sometimes i don’t want to go to sleep
i don’t want to think or have weird dreams
these dreams are never about anything specific or important
but i don’t like how they make me feel when i wake
uncomfortable and uneasy

they leave traces of glass
shards of broken memories
of nothing and anything
and everything in between

the thinking is tricky you see
sometimes my brain goes far too fast
but other times it drags on and on
before bed my mind pulsates
i don’t like it

i wish that my head would just go blank
not forever, just for a moment
just so i could catch some sleep
easily, effortless, without a second thought
white nothingness

i wish to be wrapped in an envelope of silence
so that when i wake i feel
well rested
free
untangled
like i am not chained down

is that too much to ask?

Without within who knows what
That the knot inside wants you to want?
Is it hard knock blunt force
Or a gentle heart?

an army of men
ransacked into a ******
part existential cut
part juvenile clawing
to reach
into an empty bag
where coins resided
taste the metal it left on the lining
i wonder if it will lead back
to that ****** lip on the 4th of july
a firecracker brain
hot-headed ready to explode into the night sky
just to impress you
i could impress you

you must not yank and pull by the stem
you must instead grapple with the growth, finger-deep
and rid the soil of the root.
Headaches numbed with ice
betray a deeper bleeding on the brain
tear the pain out with your fingers
to keep bile from your veins.
Don't prevent mania.
you must instead bite the wound,
open your palms
and let blood to that fragile and fictive arcadia.

Music
Look up: "Superman" by Five For Fighting.

Kermit sings music by a Muppet Band called Frog's For Fighting...! "It's Not Easy To Be Green, I Can't Stand When High"

I can't stand when high,
I'm not that naive...
I'm just out to find the better part of green,
I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a bear,
I'm more than some-frog in piggy's underwear,

And it's not easy-to be-e-green...

Wish that I was high, ****** and half asleep,
Find a way to lie-about my *** on Sesame Street,
It may sound absurd, but don't be naive,
Even Muppets have the right to ****,
I may be disturbed, but won't you concede,
Even Muppets croak upon Skunk-green,

And it's not easy-to be-e-green...

Once again-I'm small-I'm small and GREEN, well it's
Alright! We can all get "stoked" tonight, and I'm not
Blazing...or anything.

I can't stand when high...I'm not that naive,
****** I trip at night, on brownies buzzed on ****!

I'm only a frog on Jim Hensen's knee,
Wearing pink lingerie on this one way street,
I'm only a frog on Jim Hensen's knee-looking for
Older guys who flirt with me
WHO FLIRT WITH ME...
who flirt with me...yea, who
Flirt with me...who FLIRT WITH ME...

I'm only a frog that's diggin' the green,
I'm only a  frog on kronic seven leaves,
I'm only a frog that's puffin' on green, and it's not easy...

WOOOHOOOHOOOO...it's not easy to be-e

Greeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnn...