Patience, waiting. That is what I have learned in this trial. The need for constant guidance. I try to learn more of how to reach out, Reach up! Feeling the pain, Agony, Bring me to my knees. I receive strength from Thee. But receiving the answer I am searching for, Waiting for, Praying for...
Feels like too much at the moment.
How do I develop that Kind of Faith? Sometimes I feel I have the faith of Peter, Thinking that I can walk on the stormy sea. Then why, Why! Is the answer that I want, The answer I need, Too hard to ask for? I sink down into the water. To be healed, like The blind man, The *****, The woman, with an issue of blood for twelve years, I've only waited two so far. Will I need to wait ten more? Or greater?
I have faith that I can be healed by Thee. But I am scared of reaching out and touching the robe of my Savior.
Maybe... Maybe... maybe... I should start by praying for the courage to ask for an answer. For then I will have strength enough to Ask for the answer He has for me.