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Lance Jul 2019
May you never experience the loss a mother's love
May you never feel isolated and left alone in this world
For you are loved and cared for.
May you never feel as though the world is pinning you to the ground
Wishing you would die.

May you never feel the darkness consume the last bit of light in you
May you never need to hurt yourself to feel less of tearful ache
May you find the happiness you deserve
And may you find the love that will finally put you at ease..
To the lost and to the people struggling
Lance Dec 2018
You were the moonlight
In the night sky
You were the mornings
I would always wake up to...

But now.
You're the person I never want to see
You're the person Id never want to be
But sadly, You are the person I always wanted

To have..
This was dedicated to a boy i liked in uni... He was this person filled with such kindness that he somehow got me out of a dark place. But then he never really liked me as I liked him
Lance May 2020
Black Sheep,Black Sheep
Fade away
Black Sheep, Black Sheep
Go Away

Always living A lie
Many wanting you to die
Yet always crawling to survive
Despite never wanted to be alive

Wishing to take part
But being torn Apart
Black Sheep among the white
Always getting the Bite

Why walk
When always given the talk
Why continue on
When only wanted to be gone

Black Sheep, Black Sheep
Stay away
Black Sheep, Black Sheep
Never stay
I have always felt left out by my family, always the odd one out, the outcast or the person always yelled at. I try to fight but I always end up short. And that's when they told me they never wished me to be here anyway. And I knew I was the black sheep among the white. Always different. Always left alone.
Lance Feb 2019
Lived to see the day
Laughed most of the way
Loved at the end of the night
Flying loosely like a kite

But at the end of those days
I have lost most of my ways
I have loved to the fullest
But killed myself with such bullets

Smiles all the way
Sorrow at the end of the day
Somebody... Anybody
Help me..
Lance Jul 2019
I believe we are entitled to certain things
To be loved the way we choose to love
And to be treasured the way we treasure people

But despite such, Cruelty in the world prevails
Hate overwhelms love
Selfishness triumphs above all else

Maybe it was given to us that way
But Its up to us to change that..
This was written when me and my mom argued about entitlement how I didn't deserve many things and still acquired them.
Lance Dec 2018
When I drowned in my own sorrow
You guys learned to carry me
Out of that Bitter Hole
And chose to take care of me

When all I ever wanted was to end my days
You guy gave me nights to look forward to
You filled it with happiness
As if the days never existed

I believed I was a lost cost
No chance of finding myself again
But you guys never gave up
And chose to put all problems aside and saw me through

You never ceased the futility
Instead gave endless support
Endless love
and Endless patience

You were there when
All had given up and left..
Thank you...
I wrote this for the people who loved me and supported me as I battled countless inner demons that lie awake in front my goals. To my friends and to the people who stayed..
Lance May 2019
I have lived a life
Where I found love
That I deserved

A Love that I thought Would last
Till the Ends of time
And A Love
That I didn't think I needed

Now I seek to find love
That would Fight its way
To stay..
Lance Nov 2021
When the day draws to a closure.
I am reminded of the loneliness
the despair
and my self-destruction that is beyond repair

Despite the unwillingness to keep going
I am reminded of the friends
That is now family

Wrapped around it
Is hope
Of a bright new day
And a grip on a future

A future where I keep going
And from there lying it its wake
Is strength
To keep going
This pandemic brought so much loneliness to many people. It brought despair in its wake. But despite such unwarranted feelings, We are reminded of friends turned family to keep pushing, keep striving, and have us grounded. Because to have them in our lives is to have a grip on our own to keep going.
Him
Lance Dec 2018
Him
You were everything I imagined
To the point I lost reasons to be saddened
You were the person in my dreams
That broke down all the seams

When I was broken and lost
You brought me out and loved me the most
When I was down
You dealt with the frown

I love you in any given day
And for that I will say
You made me Happier that I could ever imagine
And forever I wish for our fates intertwining
Lance Dec 2018
What keeps you up at night little one?
Is it the silence of the night?
Or is it the rush of voices?
Trying to fight there way out?

What makes you uneasy young one?
Is it the questions left unanswered?
Or the Sadness left by the day?
Maybe its something or maybe nothing.

So what keeps you awake young one?
Lance Oct 2020
I see the way you look at him..
Wishing you'd look that way
With me...

I see the way you smile at him...
Wishing that smile
Would come and fall in me...

I see the way you laugh with him
Wishing I could pull jokes
You could laugh to...

I see the way you'd choose him...
Wishing you'd do the same
And choose me too...
Never the Jealous type nor the person to create attention but apparently the people I fall for are the ones always being the center of someone's fantasy... Never realizing I can never be what they want...
Lance Sep 2020
I was never the jealous one
But actions  proved me wrong
When I placed passion into it
Another can master without effort

When I put heart into it
Another can make it perfect.
It was daunting
at the same time humiliating

I was happy for them at first
Then slowly Happiness made it better
It festered, matured
Like a tumor slowly killing

I felt hatred, Sadness and disappointment
For the things I could never perfect
yet another can master.
I was down, drowning and dissatisfied with myself.

I was never the Jealous one
But actions proved me wrong
Approval for the other
and utter disappointment in me..
I wasn't the grade A student in my family. But having sisters who were proved to be a challenge. Especially when they excelled in everything.. I grew jealous, but never spiteful of them for they were always praised for things I once did but they made better. I only wanted approval and the sense of pride.. But was never given any..
Lance Dec 2020
Like the Center of a country
Our love is the center of it all
Distance is measured here.
And see how far it goes.

Our origin.
Our home
and the place that started it all

May we never forget
And always remember

The Distance and the center of where we started.
Inspiration from a series called "Gaya sa Pelikula" or in English "Like in the Movies", Kilometer Zero or Kilometro 0 is where a starting point of measure for distance takes place.. Many countries contain such.

As symbolisms go it can also measure a person's love for each other and always remember where it has all started.
Lance Mar 2022
My heart always skips a beat
Each time my eyes find you
It's sweet
Yet I hope you knew

I love and wish to spend every waking day with you
How I wish you knew
Yet you like someone new
And no longer see me

Heartaches
Longing and hoping
To have reciprocation
But alas

You may like someone new..
The feeling in your chest that whenever you see that person you like but could never have. The smile in his face knowing you aren't the person making him smile. And lastly knowing that he is falling for someone else.
Lance Oct 2021
As darkness takes hold
Light falters in its wake
Gasping for air
Choking, Unable to breathe

I awake
In the coldest of sweat
Wishing Better dreams

But I realized
Each time I wake
I am still asleep

Writhing
Screaming
To wake up
Lately, I have found myself waking up in cold sweat. Like my sleep predominates with nightmares. Always wishing for the sweetest of dreams and yet never having one
Lance Jun 2020
3 Sentences
3 things I wanted to hear
3 things and Ill never feel despair

"I am proud of you"
"You were never a disappointment"
"You made us happy"

That's all I wanted to hear
For me to be able to bear
And live without fear

And yet
I lost a bet
And gave up the hope

You were never proud
You were a disappointment
and never made us happy

Was all I heard..
Family was always the choice of topic for me.. It brought out a lot of things I need to remove from my memory and one of the things that constantly reminds me of them is this.. They were never appreciative of the efforts thats why I decided to cut them out.
Lance Apr 2020
You were the person who loved me as I am
Took care of me
When I was broken
Too many times to count

As time fasts forward
Slowly you pull away
Confidence settles in where caution once was
And where comfort was sadness returns..
We love someone not because of the perfections they have... But for what imperfections we wish we could change.. As we fix each one. We tend to forget that the person can still need so much comfort from you... But you slowly forget and pull away.
Lance Apr 2020
I was given a question in the past...
"Is the person in your life right now Your true love?"
My answer?

No he wasn't my true love... nor was he a person I'd fallen head over heels for...
He was never the person I thought I choose nor was he the person I saw a future with...

But he is the person where effort and love found its place.
He is the person where my future no longer felt so uncertain...

He is the person where i found hope in life, love and willingness to stay...

He may have never been my true love...
But he will be the love, all fairy tales would get their happy endings with..
I got dumped by a person back in early 2019 and it wrecked my heart so much that i vowed love may never be for me... Fast forward to the half of 2019 when I met another person.. This person showed me that no matter what happens he would be there for me and vowed to never hurt me.. It took some time to open up but in time I fell for him and finally let him into my life... And I continue to cherish till the end of time...
Lance Dec 2018
Like the clouds in the night sky
To the days that pass by
Not a single night has passed
Since I missed you last

Like the beauty of the stars
To the most painful of scars
I dreamt of having you
When everything else made me Blue

I wished for only the best
As you left me like the rest
I will always want one thing every time
And that is to be with you all the time

But sadly you left for good
And that has left a mood
Neither fixable nor mendable
So I build my walls impenetrable

To no longer feel vulnerable
Its when it was his own decision to distance himself because of my own actions
Lance May 2021
A mother's love
A father's warmth
A sister's support

3 things I wish to acquire
But never require
Yet wanting to transpire

A hug
A simple "congratulations"
A simple "I'm proud of you"

3 things a child only wishes to be received
Yet so far to be achieved.

An "I love you my child"
Is all I ask...

But they were never up to task...
The thing about the pandemic is that it exposes the harsh reality we aren't meant to figure out. A falling out of a family we thought was held together. Only to be broken from the inside. I wanted to have a good family. A family that was proud of what I had become only to receive such disdain and disappointment each time.
Lance Jan 2021
What keeps you up, young one?
Is it the chatter of the night?
Or the dread of the coming dawn?

What keeps you up?
Is it the dread of what comes ahead?
Or the future you wish but may never suffice?

What keeps you up dear one?
Is it a nightmare ahead?
or a reality coming to materialize?

What keeps you up dear one?
Ever since the lockdown, I developed insomnia for which my body decides to sleep at 4am each time and wake up horribly for chores at 9 am. Apparently its usually due to multiple cases of problems. Be it the chores of the day or exams ahead.
Lance Jan 2019
You deserve the stars my love.
When the world can only gives you street lights
You deserve all the glory
When the world only gives you praises

You deserve happiness
When the world gives hell on earth to you
You deserve love
When the world only knows hatred

Remember Love..
You deserve everything that is Good.
To the people, who have given up on life..
Lance Mar 2022
Falling was the easiest.
Staying wasn't even that hard
Despite what they say.

The most difficult?
Knowing when to stop
and let go

It ****** a lot to not have it all.
It might've been different
It might have changed

If decisions were made
and things changed.

But I guess that's life's ultimate joke
To play you
and to remind you

It was never on your side..
To the readers, Live life to its fullest. Always choose what makes things grow around you or to you. Never make a decision youll regret not doing. Ever.
Lance Dec 2018
I write for my past.
To make up for my present
I write for love
To show their beauty.

I write about my sins
To make up my mistakes

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