Gather my pieces.
I am fragile,
Merely breakable.
I don't want to go.

I am gone.
Hypnotized in a drunken world.
They tell me I'm sleepy,
They whisper other things.
I know what they do,
I don't trust what they say.
I trust you.
Are you the same way?

A schizophrenic feeling
Ravages my soul.
Do you exist?
Are you real?
Your smile makes me question.
I'm not worth even that.

Say a word again.
My name.
Not the name They know me by, but
Anything to make me seem real.
Tell me the wishes of my heart.

I don't want to leave,
But I'm only gone.
Destroyed by
Heartlessness.
Scaphism Definition: Death by being covered in honey and left out in the hot sun.
342 · Aug 2018
♥️
I can feel your love for me, and
Wish you weren’t so far.
You, me?
I’m excited to have this forever view.

You help me bloom,
Watching movies, eating pizza,
I never want this to end.
You on one knee, and I
Happy, ecstatic, YES!!!
The pitch of a piccolo.
Forever in Sixteen.
342 · Apr 2014
That
Do you know what that
Life is like? That
Life that
The survivor that
Became is worth more than that
Who died? The life that
Living souls are worth more than that
Dead guy staring at you out of that
Pathetic history, that
History of survivors that
Had died so long ago that
Had somehow become more than that
Of real life? That
Somehow those people that
Didn't waste away that
Were brave enough that
Instead of pulling that
Trigger or enduring that
Pain were worth less than that
Old dead guy that
No one cares about now?

No, those that
Decided that
Their life was worth more than that
Heartache changed and that
Made them better. That
Made them see that
Their life of worth; that
Life, that
Living, that
Change is of worth. That
Made them worth more than that
Deemed genius that
Changed the world, that
Now lacks power that
Can fix the future that
The world will live in next.

These survivors have that
Which can save that
World that
They live in. They are waiting for that,
A feeling of worthiness that
Saves lives and spares futures, that
In turn colors that
Life of worth that
Everyone strives for. That
To strive for is to listen to that
Which needs to be said. That
Word spoken, that
Ear listening, that
Understanding is that
Which creates that
Survivor of that
World that
Is continuously becoming that
Place where that
Devil devours that
Good light.

That
You could be that
Survivor; that
You can change that
Your fate and that
Everyone's fate is that
Thread hanging from the ceiling that
Is about to snap, that
Others have that
Influence that
Ultimately decides if that
Thread will snap or not is that
Which is most believable. That
You could be the survivor is believable. That
Which is believable will always have that
Opposition and challenge. That
Is the way it is.
341 · May 2014
Logoleptic
Just give me a word,
Any word will do.
A word of promise,
Or a word of hate.
A word can hold a thousand meanings,
Or be as empty as a heart.

Would you understand me more
If my words were worth more
To you?
Could you love me,
Who dreams of love
And whose only release is
Words of heartbreak?

Tell me a word,
And it will be your promise.
Give me a word,
And I will make a world.
Logoleptic Definition: to be obsessed with words.
341 · Apr 2015
Winter
Sing a song like a lullaby,
Flowers dancing round and round,
Across a glassy lake,
The Frost Prince is battling with
The Daisy Duke again.
Around and around their quarrel continues,
Feet stomping,
Words flailing,
The Flowers taking twists and turns,
Keeping in time with the rhythm.
The ice cracks,
The shatter breaks
The glass into knives within the words,
With Daisy Duke glancing right,
And Frost Prince glancing left,
The Flowers shrink, are cut, and fall.

The Flowers die again.
337 · Nov 2014
Psychalgia
There is too much tension here,
The anxiety is getting worse--
Crashing waves,
Frigid and gray,
Sweep the dust--
Once a heart--
Away.
I cannot deal with another deception today.

Can you be my needed wall to lean on,
Or the warm embrace I'm lacking?
And still I feel
My existence is
A burden-- to you, to me,
To those I once called friends.

Would the world continue in its
Unfailing course
If I disappeared?
If no one could remember me...

...I am easily forgotten besides...
Psychalgia: mental pain or distress.
335 · Sep 2015
Rifka
She was in love with the icy night,
Crisp and cool,
Unlike the old she knew before.
Frozen,
Frosted,
Not knowing what danger she danced with
Skipping her way to feelings
That felt unreal.
Is this a dream?
As she kissed the night again,
The marble path reflecting her love's gaze.

It took a while before she realized the biting cold,
Despair in the back of her mind.
But who knows how yearns to return to the icy night,
Under the cool black sky?
335 · Sep 2017
Giving up
She hates me,
He's left me,
I am alone in the
Emptiness of my mind.
Alone with my memories of breaking others
And remembering every time ive broken..
Would it be terrible if i broke more?
he said i wasn't special enough.
i agree.
334 · Apr 2015
Keine
It still hurts when I think of your name.
Short and sweet, I'm thinking of you again.
332 · May 2019
Serendipity
Smiling has never been easier because I can remember how it feels to be in your arms.
And I know you are like me:
You want to have this love forever.
I am found. :)
Old Bio
332 · Nov 2014
2
2
It was dark and dreary. The poorly lit room stank of mold and mildew as ill kept books lay rotting in a pile. Weary of rats and spiders, you set to work, salvaging what you could, which tended to be nothing. Book after rotting book thrown into a pile, the smell of decay growing in the air. Finally, at the bottom of the stack, you discover a book bound in soft red velvet locked with a golden chain. Intrigued, you hid the book beneath your shirt, so The Others would not know of your precious treasure. The book's name: Future.

Your secret you may longer keep, it was future for the taking, but light may nar reach your place with confidence dividing. Returning to what you once knew is a ruin you can't face, staring at you through unclear eyes, the future you are bound to lose, but it is not a good thing to think that way now.

The Others-- they are lifeless faces, blank expressions interacting like clockwork and just the same every day. They needlessly stare at your labeled stupidity, a genius in society, lacerating you from the rest of society. There is an encompassing "alone" around your being, which you appreciate like perfume on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Yes, these are the days where you may escape for a few hours from pointed fingers and gawky gazes.

Another Tuesday on its way out, you brush the dust from your jeans and determine that they cannot see the book that you tucked away so carefully. How ancient is this book, to be buried beneath centuries of dilapidated covers? Yet, strangely, it did not suffer the same fate. Perhaps the future is like you are: something that will not change to conform to its surroundings.
I know this isn't a poem but I am trying to write a book and I was hoping if someone would give me their opinion on how it is turning out or give constructive criticism. There will be more numbered sections later. Thanks!!!
331 · May 2014
Deckle
Perfect is not obtainable here.
We need mistakes so our
Miss tries,
Miss understandings,
Miss leads
Can then fix and stop behind
Miss takes.

Superficial smiles and
Clever complements
Plague the imperfect people
Wandering the wide world:
This eccentric earth filled with
Rock and Roll.
Too many people roll away
From any truth left,
Gauging themselves,
Their gluttony filled with
Their fake friends that are
Too much.
Too much like those that roll.
If the world was in a race for
The devil's lair of despair,
They would win--
They are well rounded in that area.

If I was more like myself,
Would people still be my friend?

Whine all you want,
The world will not change if
We can't take the change from our pockets
And cause it to go for a
Better cause than our own
Messed up feelings.
Cause you to change first,
So you can help the big problem
In the world.
Deckle Definition: The rough edge of hand-made paper
329 · Dec 2014
Hic Jacet
I live in the dreary depths--
A refining desolation,
An isolation from normality.
Sometimes too much--
I cannot completely decipher
The feeling--I want it to end.
But aye--
The end--
Is it a sleepless dream in
The depths of night?
Yet every time I dream of it
I remember the feeling,
The passion,
The hope.
I may not last,
But only to dream of you once more.
Hic Jacet: 'Here lies'; epitaph.
329 · Jan 2016
I have
What do you do…
You fall in love with your best friend.
He's in love?
But not with you.
Sitting there imagining his arms,
Protecting arms,
Around you.
Then.
You remember his heart belongs to another.
He's taken all the poetry…
today you feel empty.
Waking to fog and snow,
Wanting to die there.
You were alone.
Again you are alone.
And yet, you can never tell him
Your heart is bleeding.
328 · Jul 2014
Windage
I wish for someone
To hold me close
While I fall apart.

It would be good
For someone
To thaw my frozen heart.
Windage: deflection of projectile by the wind.
328 · Sep 2015
At 10 AM
Did you mean the words you said?
that i only complain about stupid s–
                    But I can't repeat the words you left me with
                                         (the words I call myself)
I never meant to tell you who I was,
But it just kept coming.
My sadness is introverted
And you pushed me enough
That it emptied like a tipped bucket,
Staining your memory of the girl
You once called
Beautiful.
324 · Jun 2018
Respect
Holding my hand with all the tenderness in the world,
Knowing that you love God more than anything,
Treating everyone with a greater measure of
Love and kindness than they have earned.
You put a smile on my face every time I hear your voice,
And make my heart flutter when you hold my hand.
I can feel your love for me, your desires, your heart,
I know you will treat me like a queen.
I'm glad you smiled when I screamed and said "Yes!
I want to be yours forever."
The future is bright and I find peace when I am in your arms.
I'm excited for our life together, Honesteyes. Less than three months :)
324 · Dec 2015
Rather
Would it be better
If I left you?
I surely couldn't have
Hurt you so much
If I was gone to start.
I wish…
Wish with all my heart to
Take the pain away,
The pain I give to you,
And all other pain too.
If only I was better,
Then I could help.
But I can't… and
All I want is for you to be happy.
323 · Jun 2014
Prosopography
Don't leave.
I'm desperate for you to hear my secrets.
You can't imagine what I've been through.
You don't know about the tears
That cascaded down my
Rosy cheeks,
But you also don't know how I feel
When I'm with you.
Have I told you how
The roses long to be cradled by
The western wind?
Hold me fast while the breeze turns harsh
And cold.
Take my hand and my heart,
Dance with me endlessly.
We could be the shadows on the walls.
Treasure me:
I am fragile and breakable.
The earthquakes tear this soul apart.
I keep trying to hide behind glass and makeup.
Is it working?
Can you see who I really am?
Forever,
I want you to wait for me.
Find me,
Lost in the darkness.
You left me,
Was my mask too much,
Or my heart too little?
Prosopography Definition: a description of a person's social and family connections, career, etc., or a collection of such descriptions.
322 · Aug 2014
Inanition
I am the one they call beautiful,
Glittering in shimmery gold,
But listen to my heart break
As I let myself unfold.
I let the tears cascade
As I left my walled protection,
No where left to run from you,
Yet still unclear where I should go.
I am in a maze
Where the only obstacle is you,
Running around in endless circles,
With nothing left to do.
My head is pounding
As from a dreamless night
I wake again exhausted.
I can't bring myself to look at the phone
For fear of pain or pleasure--
Yet I do it anyway.
I dare not speak your name--
The reminder for broken friendship.

If only...

*But I am too vulnerable to dream.
Inanition: emptiness; starvation; exhaustion.
Pain.
Suspicion.
Don't let it get to you,
Corroding.
Eating. Devouring.
With no remains.

Remember.
You are worth it.
He is worth it.

Don't
Give up.
Work. Walk. Wait.
He will stay with you the entire way.
321 · Apr 2014
Beswink
Here is what I shall do: love without knowing, trust without completely understanding, understand without judgment, try even when I know I will fall short, be ready to get back up before I fall, smile when there is nothing left to smile at, laugh when times are light, kneel when times are dark, find the little things called happiness, wonder at the world, say the words that need to be said, ask the questions that others avoid, be honest when the only option is to lie, forgive others when they hurt me more than they will ever know, be willing to listen to whoever needs to talk, give hugs to people that need help, make friends with people I will never meet again, sprinkle fairy dust on everything to make it sparkle, AND find joy in being myself because every moment is of worth.
Beswink Definition: effort; endeavor
320 · Oct 2015
Deaden
The emptiness is growing...
...but I don't want to admit it.
I'm not fine.
I want to tell you,
Need to talk to you,
But I have no words.
When they come,
                                                           ­                                             I am long gone.
319 · May 2014
Postiche
Some things are better left unsaid,
Unsure of what I did,
I hurried, ran, and from you hid,
And took a long road,
Knowing not where it lead.

I feel I'm there, without your lies,
When you took her hand, butterflies,
Then you kissed her lips and then her eyes,
I could feel my tattered heart
Breaking inside.

How could you feel the way I do
When all she wants to see is you
I see you here and then I go,
Staring blankly at my shoes.

I can't seem to find a love like yours.
I only find thistles and thorns.
The roses of paradise trampled by boars,
Without you caring, my heart is torn.

This is my postiche redemption,
An artificial avoidance of the only thing I know.
Heartbreak paints the tension of my soul,
And love is the heart's suicide goal.
Postiche definition: Artificial or counterfeit
319 · Apr 2015
Falling
It hurts.
Pain,
It's ice cold and devours.
Frigid hands grip,
Clinging to the edge of the cliff,
Not knowing how long they can hang on.
Hot tears burn their way down clammy cheeks and
Through the soul.
Knowing that falling was eminent to fall--
Why was it caused by
Trust--
Trying--
Now it comes to a short and sudden
End.
The silence-- Life now,
It ticks by,
Painstakingly
Slow,
But faster than the rest. I feel my grip slip...
317 · Jan 2016
Passé
All I ask for is a heart full of love.
All I've ever wanted is a smile in your eyes.

Seeing you stand there
It makes me stop and stare,
Remembering how we once were.

You said you wouldn't ever leave.
Calls stopped and who knows how long
It has been since you've forgotten me.

This life-- It's tough
With you in a bad disguise.

When I play with your hair
You just don't seem to care
That we are no longer sure.

What I want is more than a brother,
One who will pick me up when I fall
Who will know my song and hold me.

When you want to stay or go
Think
Old poem
314 · Feb 2015
Parvule
Old memories past before
And the blows are still sharp-

Were you in such a rush
To throw me away?
The hand outreached to rescue me
From drowning,
Quickly pulled away.

The bruises and scars are here
And the new cuts
Crust over
With frost and ice,
Eager to reopen them.
Parvule: Small pill.
314 · Apr 2015
Cast Off
I've been waiting for you to rescue me,
My tears keep coming,
No one there to catch them.
I thought you were here,
But you must have left an hour ago.
A day ago?
A week ago?
My knees are weak,
My sweating hands pulling
******* my ballgown,
I step hastily away
As my heartbreak claims
Another year away.
My official NaPoWriMo address: http://aeyanapowrimo2015.blogspot.com/
312 · Feb 2017
Friend?
it seems to me
I've been doing much of the reaching
in all my relationships.

Not that I meant for that statement
To come across self-righteously.

I just don't know how to voice all these words.
Or if I should even try
When it feels like I'm talking to a
Concrete wall.
Grey,
Like me, but no chance of falling down.

I knew everyone would leave though...
Forgotten.
312 · Nov 2015
Tyler
Every day a new struggle,
But no longer alone in the world
That was my own.
Every day a new day to
Have a friend,
Now more than
I have ever had.
Finally feeling accepted by others,
Seeing that worth wasn’t solely based upon
How I am perceived to be,
But rather how I could make a difference,
Change the world and others,
And having friends to be there, guiding me on my way,
Making me feel like I can hold the whole world,
Chase the rainbows,
Touch the sky,
Catch a shooting star,
Or lasso the moon.

And each friend has guided me on my way,
No matter how often I talked to them,
Or how close we became.

Thank you for touching the lives of so many
With your kindness and love,
You knew how to make everyone's days better
And gave the best hugs.

You always reminded me how much I am worth.
I miss you... you left too soon.
RIP
311 · May 2014
Agelast
I don't feel human.
I destroy too much,
Too much to think I am human:
Less than human.
I will break.
I have been broken too long.

Will anybody show me
How to be human again?
Don't say goodbye even though
I'm not here:
I'm in my shadow,
My mistakes deceiving the light in me.
Perfection is friend I made
When I was born to this world.

I'm less human
The more I remain here.
Can't you see
With your own eyes?
The beauty is ebbing away
And I live in a darker gray.
I can't tell if this demon is
Mine, or if it controls me.

Stay with me until the night is gone,
This nightmare has just begun.
Let's go back and diminish
The pains that are of today.
Sing to me until the soft wings of sleep
Suffocate the demon in my mind.
Show me how to be human again,
Like you would if you were mine.
Inspired by "Human" By Gabrielle Aplin and "Till I fall Asleep" By Jayme Dee


Agelast Definition: A person who never laughs
310 · Apr 2018
Wo ai ni
Complete peace,
As I listen to your deep breathing.
I love the feeling of trust that I have
When you are next to me.
A soft smile crosses your lips when I kiss your cheek.
You make me smile,
I can see the light in your eyes,
You are the sun.

I love you.
310 · Apr 2014
Sostenuto
No one hears my voice.

Yes. I know.
Their ears hear and their eyes watch.
But they can't dig deeper than that.

My voice is quiet, insignificant, petite,
but my voice is strong.
And it wants to be heard.

My words don't come out right when I say them.
People twist out meanings that were never there.
They hear with ears,
but they don't listen with hearts.

I write.

The meaning is clear to see,
To understand you must look.
But to those people that take time,
My voice is heard.

No matter if there is anyone there,
These words are loud and call for change.
My voice is heard.
But not to those fools
Who slit the tongue and
Devour every good meaning
Of the voice inside of me,
leaving it dead, empty, quiet, insignificant, puny.

My voice is dead
When it is unwritten.
Yet no one really wants to take the time;
Read and listen.

No one hears my voice.
Sostenuto Definition: A prolonged musical note
309 · Dec 2014
Eschar
Invisible I,
Nothing to do with
Victory over anything but
Inconsiderate and inconsistent things.
Slowly I slip from memories
Isolating myself from the
Bullies of my own creation,
Letting my own thoughts of myself slip through
Eternity.

                I want to forget myself too.
Eschar: scab
307 · Jul 2014
Decussate
Again I was turned away.
Lines burned to ash,
The fire threatens quick and bright.

Again I was pushed away.
Their desire to hear was never there,
I dared for something more.

Again I was put away.
Clever criticisms fill my silence,
Cold hearts torment the one still beating.

Though I am surrounded by a million people,
I am alone.
Wishing for something more,
There is nothing left.
I might need to wish myself away.
Decussate definition: cross or intersect each other to form an X.
306 · Oct 2015
Dote
I want to fall in love,
Fall hard,
But smiling all the way,
Never wonder what it would be like
To never hold his hand,
Cause I know he would never leave.

Make me smile,
I've been missing that lately,
Missing him,
The one I have never met yet,
The one I've been dreaming of.
Make me fall for you, I dare you :)
304 · Mar 2018
Ice blue
Cool, calm,
Not dangerous when
Viewed from a distance,
But unspeakable depths that will drag you
Down,
Down,
down.
Into my ratcheting currents and
Demonic tides at a depth hard to imagine.
And scenes you couldn’t imagine,
At least in my life.
I’m more and less than people think I am.
Unexpected,
Unknown,
And often invisible.
My hands are frost and
The icy mask I wear is melting into my flesh.
But I feel that mask slipping,
Collapsing to the ground and
Shattering,
Freeing the person I am.
Maybe wrong,
The frightening individual I am,
As dangerous as an iceberg,
Could be beautiful too.
302 · Apr 2015
Words
If I were a word yesterday,
They would be about
"Pain"
or
"Lost."
Feeling "trapped" in a
World who knows how to "punish" the
"Weak."
I would see how I have gone "unseen" and
"Ignored" by the ones who "hate" me best.
But that was "yesterday."

If I were a word today,
It would simply be
"Happy."
301 · Oct 2015
Masochist
I'm in love with pain,
But no longer want to hurt myself.
This desire doesn't vanish--
It grows stronger,
Unbearably strong,
To the point that I pinch myself
To see if I'm still alive in my numb world.
So I run,
Run from my pain--
And to make myself hurt.
--It is better this way.
300 · Nov 2014
Gelid
Everything that is built comes down eventually
But how can you tell when something falls
If it is lost in the fog?

Does a tree sound when it falls
If there is no one around?

Yet I've already fallen
And you are standing,
Staring at the wreckage.
Still--
You never know how high I can reach:
I topple too easily.

Even if you build me up again,
I will collapse,
But this time I may remain alone.
Where are you now?


Gelid: cold; frozen
300 · Nov 2015
Overcast
Drip-drop, drip-drop,
Color filtered through,
Tainted with the remnants of
Tears,
Depression,
Heartache.
Stained with grey.
Irregular,
Morphing back the one best forgotten.
I live on in the
Heavy clouds.
Losing again what an honest smile,
Confidence,
Looks like.
Numb... and alone.
298 · May 2014
Penumbra
Why does it take so long to fly?
To bust into color
And let your spirit soar.
Why do we hold each other down,
Telling ourselves we can't when
We haven't even tried?
Why is love so hard
When it is suppose to make us better?
To heal our scars and lift us up,
To make us fly again?
Why doesn't the world make sense,
Constantly contradicting itself
'Till all we have left is ash and
Burning wings of hope to cinders?

Love is such a trivial thing:
Fluttering, Stuttering,
Beautiful, Ludicrous,
Falling,
Falling down with broken wings.
Bleeding hearts cry out,
Crying to sticks and stones.
But they don't help,
They harm.
My heart cries out for more,
But there is no more.
There is no one here.

I thought once there was one,
A glimmer shone through.
But the sparkle was black
And it played to the tempter's old tune.
I fell so hard and slowly,
There is no way I had any hope.
Hope for better,
Hope for kindness,
Hope for love.
Hope? There was no hope for me.
Penumbra Definition: the partial shadow which occurs during an eclipse.
298 · Mar 2018
twenty-nine
Curled up,
The brightness inside me is sick again,
Catching a cold from the words others have said,
Aching as it trembles in the
Recesses of my heart.
I try to remember your words,
Your sweet, warm, kind, loving words,
Hoping
You tell the truth,
Because I know you do.

Thank you for the words you have given me.
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