I need something new I'm tired of the usual, I'm tired of same
I know I can't love you at least not in that way cause baby I'm too use to you, too use too your face, too use to your ways and too use to the games you play
I mean I'm not going to beg you I see I see you just ain't acting right but its ok and if I don't pick up the phone like I used to (for you) don't take it personal
If i don't do all the things that I use to (to you) I ain't mad at you
If you feel like you bout to lose me (baby its true)
Since you like to play with fire I'm let us burn and if you don't know now you know you going to miss my love

           Thanks for reading my poems and I want to give a big shout out to all my real men's out there that's doing right keep doing right no matter how hard it gets and you too ladies.

Wait a minute baby can you tell me? Promise you'll be honest and that you tell me the truth about everything you feeling even if it hurts me tell me now if you can i just want to know why you can't love me the way I need to be love? Boy i just want to understand and I need to understand is it the way I wear my hair or the way I dress or its cause you want a girl with a big *****? Boy keep it real with me why won't you love me the way I need to be love boy my heart keeps crying cause I need to feel love boy tell me tell me this is it something wrong with me? It's cause I keep trying to tell you how I feel. Boy I starting to hate the morning cause I know what they bring you get up anf take a shower in no time you're leaving and I know it sounds so so selfish but I can't help but think that if you knew how much I need you'd stay you just don't understand I even hate goodbye I hate these tears in my eyes I even hate myself for the way I feel about you everytime I've had enough of wishing that you were around me everyday and every night its to much that I starting to hate love yeah I said I'm starting to hate love woooo woooo I even hate your phone calls in the middle of the day cause all it do is remind me that my baby is so far away it drives me crazy baby ans I know its hard for you to understand what I'm saying I guess I just dont want to feel this along(I can't help it) everytime you walk out the door I start missing you (I can't help it no) wish I didn't need you this much(I can't help it) but I just love hard and I hate it.

Ladies and gentlemens have you every made the biggest mistake in your life? But listen up I made the biggest mistake,biggest mistake to think he would change but now I'm saying goodbye to all the memories that we had and I regret even trying to give him a chance,but I'm losing myself so I'm thinking I'll just live with what's left but boy please tell me why did you have to go and treat me like the ******* the side? And why did you have to go and make me cry? And boy please tell me why did you have to go and lie to me? And cause me pain? After I gave you my heart baby am I'm what you need? I know I did wrong to but not like that but I'm going to go out a leading lady how my mom raised me cause boy you could of told me or you could've walked away and I've would had understand but now I don't care I wish I never let you in my life and if I could I would forget about you and Leave you as a mystery but y'all I don't care any more oh oh no I'm lying,lying that's why he not here,that's why he not here cause he knows I still care, he knows I still care that's why he don't care no no he don't.

     Have to keep our heads up even through the worst it will get better even when it hurts the most.

Can any one please tell me why I feel like I was put on this earth to be treated any kind of way by people,friends,family, and boyfriends in a (bad way) even doe I know God put me on this earth to do something great but do you know what I'm talking about or know how I feel? If not I'm glade you don't (it's not a great feeling) but this feeling and pain is killing me minute bye minute it's taking my breathe away, can you please tell why I feel like this please oh oh oh oh can you feel my pain? Ooooh yea I just want to run away but I don't know we're to but can you tell me how I still keep going,
Still love,
Still treat people right like how I want to be treated and
Still tell them to keep going
Even doe other people treated me wrong and they don't care about me or how I feel
How do I do it? Cause I don't even know but
I  got to shake it off and keep moving on no matter what even thru the pain and the hurt shake,shake,shake,shake it off i got to do what's best for me
Why why why why?
Ummmm please tell me my heart is crying out but no one even notices.

It was a rainy day when you left me for good I couldn't believe it I cried so much and I still do until this day when you was in my life it was so much easier even thru the bad but now since you gone forever life is so so hard when I walked across that stage to get my diploma I wanted to cry so bad cause I didn't see your face I know if you could been there you would had I always thought I see your face when I walked across that stage but I guess not now I miss you so much that when I still cry today people don't know why they tell me I need to grow up they might be right but it's hard when you had people to tell you you want never be nothing and you always be wrong and never right I'm scared to grow up with out you you was my heart and soul and that for with you so what should I do now? I'm trying so hard to live life one day at a time and to do the right thing even when they talk bad on me I need you right now please let me know that you still watching over me and that you proud of me so far. RIP.......... I will always love you and miss you!!!!
      
       Hey Y'all thanks for reading you might be going through the same thing but we got to keep going no matter what even for it hurts. This might not sound like a poem but its just the way I feel sometimes.

Have you notice that your life is like a book because you never know what will happen next ? Sometimes it might seem like you in the same chapter for a long time and then it might seem like you left that chapter. It may seem like your life went on and left you but you have to keep going know matter what.

I thought it was a dream,I thought it wasn't real
but pain really hurts and this is how I really feel
you said you would never let go that I don't understand
so many promise you made,and more of them broken so I'm leave now and as you watch from far away all I can say is that I'm so sorry that you lost me
never again cause now I know what it means to love and to be loved
now as you watch from far away all I can say is that I'm so sorry that you didn't know how to love me
I'm sorry I wasn't beautiful to you
I'm sorry you couldn't make me happy
I'm sorry you never learn how to
but my heart is good now and now as you watch from far away
I said baby oh baby all I can say is that I'm so sorry that you lost me...yeah yeah

You are the sun that shines bright throughout my day
You are my oxygen that keeps me alive
For that
I promise to always lift you up when you feeling down
I promise to strength you whenever you fall weak
I promise to give you faith when you are feeling insecure
I promise to listen when you need to talk
But I can't promise you the world but I can promise to always be true to you and tell you no lies and to always be there for you until I leave this world.

I was afraid of giving up, but my road was just too tough to young to know that I was out here own my own and my path was so a long but now its time for me to take a chance like the strength of a thousand men, now I'm drying these tears from my eyes cause I know everything will be alright, I know that god is just in sight cause now I'm dusting my wings off as I set to rise and as I'm going for my prizes and I want let my trials get the best of me and no message from god should have been any clear cause I'm walking Ford in my destiny

How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart
How do I find hope in a brand new day?
When my family is keeping secrets from me I should have known my mother should have told me I can't believe the secrets they kept from me (its alright) it had to come to the light maybe not this way but it will be okay and what do you say to a child with a broken heart?
But it will be alright in the morning I said it will be alright in the morning
I wish I knew the day, hour, time my mother love went away I hope my mom will be okay I hope she find her way
I still love her even though the pain
Umm but I got to come back to me but I wish I knew the day, hour, time my mom went a astray
But it's alright its okay I will make it somehow
I wish I wish I wish I wish I knew but it will be alright in the morning.

I'm so tired of having to choose
Where I'll be and what I'm gonna do
Where do I go?
Cause
Every direction i go seems to be against the flow
And who will I be?
What does it even mean to just be me?
Every night I lie awake
My thoughts come rolling in
Love is won, love is lost
And loves that might have been I see the ghost of long lost hope
And shattered broken dreams I know it's time to carry on
But It's harder than it seems
But I gotta let it go, all the pain and strife and
I gotta let it go, and move on with my life but
I wanna know but I don't know
Which way I'm gonna go
Where will I go?
Which way will I go?
At times I can't tell what's up or down
My head spinning' all the time
Every time that I turn around,
There's another useless sign
I wanna know but I don't know
Lost in confusion
I feel like I'm losing it all
Where do I go from here?
With all this confusion,
Now who's gonna break my fall?
There's no one left to call
As times gone by,
I can't deny
They've left their mark on me
Nothing is clear anymore
Did I let you down?
Sorry my good intentions never seem to come around
But
I gotta let it go, it's time to let it be
I gotta let it go, and then I can be free if not its going to hold me back from things i never thought i could do
I
Don't understand the master plan
That only God can see
I need to know, I wanna go
And lock it all inside
I wonder why and I say goodbye
And gather up my pride
And I have to believe
That there's an answer that I can't  see right now
I know I have the will to carry on
Life's is what make me strong
I've learned too much to turn my head away now and i got more to learn
I just so tired of having' to choose
What i want to do or what others want me to be
I gotta let it go, all the pain and strife
I gotta let it go, and move on with my life
So now I'm just gonna start over
piece by piece  I'll build my life again
And I'll begin
To learn from all of my mistakes
Then let them fly away to help some one else
Now its time to let it go
I got to let it go,
We got to let it go for good but before i go, God please
Tell me, where to go?

Another month has come but you're still so far away you're always in my heart each and every day I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you when you need me the most I wish time would hurry but it goes slow texting aren't enough I need the real you the one who supports me my sister my glue we've been through so much in little time we've shared I will never forget you all the moments that you've shown me you cared I know it's hard but my time will come soon keep smiling beautiful cause it looks good on you so until I see you when my time comes to an end stay strong bud love your best friend.

Never
Never give your heart to some one that don't care
Never let people tell you what to do
Never worry about haters
Never care about what people say about you
Never give your all if your heart say not to
Never turn down your hopes and dreams
Never Believe what you here
Never give up no matter what

As I sit here on October 30 2015 with tears coming down my face my heart is telling me that I have to become a new person even doe it's going to hurt but do it really make a difference? Right now since I'm already hurting but any way the new me ain't going to care about what others think,
Care about helping others if they do me wrong,
The new me ain't going to give chance over chance over chance over chance
This is the new me
The new me ain't going to cry anymore the new me is stronger than the old me and the new me really just don't care anymore but the old me care a lot
As I sit here it's said to say but all this is true cause pain cause people to change and you can't expect people to stay the same after getting hurt over and over and over and over again
Life just don't work that way sorry but the new me don't care it just don't care
If you feel like this way I'm sorry cause I know how it feels and I know it is one of the worst pain ever but if you never felt like this I pray to God that you never have to in your lifetime.

When I was a kid this was all so simple
a day wasted was never so
and an hour in thoughts was worth it all
now I've no time,no patience,no tranquility
Overloaded overloaded
I'm not what I used to be
when you were mine I deposited myself on you
I felt so light, now you are others
I'm overloaded to were I can't move on.

I've fought to become who I am and what I want to be,
I have to remind myself that one day I will be free
Free from rules I followed as a child when everything was a game and life was so mild
Now times have changed and I realized nothing is fair
And it seems like nobody even care or pays attention for what bests for me and sometimes asking why things have to be this way be the only thing to get me by especially when dreams continue to die sometimes its nice to just sit in the rain to help relieve the pain
And when I have a really bad day I just need to get away
I never know what's wrong without the pain
But sometimes the hardest thing to do is right thing is the same and sometimes when people get hurt even the strongest one may need comfort
We all do at some point in life.

Ooooh baby listen up God made you for me and me for you which became a blessing for us but life keeps getting in the way and when ever we try somehow the plan is always rearrange and I know how much you need me and it breaks my heart believe me baby it seems like forever that I waited for you in a world of disappointment and lonely people but one thing is true but we gotta go our own way and I really don't want to leave it all behind but we get our hopes up and we watch them fall every time and it's so hard to watch it slowly fade away and he said what about us? What about everything we been through? What about trust? And that I know he never wanted to hurt me and I said I know and I'm going to miss you so much that it's going to hurt me more than it hurts you and baby it's something about you that makes me want to stay and work it out.

The more success I get the greater my life get. The more people start to hate, the more love I give the more people don't want to take it, the more I start learning my mistakes and fixing them the more people start to judge so what should we do? I guess do nothing or do something but if I do or don't people still judge me for the right and the wrong.

Oh oh oh oh she use to be the sweetest girl oh oh she use to be the sweetest girl but when a good girl gone she gone forever and see you can't make it rain without stormy weather and its funny cause when it rains it pours and listen this wouldn't never happened if I wouldn't have gave him my all
This wouldn't never happened if I never traded in my love for lies but I take the L cause I don't want to see my brother lose even for I been through it all
I could never fill my mother shoes and nah I don't want a no handouts I just want to tell the girls that can feel me that I just play the cards that a ***** deal me and see eveything I been thru try so hard to **** me
but I just want to tell the girls that can feel me that boys are all the same in my eyes and I'm tried of running into the same types of ****** but listen ****** are the same in my eyes and see I just don't want to hurt anymore.
          
        This is just a little something and I want to give a big shot out to all the real men's out there....

You used me
I thought you were the key
but the true is that you used me
I through you love me
but I was totally wrong
baby you can leave baby you can leave
you couldn't handle this
you can keep the headache
you don't have to lie no more
we don't have to see eye to eye no more
I tried everything but you used me
Hope you have a good life cause I gotta say bye bye
I'm to real for these games
mom always told me don't mess with no lames
but you knew I was so deep in love with you and that in a day or two I be back but I'm not this time
I didn't won't to do it like this but I'm gone,gone,gone,gone for good
I can't stay no more oh oh oh oh.... :'(