Once she chased happiness and now she chases broken pieces. She fell in love with pain, it drove her insane. For who would want to hurt themselves?
Who would choose to love to be heartbroken, run back to the ones who would hurt, reminisces painful memories to be hurt, indulge in negativity, to drown in its depths be comforted by demons than people.
But no one saw, for there were no scars, for it was mental self harm.
Pain it craved, fear, rejection and sadness it ate.
She cried, because it was self harm she screamed, and shouted asking herself did she not love herself to be hurt by her own self?
i write to enlight myself to survive the path i chose to have in life so i scream please who could hear? or see? or relate to the kid who hides alone at the break high on the steps that are made from within his soul and craved in an art form so he could have a home to bear the storm coming to reform the norms of his instincts Masked so he keeps distant Blind trying to keep a link with the Mystics and it works since it's from within the layers of the skin that makes my head spin every time i remember where i have been.
Words Of Harfouchism
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I can feel the numbness It pulses in my lips I pinch my hips To see if I still exist I can't breath Maybe I'm just suffocating The air won't pull in My chest rises and falls But nothing gets pulled in Im suffocating in the darkness That I created From my own stupidity The world is not ending But my world is pulling away Taking the air I breath with him I'm left out in space But there are no stars It's the emptiness I carved out around me With bleeding hands I can't breath I can feel the numbness It pulses in my lips I feel the grace of fingertips I try to latch on I weigh a ton Will my world hold on After all my stupidity Will he give me air to breath
"Dance with me" She said "Take more of me" Morals and manners Tossed aside He earnestly did As she craved Intense moments shared Then some how It happened With no conscience Deliberative deceit It seemed sudden He had seemed infallible She knew he wasn't He never knew And their world Shattered