I hurted you, unwillingly...
I never meant that,
I love you with my all
Hurting you hurt me more
Than you could ever understand or feel...
I need you each and every moment
You know it very well
But still away from me..
You always say you care..
Then come to me now..
Leave your anger,
Leave your ego,
Just hold my hand..
I need you alot..
I love you never means it about only love..
I say this because you're something more for me than my life,
than my everything..
Please talk to me...
Forgive me sweet heart!!!
Forgive this fool girl!!!

the ivy grows upwards
clawing at a ceiling fan  
looking to catch a glimpse of movement
the dust collecting on the blades is only proof of it's constant use
propelling a back and forth lasso of breath and exhale

my body has grown since last summer
the color of my eye mimicking jars of honey on your favorite shelf
I used to seek out momentum, the tumult of a sweaty night or the ongoing pulse of crowded people in small houses laughing about the spilled wine on hardwood floors
I can't tell if I was ever that person or if she was a catalyst of boredom swamping my every decision-making unable to make one properly for myself

I want noise and quiet
gritting teeth but a perfect mouth
I can't help but think of all my bones when walking outside
keeping me upright and unbreakable if only a shadowy and milky illusion
those places in my mind keep collecting freckles of dust and the people I've left behind now have blurry faces and unrecognizable personalities
but where there was once melancholy for different times
there's only a dog pulling me forward as the ivy grows up

NOISE does unfair,
disturbs everywhere.
Even at workplace,
at home makes restless.
With only tortures and pains,
this noise makes no sense.

NOISE breaks focus,
annoys, irritates us.
Freezes our mind,
blowing noisy winds.
By giving only pains,
this noise makes no sense.

But,
NOISE of war,
shows end isn't far.
Noise of deads,
shows life's dark shades.
Showing our offense,
this noise makes sense.

Hell is not an afterlife Myth.
Nightmares do not occur Only in dreams
When you are F*cked up in life,
When your soul is devastated,
You will be experiencing them.