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Arpitha Jun 21
Heart racing
Limbs shaking
Ears throbbing
Stomach revolting
How do I just calm down
And stop thinking of it
When all I can think is what if

I can’t breathe
I can’t stay at ease
I can’t just let things go
Because anxiety won’t let go of me

I stop talking to everyone
I stop going out
Maybe it’ll make me feel better
But anxiety is getting the better of me

I’m losing control
Why can’t you see it
Maybe it’s just in my head
But why does that make it unreal

I am but just a slave to my anxiety
And I just can’t get free.
Art
Arpitha 4d
Art
Medley of patterns
Flow onto the paper
Sorting through the mess
That is my head

Colors dance on the sheet
Never skipping a beat
Both Performing for me
And speaking for me

Feelings reborn in hues
Color and colourless
Let them flow
Together let’s grow
I love drawing mandalas
Arpitha Jun 20
White canvas
Black lines
No space for color

White is too bright
Black is not dark enough
Oscillate between the two
Less towards the light
And more towards the dark.
Arpitha Jun 19
Clouds roll in
Dark and scary
Threaten to push me under
Ask them to come join me
Arpitha Jun 23
My mom worried about me
She wanted me to join a club
Make some friends
Relax and have some fun

Look ma, I finally joined one
It convenes at 3 AM
Every single day

All my friends are here-
Anxiety depression and trauma
Having a party in my head
Arpitha Jun 21
I don’t remember anymore
How it feels to not be this way
Maybe this is how I’ve always been
Maybe this is how I’ll always be.
Arpitha 1d
Let the pen flow
breaking the skin
Ink and blood mix
Stopping the pounding
of my head and heart
Oh, sweet sense of relief!
Arpitha Jun 30
I listen to pink floyd when I’m happy
Trust me, you don’t want to know what I listen to when I’m sad

I talk to all my friends when I’m happy
But it’s only my demons that keep me company when I’m sad

I take pictures of my life when I’m happy
And I delete them all when I’m sad

My heart skips a beat when I’m happy
But It makes sure to catch up when I’m sad

My mind bursts with dreams when I’m happy
Replacing them all with nightmares when I’m sad

I feel all the love in the world when I’m happy
Oh why can’t I see it when I’m sad

You see, I write poems only when I’m sad
Because I’m way too busy dancing when I’m not
Arpitha 2d
Where do I go
When I want to go home
While I am at home
Where is home?
Arpitha Jun 25
I wonder what it’s like
To have a peaceful night’s sleep
To not be scared of the silence
To not be terrified of the clock ticking
My eyes burn with no respite
As I write poems at night
Maybe if I empty my mind
I will finally be able to unwind
My demons laugh at me
They will not let me be
I’m losing my will to continue living
As I lie on my bed writhing.
Arpitha 5d
Nature, art and poetry
My only three needs
Bringing colours to life
Meaning to words
To be understood
only after long gone
Arpitha 7d
I never posted any of my poems
thought people would worry
I went ahead and posted one today
Turns out no one cared anyway
I posted one of my poems on my instagram story and no one asked if I was okay.
Sad
Arpitha Jun 26
Sad
Someday, maybe just someday
I will no longer be sad
I hope it will be in this life
And not in my next
Arpitha Jul 2
If you think noise is loud
You haven’t been around silence enough
Arpitha Jun 24
Black and withered
Condemned to hell
Nothing to care for
Nobody to live for

Lost beyond redemption
Charred beyond recognition
Pile of broken bones
Leaving behind a trail of discarded hopes

Soulless spirit
Wandering the earth
Darkness the only friend
Death the only end
Arpitha 2d
I know I told I didn’t want to go out
But the truth is I could not
I want to scream at the top of my voice
The knot in my throat doesn’t give me that choice
My heart beats a million miles a minute
It’s almost funny that I worry it will suddenly not
They say all I need to do is ******* breathe
I’m already doing that, more than I should
It is said that it’s always good to be prepared
Trust me, there’s not a single what if I’ve missed
The sound of a raised voice leaves me spiralling
Unfortunately that voice is always in my head
I have completely withdrawn from the world
Everyday in my bed I lay curled
It seems to have made a home in me
This thing, that no one can see
It continues to tear me apart bit my bit
And I just let it, without even putting up a fight
Just give me the magic pill
To make it go away
Before I get too comfortable
Being this way
Arpitha 1d
My thoughts weaved a web
And ensnared me step by step
They have become me
Or have I become them?

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