Is there something that can lift my bitterness away? Can it free me of my lingering wrath? Or help my throbbing heart to laugh? Or empty my mind of loathsome? Evaporating the wholesome grief I had swallowed in my hippocampus. Yet, God has granted this gift to our hearts. So, Why don't we perceive life as bliss? Oh, Flourishing Forgiveness! How I longed to taste your fragrance! To obscure my grief-stricken heart with your warm radiance. Enter the teary eyes, O Forgiveness, with your gleaming light! Heal the grudges that make our lives tight. Help us flip the decrepit pages. And abandon our grimaces.
‘Whoever severs ties with you, approach him with good conduct. Whoever deprives you, give to him, and whoever wrongs you, forgive him. ’ -Prophet Muhammad صلي الله عليه وسلم
I always hurt by caring too much Expecting similar effort in return This time thought I could maintain control Some habits too deeply rooted to unlearn
There seems to be no magic number Of heartbreaks able to change my ways Come back to the very thing that destroys me Resolve weakens in a matter of days
Each time I crash a little harder The throbbing gets worse, injuries more severe Plunged into a deep pool of denial Would rather live a lie than face you not here
Although the agony is somewhat unbearable Weight of dishonesty too heavy to hold Know without a doubt it does not compare To torment of watching our romance unfold
The most difficult decision I have ever made Has been to give up on what I poured time into Level the skyscraper that took eons to build Clear unsalvagable wreckage and begin anew
Though all that remains are tiny pieces and dust Of love we were so proud to call our home I desperately scramble for answers in the ruins Mind broken, I relentlessly comb
Looking like a pitiful fool Witnesses point, scoff loudly, and stare They don't understand how it feels to lose your heart Should be embarrassed but I'm far too unaware
Oblivious to disarrayed surroundings Aching nerves scorch muscles with greif Any semblance of time long ago flew away Have been trapped an eternity in a stupor of disbelief
****** sore palms red from scouring sharp sections Hunting the same oversifted handfuls of our past for a trace Of intimacy once lacing our brittle tired bones Is it the feeling or just familiarity I chase?
All I know is functions halt when I'm on my own Unsure if I can survive without you by my side Whether its your soul or simply your presence I need Or something else all together I can't decide
I was not clingy until you carried me on your back Was not jealous before I discovered your power One glance leaves head dizzy, drawing in with your charm Emotions grow wild, stronger by the hour
So I'm stuck here stumbling mumbling incoherently Staggering zig-zagging directions soaked Love left me beaten, too ****** up to form a sane thought Mental state disturbed by the lies on which I choked
Conscience becoming numb, withdrawn into my shell Long to close eyes for a semi-permanent sleep I've not yet felt such emptiness before An old hole reopens for each promise you failed to keep
Hopefully this will be enough To secure chains constricting my heart Lift the veil so my stubborn eyes can see next time Stop the flood of high-pressure emotions before they can start
How did we get here? Somehow we came undone So busy trying to fix you Didn't see us breaking crumb by crumb
Pain is subjective, Physical and emotional, Pain can be: Dull,pins and needles, Aching,cramping,stabbing, Burning,tingling, shooting. Pain can cause: Fear,stress ,anxiety and even depression. Pain is what an individual patient experiences and feels, No one can suffer your pain for you, Others can only sympathize or pray for you.
Opening day at the zoo. Animals chaotically placed in close corridors. Running and hiding in careless confusion. Spilt ideas, half born essays, crushed cans of yerba mate. Brimming. Searching ceaselessly for substance and student IDs. Rushing through the discord. Trying to arrive.
Pulsating. Glassy eyes reflecting reading assignments, brains turned garbage disposal. Grinding-- like raw meat. Turning words into better words. Like turning an animal into a meal-- we disguise our suffering with flavor. Papers being born. Assignments raised out of infancy. Nurturing our young into society.
Ravenous Rushing across red hallways, carpet stained with stress sweat and spilled coffee, a cacophony of containment. Clusters and Clusters and Clusters. Low whispers and loud yawns. The heart is throbbing.
It is a heartthrob’s way To say “I’d rather have noone than to not have you” When really The truth is That unless the other person Wants you too Then you're just spending time On a beach by yourself Watching the waves crash on by Never surfing yourself What is life? If not lived While you still have your health? It is a heartthrob’s way So I say Nothing else