Dear God,

Out of the 10 commandments: My biggest sin is adultery.
I love ***. Especially as much as the next person, you know. But I do have it under control for the most part.
I don’t know why but these urges keep coming. Like today, the only thing that was on my mind was eating and sleeping because I didn’t get enough rest last night. As I awake, I immediately start having intense energy for ***. I am strong to say “NO” or stop myself from time to time. I have common sense not to spread my seeds around town. But it’s hard man.
I’m smart & humble.
I’m not perfect but I try.

So I’m asking you this evening to help me control my urges. Because as a man, I tend to want *** a lot; however, I am trying my hardest to control it the best way I know how.

December 25, 2008

Dear God,

Today I pray for mental health and for those who can not fight for themselves. That consistently need help on a day in/out.
It’s sad to see an individual you love go through what they go through, knowing they have to learn how to fight for themselves when they feel like they can’t. They feel like they don’t have enough will power to overcome their own situation.

April 23, 2001

Dear God,

No weapon shall prosper against me for my list:

Continue to make me stronger mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, and spiritually.

Allow my mistakes / sins to be lessons and vanish. Let my wisdom/ faith bloom for others.

Forgive me and my family as I am the head of the household, not the tail.

Grant my future wife the meaning of being “submissive”. Godly ways, not earthly flesh ways.

I need my wife to be rich in mental health, in her own goals, her gains, and pockets.
Let her cup be full of joy & wonders with mine.

Allow our children, she will have to bare, to come out healthy as she to makes a 100% full recovery.

Allow my children to lean on you Lord. Open their hearts, mind, and study your words. In the Bible, 2 Corinthians, have them “preach the word of God with sincerity and with Christ authority, knowing that God is watching.”

Let me teach my children to wear the shield of armor at all times so they may protect their self-image.

Help my children to become stable & calm under pressure when times get tough. Keep their minds focus on the prize they seek with good deeds.

No weapon shall prosper against me for my list:

October 17, 2015

Dear God,

The other day I learned that I was not ready for marriage yet. I still have a few old doors that need to be closed in order to fulfill my promise. Not many, just a handful. I need to get my finances in check, as well as receive a better job. Work on my brand so I can quit my 9-5. (Boy I can’t wait for that day.)
Secondly, I need to continue to speak with you and my partner about us moving forward together. That this is not only what we both want, but what you want from us. That you approve our marriage or not.

November 2, 1990

Dear God,

I cried joy creating these books.
Simply because now I have something to leave behind for people to read. They can revert back to knowing they weren’t the only one going through joy & pain / sunshine & rain.
Giving back to those who lost their way or forgotten why it’s important to live.
To show that when you start an idea, you keep going. You may feel the “want” to give up. However; you must remember why you wanted to start your idea in the first place.
Take passion & creativity to another level to make it exist.
That being said,
I am leaving behind a legacy of who I am.
My art work, ideas, craft, identity.
All will bare witness to this blessing.
This is my story to tell. That’s my poetry.  

May 15, 2020

Dear God,

Your presence was here today.
You spoke through an older lady, who others thought was drunk or high, at the tire shop. Simply because they didn’t understand her. But I did. She gave me money as if she knew what I was going through.
She asked me- “ I saw you when I came in. why are you here? What are you here for? You are here for a reason. You know why you’re here. Do you need anything realistic? I am financially stable. I don’t know you at all, but I love you.”
That was you speaking through her. I know it was.

P.S.- I do not remember her name. Please accept & bless her as well, for me.

Thank you for blessing me with the money in my pocket.

September 26, 2018

Dear God,

What I find to be funny sometimes is how I’m sitting here in my bed writing about my life in my mid-20s, as if I already lived a full lifetime and was reborn again to tell another.

February 14, 1997

Dear God,

I’m having the best time of my life as a middle class citizen in society. And I’m only getting started. Keep the motivation going.

January 31, 1974

Dear God,

You didn’t get enough credit today. I just want to say thank you for putting up with me over the years. You’ve always been there as I’m trying to change my life around. I want to thank you for giving me time to overcome my addiction. I knew it was time to stop and I finally did. I feel amazing + I use my free time to workout or get into other projects. My mind is at ease now.
I guess time does heal all.

November 19, 2027

Dear God,

I want every single box checked off when I meet my wife. I won’t accept any fake copies of who I’m not suppose to be with in this world. Everything you have in stored for me will be precious. Because that lets me know I’m ready for the next level.
I consistently ask for this gift because I’m working on myself to get ready for that moment. I want to be ready for the good times, bad times, and struggle times. I want her to see I’m 100% committed without any doubts on both sides. I am the head, never the tail. More importantly, I want you, God,  to see my growth and be proud.

July 4, 2005

Dear God,

Continue to reveal everything to me.
Let me see what you see father
so I move accordingly to any and all doors that’s in-stored for me.

August 18, 2025

Dear God,

I don’t want to keep sinning , even though I already am

I don’t want to be greedy with money, even though I have to survive with cash.

I don’t want to chase after flesh, yet temptation is calling me.

I don’t want to hurt nobody, but society really likes to test me.

I don’t want to make anyone my idol, but my actions are similar to mimicking my favorite character on Television.

October 27, 2040

Dear God,

We always ask you to reveal people’s attentions. Then have you remove them out of our lives when we get treated wrong.
But what most of us don’t do is give ourselves time to heal nor send healing energy. We allow our emotions to run wild sometimes.

May 14, 2087

Dear God,

I been sending healing energy, giving my time away genuinely , and this mental strength you provided, through me, to others for years now.

But who’s sending healing energy for the strong? Who’s sending healing energy to me?

June 19, 2017

starting @ the top of the key

two cones. one at the 3-point line to the right. one at the free-throw line to the left.**

(Cross-over right to left; spin-move left to right; gather myself, **** fake, lay-up)
2x

(Between the legs right to left; cross-over left to right; jump shot)
2x

(Spin move right to left; behind the back left to right; lay-up)
2x

(Behind the back right to left; between the legs left to right; floater)
2x

(Step-back right to left; inside out cross; dunk)

When I kiss both your lips

Ref blows whistle: (Full Time Out)

Me-
My man curled, screen, then tried to do a slip.
Size you in, and hit you really good in your lips.
No calls guaranteed, from these wack funky referees.
I’m ready to turn up on the court, bro, down with me?

Juice-
Hell yeah my guy! ******* and attitude kinda tight.
What a mess, Aye, Zay let’s put these boys to rest.

Me-
Straight facts! Next play they’re running flat.
The next time he do that, we’ll lay him on his back.

Time to respond. I'll get the ball, hit a crossover, and pass it through.
Hit your shimmy dance, shoot and move, shoot and move.

Juice-
*****, you ain’t got to say -ish!
I been ballin’ since 5th grade with the same tricks!

With the ball gripped, and a fake little drive.
Average 14p-10r-5a + an OG can still fly.
Just observe, I’m about to send these boy my regards.
Have the crowd singing, “Oh my Lord!”

Me-
Bet fam, love your crazy attitude!
We gone gang up on these rookies and beat them by 62!
Abuse them, with the upmost tempo vicious.
Dunk, score, scream and shout make them feel like quitting.

On Defense, guard #2 the short chubby dude.
I’ll guard #32 that look like a raccoon.
Go man to man with the little peasants.
When it’s all said and done, give these fools zero leg room exits.

Juice-
I'm dunking on chumps like O’Neal , offense-defense real!
Got ice in my veins from the thrill when I block and steal!
These little boys can’t stop me for -ish!
With my corner 3-pt nasty wet jumper, they gone have to recover.

Yup, make them suffer. We dangerous!
Whole team will lose confidence dawg, big trust!
Now let’s just chill, relax, stay focus no relapse,
watch our backs, but aye fam… where the ball at?

Ref blows whistle*: (Ball in!)

Now that my mind is made-up,
I can see all the fake cause I’m finally awake.
Shorty ask if we can take a break, and I told her to go cause I don’t do breaks.
It’s beneath me to love on these false Queens, to worthy to be on a chase.

Mmmm these snakes.

I’ll trump anybody for my team, no wonder they call me the legendary “Ace”.
Haters like to talk rotten out of their mouth so much, I can see why their breath stink.
Actions hit way harder than these words that it’ll puff up your face.

Lifestyle changed; paid so well, getting better & better each week, it’s a 2021 wave.
Promise myself I won’t ever turn my back on God because he been laying out the plan.
Focus on the plan
Cant switch up for fame. Yeah, mmm.
Cant switch up for fame.

Big 27, I’m getting way older
and I don’t tolerate nothing but gains.
I’m out here breaking general curse
So my family live under new traits.
And I can’t live under these *** oaths no more, time to hang up the cape.

Listen & wisdom been the key
Trying to reach the top class of the big leagues
Never is easy; be black owned by any means
Cant have any weapon prosper against me
I’m traveling away from the old days of poverty, understand what I mean?
But I gotta say, these struggles shape me to be humble as I strive for greatness with my heart on my sleeve and...

But now I gotta say,
I don’t help people who sleep on their dreams, better learn how to pick up your own weight.
It be the unnecessary “chatty talk” for me and I can’t listen to folks day-to-day constantly complain.
I’m not with the drama -Ish from the vibe people carry and I refuse to participate.

I can’t shake this feeling that I’m having…

Chemistry is warming my heart inside…

Try my best to control these temping urges…

But your energy gives away those vibes…

And I know that sometimes I’m shy.
Cause your love I can’t describe.
If I gave you a chance to blow my mind.
I know you’ll keep me safe & satisfied.

I can’t have you, please excuse my manners…

Expectation can’t make this sacrifice…

I have to go, I know you don’t want that answer …

Maybe I’ll have you in the next lifetime…

And I know that sometimes I’m shy.
Cause your love I can’t describe.
If I gave you a chance to blow my mind.
I know you’ll keep me safe & satisfied.

You may not have been a lifetime partner,
But you’re a lifetime experience

Feels like
I been
here before
Beside you
Inside you
Running wild with you
                         ,love

If the pum-pum can stop a war
It can definitely make your man do some chores

Mother Earth’s mixture of innocent bones and dead egos