our relationship took a quick turn for the worst
the corner was too sharp, we overcorrected-
crash
barely surviving, holding on by a thread.
mom says we'll be okay, fighting is just what sisters do...
and I believed her
the first couple dozen times that is,
until it started to become repetitive and meaningless.
a fight about taking each others clothes,
"it's just what sisters do".
an argument about me being too sensitive and taking everything too personally,
"it's just what sisters do"
a screaming match about our lives and how vastly different they are,
how distanced
we are,
how there will always be a divide,
(you blame this on age)
but 10 years between us
shouldn't hurt
this much.
now I expect the endless bashing of my sensitivity and my emotionally driven mind
I don't bat an eye at the jealousy ridden remarks thrown in my face,
and though I can't count on you,
I can surely count on you putting me down
and holding me there until it hurts
and I let you,
because
that's just what sisters do...
right?
Sad because I have a **** relationship with my sister. I wish it could be different.
our relationship flourished for a while as we both grew into adulthood, but she lets jealousy and lack of confidence get between us. This isn't what sisters should do.