It has been a year
and I say that too tired to stand--but still I trudge on.
You were once a vine with white flowers
and now you have become a treacherous maze.
And I walk through every curve
dodge every overhang--trying to find you again.
Saying, "I love you."
calling out, "I'm here for you."
But your branches get bigger and your leaves grow thicker
I'm searching for you and while I do I stare at some blooms, they like little memories of our past.  And I become more focused on the past than getting out of the thicket
And I am choked like a ****.
As I am strangled and I am losing my breath I think to myself
"How could I be a **** when you said I was a beautiful flower?"
"Why would you take away my breath when you promised me a life?"
And by how you leave me I see all I needed to see.

I was a better love poet
When we were dating
The anxiety to be exactly
what you're looking for
stimulated all my hibernating
thoughts
Now a good lover
But a skeptical writer

Anticipation would stir
my imagination
Now blank with a pen
To every word chain
To every verse
To every unfolding stanza
There was magic and rhythm
This translated into intimacy

But I have got a plan
I'm going to take my mind
on excursion
Do bungee jumping
so I seize an out of body moment
I'm taking on a travelling job
To miss you so much
so often
For all that love
For all the nostalgia
To burst into a word montage

As I wrap my son in pride
--you wallow in your own.
As I plan the future you spend the same amount of time in the past.
My failure to become the child you want
has prevented you from loving the grandchild I've given.
So I will hide my triumphant blessing
and keep him from the judgement I faced.
And since I am such a horrible letdown
--you have four other children to be "good enough" for you.
And I would wish you greater pride in them but you already have enough in yourself.
There has been much growth in myself like the grass in the spring and with that growth I see life and decay
For I am learning to be good enough for my baby and not perfect for you.

I'd tell you to go to hell but you've created it like a fire within me.

You cant hate me for things you've done before
you cant slam an already closed door

For I have locked you out
and the key is in cement

You cant own what was never yours
you cant borrow what you had already stole

For I have locked you in a jail
and mangled it shut

and I cant be yelled at anymore
and I cant be the one to scream for help at that your cold shoulder.

Rapture. The Duke of You, Caesar,
learning of this all and grown-up,
by blood and our power,  if a child
misses having the same name,
meaning, so that as a harlot; They
gather themselves together  (And
human),      or having it available
complexions mistake made women;
unclean. Having arranged the,
or that holdeth the distaff, and the
effete things, not substantial,   more
unmanly, neither of them;            more
antonyms: manly start up in the late
Middle English: the sea removing past |
partners; by ex-              (to explain the
status change), a female.       'children
anything that is unclean.        The sons.
For many questions first.
Rapture,                                   Our guide,

Caesar is everywhere admired by adults,
and our blood is in force;     If a child has lost
sight of  their name,   adjective: they become
prostitutes (And human), both are like having
the characteristics of error occurring through
women; unclean. Ideal for: unmanly,
effete things, solid, more unmanly, feminine;
more antonyms: manly, startup in the
late Middle English:       from the sea,
Affects past partners; by ex- (explain:
state name change) female 'female.'
children,               or exceptions,      unclean.
Children.             For many questions before
we call further happiness;         or happiness,
not for the power of divinity, we need
human services. Have you heard about
the reversal aboard the Argos, Lenora
turning into flames, heavy indications:
strong-fuels, to be peaceable in euphoria
sharing; joy, cheerfulness,   and pleasure;
happy; happiness, happiness
(If you like millennial | education)
Note to the castor sky for you Find out.
This is now on safety; The Life of Jesus
Christ in Words (such as some who
have received a Millennial Education);
ship of (believers) from the Second Time,
in heaven, he walks. Personal
adjustments disappear. For both he
noticed that bedside his shoulders
in the holy place.The challenge to
grow your name is peace; To send
it to euphoria and joy of that happiness;
Blessings and friends showed to the hospitals;
The joy of the laughter; The boat boasting
those whose appearance has caused
a controversy, female, awari, foppish,
unmanly, feminine; non-informal, campy,
camp, flaming:"Happiness has
                           been humbled"

Rapture. By the Duke of Caesar there is a great number of evils;

Many adults have power and blood. If the child,
the son of perdition, but to those who **** the children,
and the children of the insurgents to use their children.
Infant. The effects of many predators
in the forecast have been talking about.

Rapture. Caesar's available to the Duke
and here and there; Most adults have power
and blood. If a young child is lost, but those
who **** infants and children, and their children
so that they are unclean. The sons. Many
of the problems that we may not know in advance.

We now call
Further, happiness or happiness
of the divine power at work in human affairs.
Leonoram hear from the rapture
Definitions: ecstasy, was the promotion of peace;
the euphoria, the joy, the happiness, to the distribution;
happiness, happiness, happiness
(To millenarian doctrine)
to them that believe to pass at the sign
of Castor and Pollux in the sky,
Invention. This safety focus;
health and the advent of Jesus Christ.
The words (such as some millenarian
Education) ships (the believer) from
the second time, the sky, that you should walk.
He returns to his private withdraw
Big trouble in front of the holy.
Ariyanjiyan your name is a synonym for peace;
the promotion, the euphoria, the joy, the joy which,
and assurance of happiness, happiness;
the happiness of a controversy from the ship,
and that he was caught,
the promotion of the dispute?

Rapture. By Duke of Caesar many places are;
Many adults have power and blood. If the child,
the son of perdition, but for those who **** children,
and children of the insurgents to use their children.
Baby. The effects of many of the predators in the forecasts
have been talked about.

Rapture. Our guide, Caesar, is where all adults are certified,
and our blood is power
If the child misses
whose names, meanings: prostitutes
(And human), both available as having
the characteristics of error occurring by women; unclean.
Designed for: unmanly, effete things, solid, more unmanly, feminine;
more
antonyms: manly
startup

late Middle English: from the sea,
Delete past partners;
by ex- (explain state change) female woman. '
children, or exceptions, unclean.
Children. For many questions
before.

We will call
Further, happiness;
or happiness,
not for the power of God,
We need human services.
Have you heard about that change?
Argos Lenora into flames,
Indications: strong-oil,
to be at peace in the council;
joy, pleasure, and enjoyment;
happy;
happiness, happiness
(If you like stroke)
Note to heaven that tells you
Researcher. This is now on safety
The Life of Jesus Christ.
Words (such as some millenarian
Education) ship (believer) from
The second time, the sky, he walked.
Personal repairs are missing
For both you noticed that the bedside of your shoulders
In the holy place.
The challenge to grow your name is peace;
To send it to euphoria and joy
that joy;
Blessings and friends show hospitals
Salt of the smile
The boat was rampant
whose appearance has led to controversy,

female, awari, foppish, unmanly,
feminine; non-informal, camp, camp, flaming
"Pride has fallen"

Sands and seashells as white as moonlit night
And water tugging slightly at the small boats
Trembling in the wake

“Far across the silvery sea”
Those little waves whisper to me
“From ocean dark and brooding blue, cross horizons bleeding red
is a land where the mists travel languidly through
and dangerous things betwixt the paths you tread.”

“There is a city that some say glows in the night
Whose towers ***** to glorious height
Domes and great structures stand below
Upon white stones, blue moonlight does glow.”

“If you swim out during the brooding storm
And torrential city make, with towers of black swirling wake
The sea will take and change your form
You will enter the depth and the depth will enter you
And sea imbued, you emerge anew.”

“On the second day, and the crest of red rising light
When Phoenix fly against the night
You will be ****** from water by the fiery wing
And to a new land take you as Phoenix songs it softly sings.”

“There you will encounter the dangers and things of strange delight
And the white walls of Elyse, whose light is cast upon the height.”

Women crave for a rebirth
and I am no exception.
I crave to hear a choir and feel the water rush over me,
leaving me with a sense of purpose and a new perspective.
I want to forget my name.
I want to see my life in a new light.
I feel it's time for me to leave my body and leave my past.
It's time for me to find my mind
because I know that it must get better than this.

So let me grow,
I believe that it does get better than this.
I have seen many women learn how to scream their own name,
over and over and over and over again.
Howling into the clouds and radiate like the sun,
and I start to wonder when my time will come.
However, I know I must learn to grow steady like the harvest
because I know rebirth is not a path that we can rush down