#trigger poems on Hello Poetry

SAM Jan 2017

Deep down, 50 feet underwater
down, down
in the depths of the water did your brother drown

And did you cry for him? did you mourn his loss?
watching your momma take a needle to arm if only to forget

Knowing that she lays on her back to pay the bills
son, where is your father?

Your tears became scars, your hurt became claws

And there you are tearing my apart, ripped at the seams
places I can't be touched, they can't see

I didnt mean to let you in,
I didn't know better

Too young to understand,
looks too grown for her own good

Oh dear boy you have a beast in your heart

Ripped my skin apart, but have no evidence to prove it
beyond it all, you had already won

You didnt need to **** me, and you didnt
you didnt need to touch me, oh but you did

Oh, you have a beast in your heart
poor boy, a beast in your heart

#abuse #tw #trigger

Brent Dec 2016

Kalabit

Hindi ko na alam
kung saan ako mas magiging payapa
kung sa kalabit mo sa aking balikat
na malapit nang sumuko
o
kung sa kalabit mo sa gatilyo
na nakatutok sa aking ulo

hindi ko na alam

#love #gun #life #death #hopeless #touch #trigger #filipino #tagalog #kalabit

francesca Dec 2016

AM I Pr ETTY EN OUGGH For YoU

am i pretty enough for you
when i stain my wrists crimson
as i cry myself to sleep
my demons greeting me with
skeletal arms that are always open for me

am i pretty enough for you
when i rub myself raw
in the hot spray of my shower head
as i cleanse the grime that coats my blemished skin

am i beautiful enough
will you finally write sonnets about me
wtite epic tragedies
plays in my honor

darling i am a walking apology
im sorry i cant be beautiful enough
but maybe if i cut off the parts of me i don't like
the fat that hangs off my belly
the jiggle in my thighs
the too flat nose

you'll finally love me back

#self #harm #poetry #body #image #warning #trigger

Shhhh Dec 2016

babyface

you’re supposed to be, be on my side
even when I’m wrong, and always when I’m right
but never were you there
fighting me at every turn acting like a mother,
never as my significant other
i can’t be with someone who treats me like I’m two
i guess thats what a baby face will get you

then it went too far, that long day in the car.
you picked a fight, i was not surprised
it just another day in paradise.
you ****** the wheel and pulled to side of the highway
all to reach over and place your hands around my neck. i tried to scream but the sound couldn’t escape.
i decided that day i could no longer be in this place with you
i can’t be with someone who treats me like I’m two
i guess thats what a baby face will get you

#gay #abuse #tw #abusive #lesbian #bisexual #trigger #triggerwarning #abusiverelationship #babyface

Julia Mae Nov 2016

s e l f - h u r t

that indication should have been enough
for me to know not to get involved
you said you are leaving if i ever cut
i've already been through this before
i've played this same ******* game
the overwhelming fear attached to it
if i happen to lose control one night
and the next morning,
you are gone from my sight

because who would ever love a girl who cuts herself?

#cutting #broken #depression #depressed #hurt #selfharm #cut #hurting #trigger #mentalhealth

Valeria Ariza Oct 2016

5:13 AM

She parts her lips allowing the smoke to pour in,
It kisses the walls of her hyperventilating lungs whispering "all will be fine"

Her cold gray eyes, tired of they see, set on the ground never to rise .
Her silver gold watch ticking, casting each second into the past, weighs down her wrist, so that she keeps them by her sides forgetting how to wave them in defiance.

The smoke continues to fill her chest.

Her broken fingernails claw at her imaginary frights drawing blood from her skin and strength from her heart.
She shoots every poisonous word ever sung to her into her veins,
Every toxic thought ever swallowed runs down her throat,
And the smoke still enters.

Remembering every ugly slur, her gaze is torn from safety, leaving her fixed on her withering reflection, forever to see only pain she has endured, forever to see my eyes staring back.

I sing loving melodies to the silver bullets before loading my pistol of strength, I hum tunes for the fallen and bow my head for those brave enough to love her.
I reassure her past the pain will end and condemn every ******* that hurt her.

she smiles at me as I pull the trigger,
As she descends into the dirt,
all the smoke rises from her lungs whispering "all will be fine"
And she sighs "I know.”

#suicide #gun #depression #death #disorder #smoke #bipolar #trigger #lungs

Andrea Vasquez Oct 2016

Perspective

A split second can change everything
A sudden kiss
A pull of the trigger
A simple step

Can change your entire life
Whether it’s a good or bad second is up to you

A hour of conversation can change you
Secrets and Confessions
Experiences and Arguments
Taking the time to understand

It can change your perspective
It can change your actions

What you make of it
How you see it
How you respond
Is up to you

Just make sure it’s a good one.

#kiss #life #good #bad #step #perspective #secrets #conversation #second #trigger

lulu Oct 2016

I suffer with "Pathological Loneliness" or so they say, anyway

He is safe. He is happiness. He is everything.
He takes away the anxiety. He takes away the hurt. He takes away the pain.
He makes you love yourself. He makes you feel like you aren’t alone.
He keeps away the nightmares.
He holds you. He tells you all the things you need to hear. He pushes you to be a better person.

Without him you are afraid. Without him you are unbearably sad. Without him you are nothing.
Without him you are anxious and bed ridden. Without him you are ridden with depression. Without him you are in constant psychological pain.
Without him you hate yourself. Without him you are alone and always will be.
Without him you have nightmares and sleep paralysis that never seem to end.
Without him you are cold. Without him you are no longer pretty- you are no longer anyone’s favourite person; you are no longer loved. Without him you’re an awful person and no one wants to be around you.

He is security. He is life. He is air.
He makes you do things you never thought you could.
You aren’t afraid to be with him. He makes the voices go away. He makes the paranoid feelings less intense.
You can touch him without feeling like you’re having a heart attack. You can kiss him without feeling like you’re going to faint. You can lay with him and not feel like something bad is going to happen.

Without him you are lost. Without him you want to die- there’s nothing keeping you here but him. Without him you can’t breathe; you feel like you’re drowning- suffocating, always.
You’ve always been afraid of anyone with romantic feelings towards you. You’re always afraid of people touching you or kissing you or anything that relates to intimacy- but you’ve never felt that with him. There have never been heart palpitations. There have never been anxiety ridden shakes and hot flashes. You’ve never felt faint around him. You crave his kisses- you want him to hold you.
Without him you’re afraid of everyone and everything. You never leave the house. You never go see friends. You’re too scared to live your life- you’re too afraid to die. You barely exist.

*But worst of all- without him, you’re left alone to have to deal with me.
Without him, us voices come back to taunt you and we’ll never go away.

|| " a paranoid schizophrenic who suffers with codependency issues, anxiety and borderline personality disorder"

#tw #therapy #trigger #clinical #triggerwarning #psychological #psychologist #psychotherapy #clinicalpsychologist

CNM Oct 2016

The Day My Body Said Stop

The day my body said stop
You had told me nothing like that would happen
I had told you that I had a boyfriend
But you saw I wasn’t very happy
You saw your chance and you took it.
The day my body said stop
I made it clear I wanted to remain loyal
You had a plan to change what I wanted
But your plan failed, I didn’t want you
You didn’t care.
The day my body said stop
All of the sudden you were in my bed
All of the sudden you were naked and so was I
All of the sudden I was no longer loyal
All of the sudden I was crying.
The day my body said stop
My blood was all over your fingers,
My tears all over my face,
My bed reeking of your sweat,
You didn’t care.
You wanted another taste.

those werent from pleasure they were from pain

#warning #trigger