I still can’t write about him.
I still can’t say his name.
He is “the guy”.
The guy who ruined my childhood,
The guy who stole not only the safety of my bed,
But the safety in my head.
They tell me not to “let him win” or “give him the power”
But he already has it all.
There is no power left to give.
No game left to be won.
No innocence left to be claimed.
He can look at me, and he will know I’m his.
I’m his.

The words of not being good enough.
Yet you can't leave me alone.
A game without rules.
So who's winning?
Who's winning when the both of us are losing?

Im split between two,
good and evil.
Sitting one each shoulder
kissing my neck.
Caressing my brain
one more than the other.
But I will not let the devil win,
I'll hold on to the good.
Until happiness decides
I no longer deserve to be happy.

I am today
A grain of sand
An insignificant moment
Yet it is a grain of sand
In the desert of time
Where my the wind is life
Mountains of hopes and dreams
Pits full of anger and fear
There is no forecast in this desert
No such thing as expected change
Today are mountains
Tomorrow is caves

Wherever the wind blows
Whichever way time goes
No matter how tall the mountain has become
Or where these pits come from

Walk through your desert
Moments here will never come twice
Joyful moments can only come by if you climb
If you walk through your desert

The desert of time


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On a blue lonely night
I was fighting my fight
That end of the tunnel
Had no sign of light

Then something happened
I met you
It felt nice, it felt new
Though had no clue
It'll end up becoming something
beyond I had ever imagined.
My mind inevitably blew.

Knowing you feels peaceful
Like I'm meeting myself
Talking to you is blissful
Like some pieces of puzzles
Falling into places themselves.

Can't find any precedence
To the connection I've with you
You're amazing to a great immense

Your charm amazes me dazes me
Your goals, your energy just crazes me
I learn so much from you
Everyday every time we talk it amuses me

It's safe when I'm with you
Want you to feel the same way
I can let go with you
You will even find me
In a lost pile of rocks or hay

You're born to shine
Shine bright
You're among a few
Who're destined to touch
The tallest of heights

You inspire me
You helped me acquire me
You're beautiful in so many ways
I can compliment you for all my days

Now when I stand at the dark tunnel
And I try to find the end of it
I see a sign of light
It's not dark any more
I keep fighting my fight
But it's not hard anymore

It's easier then it was before
Thanks for being a part of my life
You some how open the doors
That were shut a long time ago