I take a step forward
Then life pulls me two steps back.

I cry for help
Get no answer.

I'm ugly
Unlikable
Full of problems

Maybe that's why he didn't want me anymore.
Maybe that's why my friends tire of me.
Maybe that's why I am unapproachable.

People lie to me,
They let those snakes slither off their tongues like false promises.

I am different
Quiet
Strange

Too much
For anyone
And everything

And yet I'm not enough
For anyone
Or anything
Especially not my father
And never my step mother or that family.

Oh how the medicine in my cabinet seems tempting.
All my problems could be solved if I take too much
And let it's empty shell fall to the ground
Much like mine.

forget it,
forget everything i've said,
even the poetry i wrote to you,
forget it.

you broke me.

she waited for him
he waited for her
but neither knew
until they fell apart.

and I think it's tragic
both waiting
without knowing
until the end has come.

they were taken to the grave a long time ago,
they fought for all those who were worth fighting for.
and now they are forgotten and one with the earth
they once fought for.

When you think about it
Live is anything but fair
But the kicker that destroys it all
Is losing the one you like to another

The emotions that ensnare
The betrayal that’s felt
The love turned to anger
Lost in an endless spiral

You try to say it’s okay
You say it’s not your fault
There’s nothing you could do
Nothing you could say

Just live with it and wait
For emotions get easier
But you never listen
And probably never will

You lash out and scream
Cursing yourself and others
Hating that it could never be
As simple as you and I

Your emotions turn cold
You lose the feeling of laughter
Losing yourself you crumble
Into a pile of broken stone

And there you wait
For a while
Till it becomes clear
It was never meant to be