My grandfather is ill,
Well he was ill when he was alive,
My aunt was ill,
Well she was ill when she was alive.

My grandfather died naturally,
My aunt took her own life,
And their decease was like relief,
So I sit here covering my face with a plastic sheet.

Shall I just end it here?
It seems that I have disease in my blood,
But would I go to heaven if this is how I go?
In the light through the sheet Jesus shook his head « no ».

So I fell back down to earth,
As Jesus motioned for me to go to hell,
If this is how I choose to go then heaven he will not approve,
He tells me I still have work to do.

And she was left to cry,
All the tears he refused to…

Had I known you would leave me, my love, I would never have reached my finger tips in your direction.

How cruel is your absence, that I find myself cursing every thought of you. How cruel is your willingness to leave me to live or die… Had I known how cruel you were I never would have loved you.

I wish and wish and wish that I could hold you in my arms, and feel you breathing for me. I love you, and I hate myself for loving you.

I wish that I could forget you, but what a useless world that is. You don’t love me, and I scream in pain because I know you don’t love me. But I am not completely insane, you made love to me as if we were the only two people here…

I wish that I could be relieved from this pain, but you are the remedy and you don’t want to cure me anymore. You want to forget me, and that I could never understand… why forget a love that would put angels to shame…

Do not be fooled by my smile,
I am not at peace when I laugh,
I am not home when I am in ecstasy,
I wish to feel the settlement of my heart,
Within the warmth of your hand.

No one has the slightest effect on me,
Like you do.
I always keep you in mind,
Even in the arms of another.

Someone please take my pen away,
For I cannot even bear to face in words the lamentation of my heart!
I cannot bear to acknowledge that I will never kiss my love again!

Ye hosts of sadness,
And hatred
Of cruel and selfish nature,
Are not welcome here!

I am a vessel of love,
I am a vessel of love,
I am a vessel of love,
I am a vessel of love ...

I am a mere spectator,
Of my determined heart.

To some my heart is dim,
And completely void of splendour,
But in your eyes,
My heart is an illumination of an innocent and indispensable love.

May I surrender my heart to an eternity of your gaze?

Can we just let the whole world disappear?
And all that is is us right now,
We’ll shut them out so that they can’t even breathe our atmosphere,
How beautiful we are together.

Shh,
Don’t love me too loud,
They will taint our love with their thoughts,
Let’s just love in this quiet place,
Where only the beauty of us exists.

Dance,
dance,
dance,
in your dream,
My love,
live,
live,
live,
for me.

Love,
love,
love,
in your dream,
And,
live,
live,
live,
for me.

I’m not as far,
far,
far,
as you think,
So do not waste,
do not waste,
do not waste,
any time,
I’m not as foreign,
as you think,
For we use,
the same heart,
the same heart,
the same heart.

I laugh at death

Even in the darkness of the night
I am still there
There is no escaping me
For without me
You cannot exist
Without the light
You do not exist
So be happy
To know that you have no choice
In dancing your life
In the light of my love

For how can you even say you love
When you love with desire
For desire is conditional
It passes

And, once gone
You will be left in the corpse
Of the body
You stole from me

Oh God
Tear back the veil of man
So that I may gaze upon
You

Am I not
The most beautiful
You have ever
Met

Be the star
In a sky full of nothingness

Don’t be afraid to cry
For I am the tears that flow
Let me soothe your cheeks

You will be completely encompassed in darkness
To finally see me
For it is on the darkest of all nights
When my light will shine the brightness

And when you have no one to turn to
You will turn to me
And you will beg for my forgiveness
And I will heal you from your own doings

For though night has fallen
The sun still exists
Despite the inabilty to see it
It lays awake and alive

I like
Who I am
When I’m with
Her