A child who once wasn't happy
one to wanted to be of a unique
under the illusion of society given
you will never be accepted if weak

I was the one naive of all
the small introvert in the herd
passing through many doors
as adapting knowing
I was their choice of third

I wasn't the perfect child
growing up was good enough
my family is an average born
I grew with thoughts of living
was always kind well
As to no one had told me
it should be this tough

I was one of a kind
the kind you'd be worried
though appearances
known to seem docile
my parents concerned

I might have grown hurried
as paced from other children
I was the one who realized the lies first

Certainly there are moments in life when life seems to be absolutely strange.

The moment it was understood that things are over was the same moment in time when the importance of present moment in time was understood, realized and also accepted.

Shortcoming, limitation of scope with regards to the future and rest of the other things were followed by this understanding in the present moment of time.

Strange seems life,
strange, absolutely strange at times.
Still it’s life and life continues

Better to wait for the right moment in time
Better to be cautious, careful and then carefully take the next step and follow the same.

Unexpected things do happen and keep following in life
Still with all the ups and downs in life,
always it's better to be on the safe side.

Agreed that an uncertain future needs to be ascertained,
but then the present cannot be put at stake for the sake of worries about the future.

Strange seems life,
strange, absolutely strange at times.
Still it’s life and life continues.

No matter what new thing comes across mind
No matter how odd, difficult and troublesome is the obstacle in the present moment of time
Still it’s always possible to remove the odd that comes along the way
The only thing that needs to be there in mind is determination, which
makes everything happen at the right moment.

Always remember
You have got one life, in this one life you have got chances and opportunities.
No one really knows how much or how many.

So be wise,
play safe,
but do take a calculated risk.

Time has played a major role in deciding and ascertaining what’s possible and what’s beyond the present moment in time.

So ascertain the future only when the need of the hour says so,
otherwise continue with what’s going on in mind at the present moment in time.

It’s life
Strange seems life,
strange, absolutely strange at times.
Still it’s life and life continues.

"Why don't you come home more often?"
"Why don't you bring that nice boy of yours over anymore?"
"Why don't we get to meet this friend that you talk about so much?"

You ask
So many
Questions.

And I just shut down
And you just get mad
Because I have nothing to say
That will please you.

Why don't I come home more often?
Because this place no longer feels like home.
Home is where you are accepted
Not judged.
Home is where you are safe
Not targeted.
Home is where you feel loved
And I don't feel loved here
Anymore.

Why do I no longer bring my boyfriend around?
Because he can smell plastic people
From a mile away
And he turned into a greyhound
The moment he caught wind of your *******.
He isn't as courteous as I am
And I envy him greatly for that.
He won't paint his skin to match your plastic shine
Just to be called one of your own.
I wish I could do the same.

Why don't you get to meet my friend?
Because I'm in love with her.
And my bisexuality is the only thing I have left
That you cannot
Judge
Or
Taint
Or
****.
You can be as homophobic as you want about my friend
Because he likes boys
And you can change the channel
When you see two girls kiss
But you can't see what's right in front of your face.
You created the very thing
You despise.
So I won't bring her over
Because my kiss is still on her lips
And my boyfriend holds my hand
Through it all
Because he knows
That I need this.

You made three perfect children.
All married.
One grandchild
One on the way.
Two girls and one boy
Living out your dreams.
A scientist and a nurse and an aspiring policeman.

But don't you forget
That you also made me.
Your little
Outgoing
Antisocial
Loving
Bitter
Bisexual
Baby.
The youngest of four.
The "oops" of the litter.
You made me.
But that doesn't mean you
Own me.
And that doesn't mean you
Define me.
And that doesn't mean you
Need to accept me.
Because I don't need your acceptance.
I don't need you at all.

So
"I won't be back home for awhile."
"Alright. We love you."
"If only."

For me it’s not over
It’s far from over
The day still remains as the day continues

Agreed and accepted
Result was not as per expectation
Still the battle continues
The battle is far from over
It was just a stumble, not even a fall
So nothing to worry deeply
Nothing much of concern

Winning and losing is part of the game
Games are played for a long period of time
The final game is yet to be played
The final word is yet to be said.

For me it’s not over
It’s far from over
For me the day still continues

No, not all
It’s not the ups and downs
Highs and lows
Something, which has always remained a concern
The right approach makes the real difference
Definitely approach remained a concern since long.

A change in approach will definitely make the difference
Something which will let me give my best
Something which will change the future course of time.

No, not all
Everything is not yet over
Definitely things are far from over.

For me it’s not over
It’s far from over
For me the day still continues, the day remains.

" If you live alone,
         You'll die alone, darling "