We can't ignore the fact that,
Our planet is a hellish place right now!

Little pieces of ego
Exploiting an alive blue marble,
A wet blue piece of dust
In massive field of space.

Some organic and spiritual beings
Naming themselves
Human being all human,
Behaving as a controlled chaos.

Being a machine that
Takes all the riches of the planet.
Than they give all these to a
Powerful little secretive elite,
Demanding more and more
Power and all the riches in
Striving lust of greed!

This is the sake for destroying,hurting
The beautiful nature, ecosystem;
As well as having terrible lives.

What about you?
I can't talk specificly about you,
But generaly your bodies are
Dying for passions of ego!

Because of
Hard conditions of life,
Prison of limitations,
Carrying a heavy burden of
Memories, responsibilities...
Negative beliefs, starvation to praise...

I don't know why, but somehow
You feel bad.
I don't know how, but
You feel bad.

Unless, some negative think
In some negative part of your life.

You don't know why we feel that,
How to cope with that.
Because it is never been thought to you
By your school, media, family.

You're striving so.
Striving to some unknown point.
Beyond of the material, your culture.

You don't know what to do,
So you strive continuously.
If not consciously, subconsciously.
Then fire comes in and
You become the hellish torcher of pain!

An angry tiger colored fire!
In fiery pain!
Striving and burning!
In the blaze we call humanity of today.

It is the hell inside of us!
Making the body smoke and ash.
Sickness, illness, non health, fatigue
Making the body rusty and bulky
That all caused by firing negativity!

You may call it fear, pain, boredom...
Deppression, anger, distress...
Whatever you call in any form,
It is the you being the firing lust.
It is the you being the part of the hell.

It is the you being the blaze that is
Society made of 60 trillion cells!

Sometimes in life,
you just,
have to look at the bright side.
It feels like,
everybody is just so negative.
There is so much hatred,
and pain in this world.
If you think about it though,
we could make it so much better.
So, just stick with the right friends,
never lose hope,
and look at the bright side.

I can’t force the universe to understand me
I won’t throw a tantrum, two or more folks
That refuse to travel with me on this path
There are more than a billion folks ahead
Of this path, waiting to align with a stranger:
Dancing in the same levels of energies

So I won’t force “ this few” to understand me
Neither will I succumb to their negativity
I soldier on, I carry on, on this lonely path
Knowing the sun will shine someday, on this path
I don’t know when but I carry on like the good farmer

The past doesn't define what we are
Unless you let it
Scars run through my heart and soul
But I couldn't be happier
For they don't hold my happiness
I do
I run the show that is my life
No negativity will define me
So say your words
Act so tough
But sorry sir
I direct this show and you are only a background actor.

why is it that we
only believe the bad things
they say about us?

9:27 PM
10/9/19

Once she chased happiness
and now she chases broken pieces.
She fell in love with pain,
it drove her insane.
For who would want to hurt themselves?

Who would choose to
love to be heartbroken,
run back to the ones who would hurt,
reminisces painful memories to be hurt,
indulge in negativity, to drown in its depths
be comforted by demons than people.

But no one saw,
for there were no scars,
for it was mental self harm.

Pain it craved,
fear, rejection and sadness it ate.

She cried, because it was self harm
she screamed, and shouted
asking herself did she not love herself
to be hurt by her own self?

People need space to
Express negativity
But I have none left

Those who are louder
Spread their anger far and wide
I'm left crowded out

Self-made apathy
Is not a healthy method
But it's all I have

life is beautiful
but it is also sad
of all the good things
there is also the bad
and it feels as though the bad is always embracing the good
that there is more bad than there is good in this world

and when the mind is overloaded with the negative
sometimes the drowning can't be stopped

the world starts to understand
that the happiest people may just be the saddest
and it fills me with grief
as it is anything but untrue
true to the point it hurts me

my secret was being revealed

it strips me off my feigned confidence
and leaves me with an empty shell
empty of love
of all the good things in life

i am sad for myself
who have turned out this way

and in the end i only have myself to hold
but i do not like me
not now
not ever

so tell me

how shall i live?

— Y.H.

my own personal epiphany,
gentle fervor.