i'm always asked why my eyes are so dreary
why i'm always yawning
why i can barely keep my eyes open
it's because my eyes are always open during the night
i can't seem to drift off into the night
and get the numbered hours of rest i need
my thoughts occupy my mind
keeping me awake
at all hours of the night

I'm dead,
I have already committed suicide,
No you can see me,
You can feel me,
You can read me,
But you can't find even a single reason to call me alive,
No I haven't got cut on my hand,
& haven't ever tried to hang,
But I have got my heart bleed,
I have got it broken,
I couldn't actually die,
& sorry I'm unable to keep myself alive,
Not my fault,
cause I'm the one
never loved,
never cared,
never caressed,
never being consoled,
never being hold...
So here is a midway,
So here is a dead me,
With a human body,
Healthy & fit
A ***** kit!!!
What if I can't cut my lifeline,
I have already cut my connections with life & now I think it's all fine...

Not sure when motions lost their meanings,
or when emotions ceased to exist,
and in place of where these emotions used to dwell,
a sort of quasi nostalgic feeling of emptiness sits,

don’t remember when we lost ourselves,
but how could you expect m remember,
you know what a terrible memory I have,
heck I don’t even remember my last birthday,

or the one before that,
or the one before that one,
I don’t really remember much these days,
but what I do remember is that I still love you,

though I could’t tell you what that love means,
in fact I can’t really tell you much of anything,
because it seems I lost me Self when I lost my way,
at some point of time somewhere along The Road of Life,

I must’ve ignored the street signs,
I must’ve let myself be led astray,
and now here I am alone together with you,
unsure of who we are or what anything means,

not sure when motions lost their meanings,
or when emotions ceased to exist,
and in place of where these emotions used to dwell,
a sort of quasi nostalgic feeling of emptiness sits…

∆ LaLux ∆

You called me your girlfriend and held my hand
You lifted up my spirit and healed a broken piece of me
Then you say we're not together
I knew it all just happened so easily
Why would someone like you want me?
Trust me, I'm fine.
Everyone leaves
Why did I think you could be different?
Maybe I'm being dramatic
But my heart breaks so easily
like glass
And that's why I don't open up so easily
I honestly don't feel like being shattered again
I just put all my pieces back together
Just a few days ago
I was put back together again
and you know what?
I did it.
Me
No one else was around to help
And then you showed up
I was hoping that I wouldn't have to do it alone anymore
I know we just met
But I get my hopes up so easily
And I thought you'd be the one to save me
Why do you think I approached you?
I don't usually do that kind of thing
But it's fine.
I don't mind.
I just have to get used to being hurt again
by everyone in my life
I should just give up on love
Love *****
And I just have to pretend like I'm okay, right?
I've been told that my fake smiles look so real
I can lie
And pretend I'm fine
Because that's what I'm used to
I don't let anyone see me
The real me
Because they have the ability to hurt me
And almost everyone I let know me had the audacity
to use that against me
I destroy myself when I'm hurt
I can't eat
I can't sleep
I can't freaking breathe
And I'm a crybaby
I cry about everything
Everything I feel goes straight to my heart
and shatters it
And why would you be interested in that?
Exactly.
I'll just have to change my heart into shatter-proof glass
So just lie and say you're alright
Lie and say you're alright
Lie and say you're alright
Lie and -
I'm alright!

Theres a vacant,
emptiness within me.

          It’s so dark.
         Please help me.
                            -sky.d