Tears are words that my heart can not speak
The pain felt are the cracks of my heartbreak not seen
Years later and everyday they feel fresh to me as a sunrise not shared

She was the ****, I was the crystal
addicted to each other the moment
                                              we meet.

But every high has a come down,
                I'm the ***** needle..

She was the spoon, warming up on
               another's sleeve.

Tided tightly ready to overdose on her.

                     She was the chemical bliss
that could  be taken anywhere,  



                                         I thought...
that we were something special.

But I was used,
                      discarded.

I was useless to her, as I was unable
         to pierce the vein..

Used to many times.

So she found another way to find
              a way to make her self higher

than she was with me.

Now I'm in a come down

rehabilitated
                   and I'm struggling.

Rarest of the rare my beloved
I feel so fortunate to have discovered
Time will never diminish your allure
Until eternity and beyond this love will endure

You are beautiful.
You are lovely.
You are special.
You're above anything.

You are important.
You are smart.
You can do anything.
You have a good heart.

You are empowered.
You are kind.
You will make it okay.
You will shine.

If you read any of this,
please receive it.
I hope you will now or later
believe it.

A deep dilemma I was in
Should I ask Santa for a reindeer or an ELF
Then a voice whispered
Why don't you ask for the courage to love yourself ?

NO. But he'll always remain
A special person to me
'cause I
Loved him once.