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mj 18h
16
i never thought i'd make it to sixteen
the age was always something i thought only movie characters and people around me would reach
i thought i'd be gone by then
i didn't think someone would be able to ask me
"how old are you?"
and i would say
"i'm sixteen"
sixteen
"how old are you now?"
a relative or friend would ask
"i'm fift-"
then i would stop
"i'm actually sixteen."
sixteen
wow
i thought i would have been able to say it
i  couldn't imagine mumbling those words
i've outlived so many kids
kids who actually wanted to live
sometimes i wish i could trade places with them
a kid who wanted and deserves to live here
happy birthday to me
mj Dec 2018
"there's a monster under my bed!"
i would say to my mother
as she tucked me in tight
kissed my forehead and put away the storybooks
"i'm sure there's not but i will check anyway."
she would say before checking under the bed
and even in the closet
in every nook and cranny
to reassure me i was safe
but she never realized
the monster wasn't under my bed
or in the closet
or behind the bedroom door
or in any nook and cranny
it slept in her bed
mj Dec 2018
i was lying on the beach
at 3am
cold and completely alone
starring up at the moon
listening to the waves crash against the shore.
while holding the phone against my ear
listening to your recordings you left on my phone
telling me to call you back
that you would be home soon
and that you loved me so much
not even a thousand page book
could describe the love you have for me
now that i can not hear your voice in person anymore
i'm left to listen to the voicemails you left me
imagining you there
holding me in your arms
wishing
hoping you come back
even though it's impossible
mj Oct 2018
i never would have thought
that i would ever receive what i wanted
a love so strong it could survive in the eye of the hurricane
someone who would stay by my side 'til the end of time
a good, loving, caring heart to call my own
i never would have thought
someone like you
would even glance my way
even take notice of me
i never would have thought
i would ever be able to call you
the most amazing person on this earth mine
dedicated to my one and only; austin f
mj Sep 2018
i'm always asked why my eyes are so dreary
why i'm always yawning
why i can barely keep my eyes open
it's because my eyes are always open during the night
i can't seem to drift off into the night
and get the numbered hours of rest i need
my thoughts occupy my mind
keeping me awake
at all hours of the night
mj Sep 2018
i stand out in the cold
embracing the harsh winds
i close my eyes and breathe deeply
inhaling the smell of the crisp, fall air
the smell reminds me of us
how our favorite season would be so short
but we'd love every moment of it

the colors of the leaves
a cranberry red
like the sweater I wore on our first date
a burnt orange
like the flower you gave me
a golden yellow
like the ring you gave me
to show you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me
on the last day of autumn

but by the first day of fall the following year
you weren't here with me
you can never feel the cold on your face again
or see the bright colors of the trees and leaves

every time i step
the crunching of the leaves
crush beneath my boots
i tread to where you lay
i read the stone again
even though what it says is already engraved in my mind
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