I feel the water against my skin
I know when I am almost drowning
I can sense the snakes poking my atmosphere
As I draw my knife.


One of my eyes pinned
The other one the watch
Because I am naked
And nothing will hurt me again.

I ain't afraid no more
of the darkness
and the sadness
the 4AM thoughts
I got used to loving deep
with receiving nothing in return
I accept the rain
the sunless days
It isn't going well
but I ain't afraid no more
of the monsters in my head.

Locked in a box
No sound
No light
No people

A scream is not been heard
A cry is not been seen
Falling in the darkness
Away from the living, isolated in a box
Alone and not finding peace
Falling deeper and deeper

Trying to get out
And make a change in life
Stand up for yourself
But to afraid to be heard
Till someone opens the box for you and lets you in
To the world

For this point and time being my life is good up in this moment
It’s showing and the hoes know it
so it’s hard to overthrow it
So I’m living like a rockstar but funny cuz I ain’t famous
And it’s funny, see the money then you start to see the changes
See my friends in different places
cuz we walk in different paces
And we trapped up in the struggle hoping one day we can make it
And I’m scared to loose em to death cuz we outta luck
But I’m really afraid to grow apart cuz we outta touch.....


**** where’d the time go
Looking at me in this mirror, realizing I’m getting old
But yet I’m still young and I’m happy within my placement
But with all the **** I’ve done what happens if I never make it
Afraid to drop a seed, I’ll raise him, I ain’t bluffing
But how can he look up to me if I don’t amount to nothing
I’m taking a second to sit and think about my fears
Will I lead to my own destruction or continue on my years

I'm afraid
I ain't strong enough yet
to trust
to love again
its been a struggle
fighting everyone, everything
every memory associated with you
the touch of your skin
the colour of your eye
the warmth of your hug
I'm afraid
but i hope this dosen't last long