Reincarnation


I’ve lived this death a thousand times,
Each time you let me go.
My heart has always been divine,
Whilst your love has only ever left me with sorrow.


So I kiss goodbye to a dream of tomorrow.
The last time I shall now see you is in the morrow.
For you have let me go, to save your own sanity.
So I shall leave you in peace
And find some self-loathing in which I can wallow.


This contemptuous place, that replaced your womb,
Has engulfed my hope and left me to my gloom.
The darkness draws over me like the ending of a book;
There is peace.  There is silence.  I have now become entombed.


So think of me as they drag me down to The Devil;
For I know all your secrets, but shall never tell.
Because I love you forever.  My love is eternal.  
So please be there for me, when I leave this *******.


For this is my purgatory, in which I must pay;
But then once more, I shall rise to see your face;
But after this life or the next, we shall each rise to see God’s grace.
Reincarnation is finding my love again;
But I can no longer, watch you slip away.


So once and for all, we shall stand before God!
We shall tear out our hearts and throw them on the floor!
I shall tell HIM only once!
I love her…
She loves me…
We have lived this life enough!


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Full time dreamer


You must want for nothing,
To get all you wished for.
You must have lost everything,
To appreciate it all.


For once it has gone,
You see why it was so good.
You begin to see the bad points,
Weren’t as bad as they seemed.


But all that glitters, really isn’t gold,
And many lies have been told,
To ease your suffering and let you live again;
But no lies can erase the memories of the pain.


So wish for amnesia, or for someone to be true.
Wish for a better life, for me and for you.
Wish for a change and it may come.
I simply wish you to be faithful
And I wish I could fall in love.


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The moment I knew.


As I turned the corner to climb those steps,
I looked up and saw you and I lost my breath;
You took it away, as I was stunned by your stunning beauty.
I heard my heart speak, as it spoke to me…


It simply said “Wow!” and at that moment, I fell;
So the time has come for me to tell.
You were dressed in white, next to a window of light
And as I looked deep into your eyes, I saw sun shine.


I was looking for someone with fire in their eyes
And yours held the sun itself, so diamonds came to mind.
I was left speechless as you softly spoke
And as I arrived at your feet, my voice and I rose,
To speak unto you, while I was falling for you
And from that moment in time…I knew.


If I had the chance to tell you of my feelings,
I had to tell you, I have been day-dreaming,
About possibilities
And reasons why not (times infinity)…


But a single thought still remains.
What if she said “Ok Babe”…to me?
Just think of what could happen;
Just think of what could be.
Here’s to risking everything.


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Bad enough to be good


With flames of love all around her, she cannot be held.
This fire burns only for her, but I am on the outside.
A vision of true beauty, an intoxicating smell,
Which draws me forever deeper inside her beautiful mind.


As I am falling, she is calling,
I am unable to resist her charms.
Sooner or later, I will succumb to her feminine wiles
And be trapped, always, inside her arms.
Until that time I will remain, floating away in space,
Hoping and praying that I am found some day.
If she comes knocking on my door,
I will open my heart to her gladly;
My love will always be yours.


I will walk across land to stand before her,
Confessing my plans to worship her,
Until the end of time.
If she asks it of me, I will let love be-
Come; I will let her love into my life.
If she needs me, then I will be there,
If she is ever sad, I will always care,
Enough to do all I can to cure her pain.
I will hold my tongue and speak no more when she is having a bad day.


I will not infect her thoughts.
I will protect her from my depression, like I know I ought,
For she will have given me her love.
I will keep my negative feelings deep on the inside.
I will always keep her next to my heart;
I will speak of her with pride.
I will keep her happy, if only she asks it of me.
She has torn down all my walls.


I stand here helpless, overcome with love.
The tears of sadness have become tears of happiness.
The lady in the red dress, so hot to the touch,
I now truly know to be,
Bad enough to be good.


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It ain’t heavy Babe


Writing lines so soft they can never be heavy.
Driving along in my Beetle; dreaming about a Chevy.
Time to begin again; getting ready.
Lovin’ ain’t as easy as they all say it is.
Still I’m heading out west, looking for something steady.


Been rolling my whole life through, with love on my mind.
I’ve climbed every hill that stood in my way,
And I sank into every ditch that I could find.
My heart is a heart-seeker, but my lovin’ eyes have been blind.
I believed in the unbelievable; wasted so much time.


Could have been a contender,
If only I had the talent to succeed.
I could have made something of myself,
If only I knew just what to do with this plasticine.
Sang songs of love and sang songs of hate.
It all took every piece of me.
Wrote poems about my every day, every day
And all my nights and in all my dreams,
But still I am left here waiting, praying for her love.
Love is a boulder, upon my shoulders,
And I’m feeling heavy…
Maybe I should do something good.


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The remains of what could have been.


I’ve got a fragile heart that is scared of breaking.
I would give you my world gladly,
If I could believe you were not just faking.
I look so confident to those who do not know;
My titanium bones cannot stop from shaking.


I am cold to the thought of falling in love.
I want to be, but still I cannot;
I am unable to feel touched.


Keep them at a distance;
Real love takes patience.
I will wait for love to find me;
I still believe in a romance,
So bright it lights up my darkest of skies.
First chance to find love,
I let it pass on by.
The beauty was there, but so much more was still missing.
So still I remain alone;
No kissing.
Just wishing she could have been more than she was,
But that love is gone…
Angel to dust.


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The end of this party that we call love.


Fire lighter’s and raise them high,
The time has come to reach the end.
The end of all those things we did.
The end of you, the end of me; we are at our end.  


From a pit, I whispered to you
And all you saw were lips that move.
In silhouettes I made my move
And I fell so deep into love with you.  


A thought of loss for you my dear;
My wish to start a life apart,
Has never brought you to feel so near…
Why are you still here?


Sorrowful but satisfied;
All the tears I cried, I wish I had never cried.
So sad to see you later with your beautiful smile,
When all I want to see is the end of all time.


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This is important…to you


With life comes expectation’s, we only disappoint.  
With love comes expectation’s.  I have to disappoint.  
They tell me I must celebrate getting closer to the end.  
I tell them I don't want to and I don't have to, without a girlfriend.


With love you are obligated.  Without I am free to choose.  
They tell me it is another opportunity wasted,
To find someone I do,
Want to fall in love with;
I could end the night with a kiss.  
I say there are three hundred and sixty four other days
And she would find me any other time, if she truly knew me.  


I do not wish celebrate this day,
So come back tomorrow and try again.  
If you are only willing to try to love me once,
Then we will never find a way, so I think you should bounce.
If love is not committed, then tell me, what is it?  
If love has rules that I must follow religiously,
Then where is the spontaneity?  


I want love at first sight and true insight,
Not being forced to be happy this night.  
If I must, then I will begrudgingly
And I will wear a plastic smile and empty eyes;
So tell me if they will still want me?
If you cannot understand my reasons,
Then there is no helping you.  
I will not be helped to help myself, no matter what the season.  
I will remain in oblivion,
Searching for the driven,
Waiting again for passion,
To call out my name.  


I carry my pain in a box of misfortune,
As I walk alone down memory lane.  
Your glass is half full, my soul is shattered.
Happy Birthday...doesn't matter.


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