Hey
I just woke up
They call it "growing up"
But it doesn't feel right
It doesn't feel okay
Waking up to life is painful
Opening your eyes to what it is
To what it really is
I wanted just to sleep
My silly dream to keep
It was beautiful and good
It kept me all my childhood
It was better in my dream
It was like a shield of steam
Oh, reality is so not my thing
Let me sleep for little more
It's my life, don't make me hurt
Don't wake me up
Now, it seems, I can't fall asleep
Oh, reality is so not my thing
Let me sleep for a little more
Oh, growing up is so not my thing
If they call stupidity, a child
Then a child I would want to stay
Stupid and unknowing
Life to be like game
Oh, waking up is so not my thing
Let me sleep for a little more

A whistle flew past my ear,
and I stay in hiding
They're almost here
I will not surrender
So I square my shoulders and fire
I fall for what seems like eternity
and count the stings
as I slowly close my eyes
ready to succumb to death
I see a figure standing in front of me,
and then I wake up.

Do you ever wake up some mornings and think, "Man, this *****, I'm a huge loser?"

Yes?


Well then,

Keep dreaming kid.

Empty streets,
       Squinting lights,
The ghost of a woman
      On her morning stroll,
Shadows of light,
       Birds constructing songs,
Coffee opens the invisible,
       Galloping into the day,
Ready for battle.

Wake up,
And come over.
**** time; run red lights.
Every minute feels longer.

Unlock my door.
Please, come in.

I think I'm starting to wake up now--
the nightmares have finally stopped
and memories of before
come flooding in--
I used to have a good life
(way back when)
before the monster came
and stole me away
from the one who loved me true
I didn't realize then
what all leaving would put us through--
I let lies and deceit
take the place of my love for you
and found out too late that I was being used
to fill his needs to spew out his hate
to be someone that he lived to abuse--
he had such charm in the beginning
making me feel like a queen, a divine love
but then when the slightest thing went wrong
he would hit, push and shove
and tear into me like an animal after his prey
and if I dared to leave afterwards
he'd always find a way
to lure me back in and beguile me again
til finally one day, beaten and bruised
I knew I couldn't let him win--
I ran far far away and started life anew
and I wanted so much to find you again
and beg forgiveness from you--
but when finally I did make that call
to let you know I was now free
you told me that it was too late--
you no longer want me.
So, I sit here now knowing above all
that this life lesson I've learned
is like the world's worst wake up call...

Slumping out of my fickle willow sleep,
Dazed in dream-shaped clouds.
My ears induce a pitch of reality.
I must awake and dawn into the day,
Rather than slumber and succumb in my delusions.
The scent of warm darkness filtering my imagination,
Echoes throughout the house and into my shallow cup.
My lips caress the dark silk,
Transcending through my body
The darkness fills.

I watch as sun reaches
day yet to appear.
Fresh rays searching
perservere
in vista this stillness.

I listen to still few birds
warble in throng.
Voices anew trailing
birdsong
lightly dusts the leaves.

As I observe a light vivid
In jewels afire.
A stars throng glinting
conspires
across greenest boughs.

I taste the greenery in
freshly cut lawn.
Life afire is stirring
morn
soon new day will wake.

The prison you have painted around yourself
You don't even realize your in
When you lie to yourself you harm your mental health
Don't blame this on Satan or sin