I hate you
I can't stand you
I hope I'm never like you
You killed us
You beat us
You broke us
It took years to repair
All the damage that you caused
You never can recall
All the anger you
Displayed
While the tears ran down
Our faces
We had to learn to lie
To hide from all the pain
To keep you safe
Because you were supposed
To be our protector
You were supposed to be a father
An now matter how
Much you hurt us
We still loved you
We still took up for you
When the world turned
It's back on you
We tried our hardest
But it was never good enough
We always just a little less
Than the perfection
That you wanted
So you drowned us in a bottle
And all of your sorrow
Then we finally good see
All the greif an pain you
Caused us
We stood up to you
An you hated us
Threw us out
An we swear we would never
Be you I swore I'd never hurt
Anyone like you always seemed too.
Now that I am older
I can forgive you
But I'll never forget
The pain I saw every time
On my mother's face when
You hit her
An I'll never forget
The effect you had on me
Or the pain you afflicted on our family.

I walk down
This street of misery
An try to get this
Cloud to stop following me
Sit down and buy myself
a drink
While thoughts of you
Coming flying back to me
I try to smile an fight back
Those memories
But then I buy myself
Another drink
I begin to wonder
If you think of me
But then I pour myself
Another drink
Why does love include pain?
When will I be okay again?
The time has come
For me to move on
An hope you'll think
Fondly of me..
But if not then
Why don't you come in
To the bar of broken dreams
An I'll buy you a drink
We can talk about how
Life used to be
As you pour yourself another drink
God I hope you think of me...

I wish I could have seen
It sooner
I wish I hadn't been
So foolish
I wish I had the guts
To say
That I've loved you
All along
It hurts to know you
Love another
And that friendship
Is all
From you that I will
Ever receive
But to see you smile
Even in his arms
Brings me more joy
Than you may ever
Discover.
For your happiness
Is all the matters
I'm glad that you
Love another.

Sometimes a moment
Is all it takes
To take someone's breath away
Sometimes all it takes
Is a second for a heart to break.
Though I lay awake at night
I always fantasize
What it's like to sleep with
You through the night.
I long for a single touch
A simple kiss
Nothing grand just
To feel the touch of
Your loving hand once again
I simple moment
Just a second...
Oh what I'd give
Just to hear your voice
Softly whisper in my ear....
"I love you"
Just once again.

It was August when you said you
Would always love me
It was October when you first
Broke my heart
In December I forgave you
Then for four years
We lived in bliss
We swore to marry
That nothing would change
That no one could ever take
Our love away
Then November came
You changed
You found another
Told me he was better
Told me that it was a shame
I didn't die in April
December came
You lead me on
Used me, abused me, ripped me apart
You broke your promise
With no disregard
That you had just broken someone's
Heart...
January came you finally
Left me weeping
You asked for my friendship
But by then my those cold months
Had frozen my heart.
By February my blood had
Ran cold I realized
I could find happiness in being alone.
Now it's May and someone
New has thawed my heart
And restored it to new
The scars from you are
Still there
But they left me more aware
I won't lie an say I don't care
Or that I don't love you anymore
Because it would never be true
But that love is not the same
I appreciate the pain
That drove me insane
Because of you
I know that "love" and "forever"
Are just simple words
That can be said without
Any reason or intention to be kept
And promises are empty.
Because of you
Now I look for the actions of caring
Because of you...
I've learned true love can't
Be spoken but only shown.

My Darlin,
You are my world
You are my heaven
You are my hell.
My world because
I do not exist without
You in my life.
My heaven because
I found heaven
In your arms.
My hell because
When you are gone
I am in hell without you.

I gave you my heart to protect...
Not to watch it fall from your hands
And shatter on the floor.

No one has my heart
But myself
No one will know
The weight it carries
But myself
No one knows what time
Or what place
That might my heart will be
Stolen and forever kept safe
Not even myself.

I'm tripping off the walls again
Needle breaking through the skin
There is poison running through
My veins...
Turning me into another tragedy
I think I'm addicted...
I think I need another hit..
I'm falling through the cracks again
The walls are spinning round again
I think my have hit the end....
I think I need another hit..
The poison burns in my veins
I think I may have overdosed...
I think you're my ******...
I'm tripping off the walls again...

You seem so happy
Away from me
I guess that proves
You honestly never
Loved me
You do things
You say things
You try things
That you never
Did for me
You left me broken
You lied to me
You tore my heart out
Then left it on the ground
Even after I forgave you
For every time you hurt me.
When cheated on me
And left me hurt
I took you back
I put back the pieces
Of your heart
That the person you
"Loved" broke
I cared for you
When you were sick
I held you when you
Were sad
I wiped your tears away
And kissed the pain away
I Loved you with everything
In me
I gave you everything I had.
But why can't I just
Let this all go?
Why can't I hate you?
....why... Can't I move on?
Because somewhere in my
Heart I guess I hope....
That there may still be
A piece of your heart..
That still belongs to me.

Sometimes I get so mad
About everything
I look at these pictures
An all the pain comes back
Seeing you happy is the worst.
I get so angry because every time
I see your face...
I wonder why I didn't leave you
All those times you hurt me
I wonder why I had to be so
Good to you an get nothing
In return than a broken heart...
I wonder why I didn't punch you
I wonder why I let you in
I wonder a million things
Then I remember;
If I'm not worth your apology
Then you are not worth being
On my mind.
I'm sorry that you wasted so
Much of my time.

The clouds are gathered
On the horizon
The sun is gone
The moon covered
But I sit out here
All alone...
I sit here in thought
Writing nonsense that
Only makes sense
To someone like me.
Someone broken
Someone lost
Someone torn
Someone who has been
Forgotten lost in time.
I sit here looking up at
The night sky
Watching the lighting
Strike making the clouds
Glow a dark red an purple hue.
I sit here wondering...
"What am I supposed to do?"
You gave no reason
You just left
Yelling an shouting
"You'd be better off dead"
I cried
I begged
I asked you to stay
But you left me....
Broken on the ground.
But now as I sit here
I remember...
"Life is more than love an happiness; it's pain, suffering, regretting... It's living it out no matter what the pain you feel. Because no one gets out of it without feeling the twinge of a broken heart"

The voice
Of a broken heart
Can ring loudly
For years
Wrecking even
The hope
Of repairing
Shattered dreams.
Though it's hard
And at night sometimes
So easy to hear
The sound of
A lost loves heart
Beating so clear.
The deafening silence
Allows the tears
And for years
You may sit
silently still.
We will mask ourselves
And cover the scars.
But no matter what
We may think
We are not
A lost cause.
So let your heart
Beat again
Let the sound
Drowned out
The screaming of
A broken heart
Because it's not broken
It's just gained another
Beautiful scar.

When you wake
An your body aches
An all you can do
Is think about
a touch that haunts
Your memory...
How do you escape
From the endless possibilities?
You make yourself believe
That everything is fine
Put on that smile an charm
So no one knows your
Dying every day.
But just when you think
Your bones are about to
Break an that you can't
Take another breath
That's when you'll learn how
To be okay again...

"What is love?"
I once asked my
Father when I was
A young child..
He replied softly
"You'll understand love when you are older"
Then as I grew I forgot
My question until
One day when I was laying
In your arms
Tingled up in our love
Mesmerized by the passion
In your eyes
I realized
Love is a measure
Of the moments that
Take your breath away

You gave it your all
But unfortunately it
Wasn't your best
Because your best
Is never good enough
When you lay your
Heart down in
The wrong hands to rest.

The words you
Say decay my soul
They break me down
From the inside out.
Through the trails
of life an love
I have learned
That sometimes
The ones we
Love the most
Tell the biggest lies
They hold the
Sharpest knives
They leave the
Deepest scars
They take years
To heal
Sometimes they never
Heal....
Because we keep them
Hidden; locked deep inside
To never be revealed
Because the pain is
Just to much
To ever let them be
touched
We will use them
As a crutch
Because love it hurts...
Just to much...
An in this pain
We fail to realize
That the hardest
Critics we ever
Have to face
Are the voices inside
Ourselves.

There is a time
  There is a place
   There is a steady an true pace.
     There is hope for peace of mind
       There is faith within this place
In this morning where the sun may
never raise...
Again we wake on stranger tides
This foreign feeling that grows within (covers all our wicked sin)
No dawn to erase yesteryears mistake.
Now again we part our ways
With broken hearts in our hands
We watch the dawn break again.

You stole my heart...
.....But not my dreams..
....I am bent....
......but I am not broken...
......I am hurt....
.....but I am healing....
You may have damaged me....
But I am strong enough to take
The beatings
I am be forgotten...
But I am never lost.

Love;
Is not determined by
The damage that has been done to our hearts.
But by the strength it has given our
Souls...
Love;
Is not a fleeting moment
That is forgotten come sunrise.
It is the precious ever lasting moment..
That you carry with you till death.
Love;
What a strange and tiring thing
But oh what endless joy it brings...

The world we live
Is a judgemental place
Society has a twisted view
On the people like me
An the people like you

Society likes to
Believe we just pick
An choose
Yeah because that
Kid down the street
Choose to have cancer.

I didn't choose to be
This way
I just choose to
Accept my change.
So ridicule me all
You like
Tell me I am going
To hell for fixing myself
Because in the end
You can't make me happy
Only I can.

I am perfectly happy
Being a transgender man.

Support equal rights!!!

The shade of the this old
Oak tree has kept
So many memories
The carving on the
Middle of the trunk Says
"forever an always W+T"
Many would say
That just like my
Heart this oak tree
Is scarred like my
Heart holding blissful
Wishes and dreams that
Never came to pass
But we both hold on
To that summer past.
But just like this tree
I too have seen many
Harsh winters pass
Though the scar has
Faded from years on
This earth but
The scar still remains
Just like your name
Is still carved on my heart
This year's have not been
Kind to you or too I
My dearest of friends
But to me you will always
Be more than that old
Withering tree on the hill
I will always remember
Your lush green branches
And how you kept me
An the woman that scarred
Both of us deeply
Cool that summer day...