It's painful
Not being able
To touch him
Bare fingertips
Eager to kiss him
Taking his essence
Tapping impatiently
Bidding time
So addicted to him
My drug
My necessity
My very base of existence...

It's been a long time now
That you'd told me
How much you love me
My fingers ache
To feel you 'tween
My lips, to taste
Peaches at yours

I hold you
In my lap
You close your eyes
Blood withdrawn
From your cheeks
Your ashen lips
Enticing me
To draw the dagger out
That I put
In your heart

The woman in me
Battered & broken
Blown away to hopelessness
By tempest of your self
The scars you gave
Purple, red, blue
On my brown skin
Your rage knew no bounds
Blind to my ****** tears
Seeker of augmented self-esteem
You left me
A tattered being
That none wants

I want more
Than just to touch you
As you kneel down
Licking my feet
Your wrists fettered
By cold metal
The leash
Adorning your throat
& you look up to me
With begging eyes
Exposed for my needs
I slap you
While you cry for mercy

Lay beside me
Brush my hair
With your fingers
Hold me
In your arms
I lay my head
On your chest
Marvel in the music
Of your throbs
My hair in your fist
Your lips on mine

I lie down beside you
Fingers brush
Like soft petals
Teaming with love
We catch autumn leaves
Falling around
I trace the curves
Of your face
Delighting in your smiles
Gazing into
The eyes so blue

I try to forget you
Yet your name
Keeps propping up
Like blooming darkness
In my feeble mind
Upon my pillow covers
Under my sheets
Looming to draw me in
Weakened by your absence
I’m convincing myself
You’ll be back
My evening kisses
& morning lust

Your love
Breathtaking sundown
Sprinkled in hues
Of yellow, orange and mauve
Wonderfully wrapped
In my heart
Singing the song
Of balmy summer

I like to steal
Broken crayons
Strewn undesired
Color my dull life
In myriad colors
Of emotions

We snuggle like bunnies
Under the harvest moon
In the blanket like cocoon
Unable to decide
Which is warmer
Our love
Or the wrap
That we put

Rises above
Her bellowing flared skirt
Her face
Did burn bright
She would never quit
Never will she not
Light her own **** fire

Your love
Touched me
Lightly so
Like butterfly kisses
The blooming petals
& marvels
In the sweet nectar
Inspired me
To see myself
In better light

Summer nights
Zephyr on my face
Stardust sprinkled
Fluorescent illumination
In the shadows
Mystical aroma
Wafting in the air
Memories of you
My carnival days

Your chiseled body
With skin
So delectable
My fangs
At your neck
I taste on you
Sweet serotonin
Setting me high
Catch me
If you can
For I’m falling
In love
With the sweet throbs
Of passionate burst
When your fingers
Draw your desires
On my petals

Submerged
In a world of music
And images
In her mind
She sleepwalked
Through life
Watering the roses
With her blood
Looking through
The mirrors
The cellar dwellers
Waited for her
To be one of their own…

Your burning gaze
Simmers my being
In fiery ardor
Gives me charcoal edges
So fragile
To fall to pieces
At your touch

And in that moment
Of cosmic silence
Naught existed
But you & me
& the fervent throbs
Of the core
Of our existence

I met you at the bar
Our hands brushed
& I sensed it in my heart
Looming heavy
That’s when I knew
This dangerous encounter
Will consume my being
In its fiery passion

I walk down alone
Losing my mind
Trying to fight
Voices in my head
My dark wishes
Ring with a dull throb
Weary of struggle
I try to **** ‘em
With kindness
Succumb to desires
To fly off from the tower

Dear Old Friend
Will it be enough
If I tell you
That I think of you
When I look at the stars
Hoping to have you
Beside me
Like old times
When we slept under them
Counting our blessings
Wrote our promises
On the moon
And now I miss you
To the moon
And back...

Decay marks my soul

Locked in cage
Hung above the waves

Despair coming in wavelets
A yearn that aches
Smitten by rotten stench

I paint it
All black
Grim heart
Tied to yours
That chain
Is everlasting
No hope
Of rescue
I get drowned
In deep abyss

I think I was wrong
When I thought
We were in love
As we laughed
Perhaps it was nothing
That my heart
Throbbed in its cage
When you said
I was special
Perhaps the feelings
Making me giddy
Were naught
I hope
You’d notice
When I’m gone
Not definitely
Maybe…

Fall in love again
Beyond all stop, all delay
Love never falters

Moonbeams shine
In ur jade eyes
Lighting in the dark
They held such fondness
Every way
I wish to wrap
The delicate moment
In my fist forever

His love is
My deviant poison
Spread across
Ocean of stars
Showering wicked desires
Of disobedient delusions
Dancing under the moon

Often I find myself
Looking at my distorted image
In the fragile glass shards
Trampled like a rose
Glistening with dewdrop

Your words that draw me
In best colors of universe
Beautiful beyond all people

Dreams float on oceans
The different shades of blue
Of future and past

I stroll
Under white clouds
Wish for a sunny fall
Bury myself
In your arms
Kiss you till sparks fly
As you stand
Dreamy eyed

I place my lips
On yours
Soft, delicate
As you whisper to me
In your dulcet tones

Slowly
Very slowly
I rise
Aware
Of my body
Lying still
Inside the box
I move up
Further
For a glimpse
Of the body
So empty inside
Sans me...

Stars in night sky
Shimmer as opal
& the river
Sings our songs
Raindrops
Leave their aroma
Smeared on us
As we sit
Enamoured by each other

I feel the passion
Of your fingers on my skin
As you touch me light

It’s encroaching
Stifling my breath
Like cold gates
At the mouth
That vicarious grip
Of distorted desires
Trapped inside
Playing hide & seek
Like a childhood friend
Or am I just having
A fever dream…

Touch the soul
Cautiously
For the feelings
Are highly flammable...

Stay
As I #found you
Your silk scraping
Along my lace
Entwined
Wrapped in scent
Of sweat
& fervor
To consummate our desires

Sharp shards
Shine on
Cracked glass thoughts
Of you
Cut my fingers
& transcendence
Took over
I wrote us
In sticky scarlet

It shines all around
Over the golden corn
We stand in the fields
In our coats so wet
Kiss me under the ashen skies
The harvest moon looks on

I turned
To look at you
Our eyes met
My infatuated heart
Throbbed
Your smile enslaving
Nagging at my heart strings

In my dreams
I see him
Red palms
Outstretched
In front of him
Slithery skin
Peeling
From his back
Chained
Hopeless
Floating above
Taking a toll
On me
Like hell hounds
And destroys
My soul
Yet I’m not afraid
Of him
But humanity
That’s worse…

She slept in the day
It was a curse
She dreamt with the lights on
For the night was hers
Dreaming of him
She tosses & turns
Her heart the embers
And her soul that burns
To dream is to cheat
The real world it seems
Because everything that’s good
Happens in dreams
A winding mirage
Of bittersweet taste
Cravings & memories
Some slow, some in haste
The dreams, her dreams
Were never in waste

Her sparkle
Her twinkling smile
Dimmed the diamonds
Shimmering bright

He found his answers
In her hesitation
Reflected in the flush
At her cheeks
Under the overcast sky

Resting beside you
Like laid in the embers
Hidden fire emerges
Of passion untold
Blazing my skin
Burning a hole in my hide
Reaching my soul
Till we are dust
And shadow
Of forgotten dreams

Hidden in a smile
He resides
Inside me
And the way
He makes me feel
I call out, “Lucifer!”
Trying to feel him
His arms
The ornaments
Around my throat
Clasping tighter
Reaching
Into the flames
Burning inside me
Drawing me
Into the cold numbness
He knows
I’ll be home

Your black, charcoal eyes
Enchantingly hypnotic
Like dreamy autumn kiss
On my skin
Ignite my unfaded passion

I guess
We fell apart
In the most
Usual way
But then why
Does it hurt
When I see you
In the crowd everyday...

I hold grudges
I hold my tears
Keeping it all
In my heart
It doesn’t help
To let it go
It taught me
All that I need to know