My past is too much of an influence on my present, I know it's a problem.
But all I have ever been taught is To be a joke, because thats all I am To be silent, because nobody really cares To never ask for help, because I'd just be judged To never say no, Because I'd get punished.
And all I've ever been told is I'm not beautiful I'm not fitting their standards I'm not not going to be loved
so thank you, step father Thankyou for destroying everything I was.
I tend to fall into a complacent obsession Over unhealthy attachments That will lead to me self-harm And carving suicidal thoughts along The dotted lines of my veins Just so I can portray my favorite role Once again - The victim