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Oct 2021 · 130
#17
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#17
Dear God,

I became my own biggest critic
when I started to play scenarios in my head about what I think others may think of my craft.

June 4, 2007
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Oct 2021 · 109
#18
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#18
Dear God,

I cried joy creating these books.
Simply because now I have something to leave behind for people to read. They can revert back to knowing they weren’t the only one going through joy & pain / sunshine & rain.
Giving back to those who lost their way or forgotten why it’s important to live.
To show that when you start an idea, you keep going. You may feel the “want” to give up. However; you must remember why you wanted to start your idea in the first place.
Take passion & creativity to another level to make it exist.
That being said,
I am leaving behind a legacy of who I am.
My art work, ideas, craft, identity.
All will bare witness to this blessing.
This is my story to tell. That’s my poetry.  

May 15, 2020
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Oct 2021 · 104
#19
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#19
Dear God,

Your presence was here today.
You spoke through an older lady, who others thought was drunk or high, at the tire shop. Simply because they didn’t understand her. But I did. She gave me money as if she knew what I was going through.
She asked me- “ I saw you when I came in. why are you here? What are you here for? You are here for a reason. You know why you’re here. Do you need anything realistic? I am financially stable. I don’t know you at all, but I love you.”
That was you speaking through her. I know it was.

P.S.- I do not remember her name. Please accept & bless her as well, for me.

Thank you for blessing me with the money in my pocket.

September 26, 2018
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Oct 2021 · 97
#20
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#20
Dear God,

What I find to be funny sometimes is how I’m sitting here in my bed writing about my life in my mid-20s, as if I already lived a full lifetime and was reborn again to tell another.

February 14, 1997
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Oct 2021 · 111
#21
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#21
Dear God,

I’m having the best time of my life as a middle class citizen in society. And I’m only getting started. Keep the motivation going.

January 31, 1974
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Oct 2021 · 125
#22
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#22
Dear God,

You didn’t get enough credit today. I just want to say thank you for putting up with me over the years. You’ve always been there as I’m trying to change my life around. I want to thank you for giving me time to overcome my addiction. I knew it was time to stop and I finally did. I feel amazing + I use my free time to workout or get into other projects. My mind is at ease now.
I guess time does heal all.

November 19, 2027
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Oct 2021 · 109
#23
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#23
Dear God,

I want every single box checked off when I meet my wife. I won’t accept any fake copies of who I’m not suppose to be with in this world. Everything you have in stored for me will be precious. Because that lets me know I’m ready for the next level.
I consistently ask for this gift because I’m working on myself to get ready for that moment. I want to be ready for the good times, bad times, and struggle times. I want her to see I’m 100% committed without any doubts on both sides. I am the head, never the tail. More importantly, I want you, God,  to see my growth and be proud.

July 4, 2005
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Oct 2021 · 111
#24
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#24
Dear God,

Continue to reveal everything to me.
Let me see what you see father
so I move accordingly to any and all doors that’s in-stored for me.

August 18, 2025
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Oct 2021 · 123
#25
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#25
Dear God,

I don’t want to keep sinning , even though I already am

I don’t want to be greedy with money, even though I have to survive with cash.

I don’t want to chase after flesh, yet temptation is calling me.

I don’t want to hurt nobody, but society really likes to test me.

I don’t want to make anyone my idol, but my actions are similar to mimicking my favorite character on Television.

October 27, 2040
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Oct 2021 · 119
#26
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#26
Dear God,

We always ask you to reveal people’s attentions. Then have you remove them out of our lives when we get treated wrong.
But what most of us don’t do is give ourselves time to heal nor send healing energy. We allow our emotions to run wild sometimes.

May 14, 2087
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Oct 2021 · 110
#27
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#27
Dear God,

I been sending healing energy, giving my time away genuinely , and this mental strength you provided, through me, to others for years now.

But who’s sending healing energy for the strong? Who’s sending healing energy to me?

June 19, 2017
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xavier thomas Oct 2021
Draining sweat out of my mind on the black line
wondering how the hell did we get here???…

one minute it’s 5on5.
i’m on the JV squad beating varsity with ease.
intense energy arise.

next minute, coach is ******. has all of us on the line like soldiers. running in sections of groups of 3-4

varsity runs first
JV next
freshman third
whoever’s left just run last.

as we look at the scoreboard,
the death clock is set for one minute.
all we have to do is beat the clock
before time runs out,
otherwise we keep running.

a full-court “Kentucky Derby” sprint
and yet, we’ve been practicing for 7 hours
on a school night.
mentally exhausted
from homework due tomorrow.
physically in pain from the drills.

Coach yells: “NEXT GROUP!”

dam_. here we go.

Coach: “GO!”
**tick, tick, tick
xavier thomas Oct 2021
I’ll never forget senior night
when I first noticed you
after our last home game of the season.

I was at the game table,
broadcasting on the radio
my plans after high school.

I notice you starring me down
Ms. Hazel eyes.
biting your lips, smiling.
waiting for me to finish.

Glancing at you, ending my interview quickly.
grabbing my full attention.

Walking over, to approach you, I said:
“I remember you love
from earlier in the season.
nice to see you again lol
here’s my number
come see me tonight.”
She was a fan of mines as I was of hers
Oct 2021 · 450
Before tip-off
xavier thomas Oct 2021
Icing my knees
through this cold machine
on this cold table thinking-
“I have to show out tonight for the fans and the scouts.”

So I take a deep breath
to focus a calm mind.
Relax my tense body,
leave my problems behind.
Begin to image myself scoring every play
with my enemy defeated by my hands.

Coach walks in- “You ready big time?”
I open my eyes facing him-
“We already won.”
Oct 2021 · 352
Dancing Machine
xavier thomas Oct 2021
starting @ the top of the key

two cones. one at the 3-point line to the right. one at the free-throw line to the left.**

(Cross-over right to left; spin-move left to right; gather myself, **** fake, lay-up)
2x

(Between the legs right to left; cross-over left to right; jump shot)
2x

(Spin move right to left; behind the back left to right; lay-up)
2x

(Behind the back right to left; between the legs left to right; floater)
2x

(Step-back right to left; inside out cross; dunk)
Sep 2021 · 275
When Flesh Roams the Earth
xavier thomas Sep 2021
I’m a…

Middle-class sinner, athlete village breadwinner.
The man in the mirror is a sweet smooth operator.
Too unique in my skin cause “Black Lives Matter.”
A young discipline brotha, who one day will meet his maker.

A “Chi-Town” Legend; south side lands are what I represent &
Against all odds, I battle victorious as a strong veteran.
Never threaten, but these quick lightning hands will do some holy damage .
Cause I come from where God’s from, the pearly gates of Heaven.
Sep 2021 · 1.0k
Don’t owe anything
xavier thomas Sep 2021
I’m grateful.
But I don’t owe you sht

You have options, but wasting my time isn’t one.
Honey, I don’t owe you sh
t

Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries is what I praise.
I don’t owe you sht

You’re entitled to your opinions & feelings.
However love, come back to reality cause
I don’t owe you sh
t

I make efforts, easily
and yet again I say, I just don’t owe you sht

You want explanations for everything but remember,
I don’t owe you sh
t

You can’t even be accountable
yet you want a relationship - relationship?…
No baby,  I don’t owe you sh*t
Modern day woman: stop playing games as if I don’t know my worth.
Sep 2021 · 1.3k
Pretty 🥰=😈
xavier thomas Sep 2021
Pretty face, pretty times
Pretty was born with red signs.
Pretty taught me some really hard lessons
Pretty keeps trophies around for pretty reflection
When pretty lie, that’s pretty profession
Pretty turns defensive when perfection is questioned
Pretty will have you up at night second-guessing
Pretty was an ugly heart covered with pretty features
Sep 2021 · 527
Let me shoot 🏀 pt. 2
xavier thomas Sep 2021
Me-
“D” UP! “D” UP! put them hands up, hands up.
And I’m robbing folks on the pass if they slip up.
Don’t allow nobody to pass by you, move your feet.
Don’t go for every reach, just keep them in front of you my G.

They dealing with a team full of experts.
Juice & I will double-team, so squad be on high alert.
Make them work, cut off those passing lanes and
once they turn the ball over, we’ll be gone in an instant.


Juice-
Aye, look at these wanna be play makers.
Zay steal that, now pass that.
Cause I’m about to lob that to my boy Doug.
BOOM!!! I see you Doug with the 360 alley-oop dunk!

YOOO! Ball is thrown in, watch for the pass and skip!

Me-
No worries I got the ball my guy, don’t trip.
Here Juice! Run 54-hip.

Juice-
Aww snap! Time to ****!
I’m about to put the boys in their feels!

Cross-over stepper, step-back decker.
I’m a G.O.A.T. getter, nobody does it better.
Weak mismatches and easy pass dishes.
Pick & role to the pocket, they can’t stop this.

Zay-
Man, we about to hurt these fools on the other end too.
About to get tortured as we break their hearts in shambles.
And when we rock them and stop them at the rim, it’s straight blocking.
Even if they try to shoot, BLOCKA, BLOCKA, BLOCKA!

Juice-
It is what it is fam, to bad they about to lose.

Zay-
At the end of the day, what the hell they gonna do?

Juice-
Now this is epic. We got them looking pathetic.
I said what I said, ain’t no room to be apologetic.
Game-Time
Jul 2021 · 628
*Muah*…*Muah* 💋
xavier thomas Jul 2021
When I kiss both your lips
She’s my *** symbol
Jul 2021 · 529
Let me shoot 🏀
xavier thomas Jul 2021
Ref blows whistle: (Full Time Out)

Me-
My man curled, screen, then tried to do a slip.
Size you in, and hit you really good in your lips.
No calls guaranteed, from these wack funky referees.
I’m ready to turn up on the court, bro, down with me?

Juice-
Hell yeah my guy! ******* and attitude kinda tight.
What a mess, Aye, Zay let’s put these boys to rest.

Me-
Straight facts! Next play they’re running flat.
The next time he do that, we’ll lay him on his back.

Time to respond. I'll get the ball, hit a crossover, and pass it through.
Hit your shimmy dance, shoot and move, shoot and move.

Juice-
*****, you ain’t got to say -ish!
I been ballin’ since 5th grade with the same tricks!

With the ball gripped, and a fake little drive.
Average 14p-10r-5a + an OG can still fly.
Just observe, I’m about to send these boy my regards.
Have the crowd singing, “Oh my Lord!”

Me-
Bet fam, love your crazy attitude!
We gone gang up on these rookies and beat them by 62!
Abuse them, with the upmost tempo vicious.
Dunk, score, scream and shout make them feel like quitting.

On Defense, guard #2 the short chubby dude.
I’ll guard #32 that look like a raccoon.
Go man to man with the little peasants.
When it’s all said and done, give these fools zero leg room exits.

Juice-
I'm dunking on chumps like O’Neal , offense-defense real!
Got ice in my veins from the thrill when I block and steal!
These little boys can’t stop me for -ish!
With my corner 3-pt nasty wet jumper, they gone have to recover.

Yup, make them suffer. We dangerous!
Whole team will lose confidence dawg, big trust!
Now let’s just chill, relax, stay focus no relapse,
watch our backs, but aye fam… where the ball at?

Ref blows whistle*: (Ball in!)
Game-Time
Jul 2021 · 888
Mine 🥰
xavier thomas Jul 2021
I can’t wait to give you what you want
Got champagne and snack when you come
Dress up in that lace red nighttime gown
Cause tonight baby, you is mine, mine, mine
We can go half-and-half on a son
Keep you company until morning dawn
Just keep calm, no need to scream & shout
Cause tonight baby, you is mine, mine, mine
Jul 2021 · 8.8k
Dominance
xavier thomas Jul 2021
It’s the…

Demanding
Obligation
Mature
Intimacy
Nummy
Appealing
Naughty
Choice of
Excitement

For me, love
Looking like a snack
Jun 2021 · 883
Boy you know, you a hoe
xavier thomas Jun 2021
Big dummy, you caught
Run around town like a little thot
Think you know better, but you “no” not

Always out trying to shoot your shot
Scheming on girls like wild thoughts  
Giving out handouts, handouts
Numbers so high like your body count
Name everywhere, you can yell it out
Jun 2021 · 432
2021 wave
xavier thomas Jun 2021
Now that my mind is made-up,
I can see all the fake cause I’m finally awake.
Shorty ask if we can take a break, and I told her to go cause I don’t do breaks.
It’s beneath me to love on these false Queens, to worthy to be on a chase.

Mmmm these snakes.

I’ll trump anybody for my team, no wonder they call me the legendary “Ace”.
Haters like to talk rotten out of their mouth so much, I can see why their breath stink.
Actions hit way harder than these words that it’ll puff up your face.

Lifestyle changed; paid so well, getting better & better each week, it’s a 2021 wave.
Promise myself I won’t ever turn my back on God because he been laying out the plan.
Focus on the plan
Cant switch up for fame. Yeah, mmm.
Cant switch up for fame.

Big 27, I’m getting way older
and I don’t tolerate nothing but gains.
I’m out here breaking general curse
So my family live under new traits.
And I can’t live under these *** oaths no more, time to hang up the cape.

Listen & wisdom been the key
Trying to reach the top class of the big leagues
Never is easy; be black owned by any means
Cant have any weapon prosper against me
I’m traveling away from the old days of poverty, understand what I mean?
But I gotta say, these struggles shape me to be humble as I strive for greatness with my heart on my sleeve and...

But now I gotta say,
I don’t help people who sleep on their dreams, better learn how to pick up your own weight.
It be the unnecessary “chatty talk” for me and I can’t listen to folks day-to-day constantly complain.
I’m not with the drama -Ish from the vibe people carry and I refuse to participate.
Elevate & Move different
Jun 2021 · 225
Reinsurance Questions
xavier thomas Jun 2021
Sounds like, to me, you want to break up

But want me to do all the breaking

So it looks bad on me

While you low-key happily quietly leave
xavier thomas Jun 2021
I’m not a “yes” man- your ex did it, not me. I’m not him

I’m not a “yes” man- I’ll tell you hell no real quick

I’m not a “yes” man- no means no

I’m not a “yes” man- Nor a mind reader. Can’t read someone’s state of mind

I’m not a “yes” man- Pout, shout, don’t get your way, don’t faze me

I’m not a “yes” man- this is not a fantasy this is reality

I’m not a “yes” man - I’m a caring, easy to talk to, understanding man
#no
Jun 2021 · 873
🍆 🍑 🥰
xavier thomas Jun 2021
She text peaches with face-heart emojis
I text presents with eggplant emojis
She told me to come thru
So I pull up on her
Dropping gifts off.
She likes to unwrap
Big thick presents.

Ain’t she something, 
She been thankful ever since
Happy birthday

Love, Side Piece
Jun 2021 · 100
Goodbye S.E.X
xavier thomas Jun 2021
I can’t shake this feeling that I’m having…

Chemistry is warming my heart inside…

Try my best to control these temping urges…

But your energy gives away those vibes…

And I know that sometimes I’m shy.
Cause your love I can’t describe.
If I gave you a chance to blow my mind.
I know you’ll keep me safe & satisfied.

I can’t have you, please excuse my manners…

Expectation can’t make this sacrifice…

I have to go, I know you don’t want that answer …

Maybe I’ll have you in the next lifetime…

And I know that sometimes I’m shy.
Cause your love I can’t describe.
If I gave you a chance to blow my mind.
I know you’ll keep me safe & satisfied.
I truly want you bad
But we both know I can’t stay  
So, this is my last goodbye
Jun 2021 · 1.2k
Invitation
xavier thomas Jun 2021
Would you like
to come in?

Then check out
in the morning
Jun 2021 · 867
Paradise
xavier thomas Jun 2021
You may not have been a lifetime partner,
But you’re a lifetime experience
In another lifetime
Jun 2021 · 58
Déjà vu
xavier thomas Jun 2021
Feels like
I been
here before
Beside you
Inside you
Running wild with you
                         ,love
Dream 💭
May 2021 · 390
m y . w o r l d (Pt.4)
xavier thomas May 2021
Met her out in public, she had accepted me
Allowing her vibes to feel the best of me
Asking me a few questions, highly interested in me
Placing her walls down, getting closer to me
Leaving extra clothes at my home, feeling comfortably  
She’ll be trying to move in, getting more use to me
May 2021 · 380
m y . w o r l d (Pt.3)
xavier thomas May 2021
Wasted time and money on fake leaders  cause they got the best of me
All of my uncles help me back on my feet when they started investing in me
Gave all of the women and cousins praise for always protecting me
This black life is far worst than easy
Jump in the fire, feel these flames with me
May 2021 · 328
m y . w o r l d (Pt.2)
xavier thomas May 2021
Pray today death don’t stand next to me
Don’t place that on my worst enemy
But enemy watch how you address me
I’ll disrespect you respectfully
Don’t ever try to play with my worth
Or these holy hands will replace your legacy
Put your attitude to bed restfully
Give your demeanor a new remedy
May 2021 · 307
m y . w o r l d
xavier thomas May 2021
Life and sins have been compromised
Depression is heavily energized
Swing my temple here side-to-side
Given will power, I can’t associate myself over this thing called suicide
On this battlefield, fighting with myself, trying to not make Jesus cry
May 2021 · 1.7k
The old ways
xavier thomas May 2021
To most-
I am looked upon as a slave servant
No matter how my soul may
carry these values as armor

My “Dark Skin”
symbolize “servant”
In to many unknown eyes.
That’s their way of thinking.
The old way.

Them against I
I against them

Sooner or later,
Old ways will vanish
& come to past
May 2021 · 86
All Over🌙
xavier thomas May 2021
Loving on me all night
Writing poetry, listening to love songs
Loving on me all night
Face-time while singing love songs
Loving on me all night
Making love to her favorite love songs
Loving on me all night
All over me all night
May 2021 · 109
pum-pum
xavier thomas May 2021
If the pum-pum can stop a war
It can definitely make your man do some chores
May 2021 · 46
Graveyard 💀
xavier thomas May 2021
Mother Earth’s mixture of innocent bones and dead egos
May 2021 · 341
lil' mama
xavier thomas May 2021
Now as we sit, sip while smoke swisher sweets
Let me take you back in time
When I met my cherry plum with private benefit privileges
My college chick, cute Laos, do anything for me
Everyday we stay on campus, she made a house key for me
Drive me home after school to work, very supportive to me
Gave cash, ran my bath, clean clothes, a lot of love to me
Even tell her folks she at her girlfriend’s, when she staying with me
Jealous when another lady around, highly clingy under me
She a cutie, very ambitious, trying to be my “Mrs.”
Cooking bacon & eggs Saturday morning in my kitchen
Not to say I wouldn’t claim her as “Mrs.”, she deserve a chance
Her love for me is above me now, that’s out of my hands


                                                                                             Just saying
May 2021 · 722
hot spot
xavier thomas May 2021
we snuggle
keep it tight
freaky in the day
wild during nights
May 2021 · 453
bar tender
xavier thomas May 2021
jokes and tipsy
laughing margarita vibes
Take me home tonight after 2am
May 2021 · 242
Upgrade
xavier thomas May 2021
don't let them just interview you
you interview them to

Put your life in a position
As a status that’s beneficial
Otherwise you’ll be another statistic in the system
Wasting God talent in a matter for -ish & giggles
May 2021 · 1.1k
Extra Bills
xavier thomas May 2021
Invested my love to you 3 different times
then you ghost me like I never existed?
naw you got this -ish twisted, love

I want a refund
May 2021 · 290
Affected
xavier thomas May 2021
It's f-k up
that I can be submissive
to your every need

Yet, you struggle being submissive for me
May 2021 · 827
Untitled
xavier thomas May 2021
Her love heals my soul
Her sweet morning mocha skin  
Her joy sets the tempo
Her support helps my pain
Her character is a *** symbol

Her last name carry under mine
May 2021 · 331
Fatigued
xavier thomas May 2021
i’m not your supporter
that you can just mooch on
nor call to attend to your every need
May 2021 · 479
Piss me off
xavier thomas May 2021
its only wrong
because they don't expect you
to act on your emotions
May 2021 · 261
#BigMad
xavier thomas May 2021
I'm tired of being a target
for unintentional actions
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