Hold me close
Hide the rope
There's no hope

Living in lies
Holding the knife
Driving my mind

Cut by cut
I'll fake the smile
Saying I've been good for awhile

Seeing my eyes
As dull as the sky
Whisper to the world my final
'Goodbye'

A mother
Two sons
A reckless drive

Deadly injuries
Tried staying alive
Faces of tears
As he disappears

Leaving them broken
Along with hopeless
Everyday the notice
That their son was motionless

Monday is second
He is strong
Sometimes,
He's a ding-****

He leads them along
A smile on his face
Where it belongs

As he leads us with grace
To the pond

It tastes so sweet
Smile spreads on a face

A skip of joy
Happiness across my mind

My heart skips a beat
Satisfaction and glee

It tastes so nice
Good spirits around

It tastes rich
And leaves me laughing

They would miss me
Mourn their loss

On the bed of death
I stay

Dressed up pretty
With friends around

Tear filled faces
Filled with frowns

Red glow
Thoughts of war

Shot by shot
Another solider lost

Help defend
When will it end?

Wounds to tend
You will bend

Mama, why you hate me?
Mama, why you leave?

Mama, save me,
Save me, please.

Mama, come back.
Mama, stay.

Mama, what did I do wrong?
Wrong today?

Mama, can't you understand,
That it's not easy, this life at hand?

Mama, what's wrong?
What did I say?

You told me to shut up
The other day.

So, mama, what's wrong?
Tell me please.

So I can be there
When you need.

Mama, come on,
Don't be rude.

I said nothing
Rude to you.

Mama, why don't you care?
Care 'bout me?

I thought you said you'd be there
When I need.

But you left too.
Just differently.

So mama come back,
I plead and plead.

But I guess you're gone,
You decided to leave.

Guess that means
You don't love me.

So mama hear me out,
Before I go.

Why don't you care,
Care about me, yo?

No answer?
No reply?

Guess that's alright,
I'm ready to die.

So watch me stalk away,
Into the shadows.

And never come back,
'Cause I'm dead now, mama.

It's not like you'll care,
You'll move on.

Throughout the day,
You'll never mourn.

A sad thought,
I have to admit,

That my mama didn't care enough,
Enough to commit.

To commit to me,
And to her family.

To commit to her,
And to her life.

Guess I'll leave now,
Finally; goodbye.

We close our eyes,
What do we see?
Our worst nightmares,
Our worst dreams.

No ones happy,
We can't be.
With society's rules
we can't see.

We hold each other
For comfort.
In the worst times,
We all hurt.

But society yanks us down
Into the depths,
The depths of hell
And Hell's a mess.

Just like our heads,
Unorganized as ****,
Because everyday
We have to mark each box.

'Fill the boxes!'
That's what they say,
'Cause when you're done, you'll feel okay!'
But that's not true, don't they know?

Know that we don't feel okay
Because with each box,
Adds more hate.
Hate to ourselves, hate to compete.

We can't be okay,
With our roles.
The roles we were given
By society's eyes rolls.

So we hide our face
In our jacket.
Hide our scars
Under our sleeves.

So they won't know
What's really wrong,
What's actually wrong,
Wrong with me.

Here's my wish
Of happiness to you

Though it may not be
Anything much

I do wish you a day
Filled with care and love

From all the people
You hold dear

Happy birthday, man
We love you here

I wish I could explain  
What it is that hurts
When I’m alone  
When I’m on the outskirts

I don’t belong
Next to them
They’re all too good
And I don’t belong next to ‘em

But I smile and stay
Pretend I’m okay
When really I’m
having a bad day

But they can’t see
The pain I hide
The way I’m dying
Slowly inside

And I won’t tell them
Then I would only be a bother
Just like I was
Was to my father

I don’t understand
Why I’m sad
Maybe it’s because  
I’m hiding my mad

I’ll never know
Why they split
I guess its ‘cause
I was a misfit

But I’ll never understand
Why they quit  
It hurt a lot
I’ll admit

But they don’t care  
They never will
They wouldn’t care
If I was killed

But in this group
Where I sit
They say they care
When I want to quit

I don’t know why
They’re here for me
Because all I bring
Is misery

But they’re still here
To show me love
To say they care
No matter how far away I shove

It’s amazing how
They care so much
When we’ve never met
Touch to touch

Maybe one day
I’ll see them really
And then I’ll say
That we’re silly

Because so long  
We’ve shown care
To each other  
Together we’ll stay, I declare

One small thought
Still remains
In my head
It causes pains  

That one thing
Is repeated
All it says “You should be deleted.”
Everyday, it leaves me defeated

Because it means
I do not fit  
In this group
Where I sit  

Today is my last day
Because I quit
In this life
So today I commit

My one last note
Says goodbye
To all my friends
They probably won’t cry  

And that’s okay
I say, but I lie
It’s just a confimation
That I should die

And soon I do
As I visit the bridge
A tear slips past  
As I jump from the ridge

One last thought
plays in my mind  
‘You stupid girl,
They were being kind.’