Every path I take leads me nowhere
When where I want to go is home
I wish that I could choose the right way
I'm sick and tired of being alone

All my friends and all my family
All those I ever cared about
They lie awake at night and miss me
But I can't reach them by this route

All my ghosts and all my memories
All those who were ever so devout
They all cry and weep tears for me
But I cannot look back now

And when all paths lead me to nowhere
And I cannot get back home
All my friends and all my family
Will have to be alone

And every song I sing is depressing
Every chord a minor sound
Every day i stand here missing them
But my feet won't leave the ground

And I'm not on my way to Heaven
I won't sleep in Elysium
I will not join my fallen kin
God above won't call me home

But if I gathered all the starlight
That I gazed upon on my way
The glow would just be strong enough
To turn the black to gray

If this Heaven
Then why do I feel
Like the devil is laughing
At my perfect little world
I have everything I want
More money than I can spend
I don't know any sadness
I can order away the rain
I've got plenty of friends
Though none are really close
I don't have to cook
And cleaning is a joke
The spotlight's on me
Just as I've always wished
But deep inside I feel emptiness
My house is very grand
My front lawn is perfect
The chandelier makes a statement
And the swimming pool is heated
I spend more money in a day
Than some make in a month
Nobody can tell me what to do
And that's the way I like it
But still I feel miserable
Consumed by loneliness
They say this is Heaven
That I'm living the good life
But I still feel forlorn
And I weep again for poorness
Because the money means nothing
All it does is buy me lies
And without it, I'm afraid my friends wouldn't care
If I lived or I died
The chandelier's lights are always burnt out
The grass is just painted that sickening hue
I'm running out of things to buy
I get sunburnt laying by the pool
I miss the sound of rain on the windows
And I weep for some wise advice
I do nothing all day
And make millions more
Than those who work day and night
I don't think this is Heaven
It simply can't be
Heaven wouldn't feel like this
Maybe it's Hell
All dressed up
Presented to look nice
But when you try to get a closer look
It's breath is still cold as ice.

When the stars disappear
And the sky fades to black
I'll still be here
Never turning back
When the cosmos collapse
And the Earth turns to dust
I'll wonder through the scraps
As the eternal must
My friends will move on
My family will perish
But dawn after dawn
My life will replenish
I'll fight back the pain
Because it's all I can do
The future will keep coming
The memories will too
The graves of loved ones
So near and dear
Will be worn by the Sun
Until they disappear
They will sink into the ground
Their scripts will be erased
But to life I am bound
Isn't immortality great?
I wish I could escape
From this endless cycle
The curse I would reshape
I would end my survival
But I wished for this
So I must see it through
Swim through the abyss
See infinity through
I know it will be hard
Full of anguish and hate
By it is too late
To undo my fate

Nine o'clock, it's time for bed,
Time to close my eyes.
The stars and moon have taken hold
Of the sky outside.

It's ten o'clock and I can't sleep,
Though I try and try,
All I can do is lie in bed,
Asking myself, why?

As eleven rolls around,
The minutes ticking by,
My life is so insignificant.
I heave a sad deep sigh.

Midnight comes and goes,
The night keeps getting darker,
And I just stare, wondering
If there is a greater power.

One rears its ugly head,
My eyes refuse to droop.
Maybe sleep will find me
When the hour hand strikes two.

But now it's three and I am lost,
Adrift in memories,
I wonder if there's anyone
Who truly cares for me?

Four comes and goes,
And by the times it's five,
I am utterly exhausted,
But I cannot close my eyes.

Six o'clock, the Sun is up
Another sleepless night.
Can no one tell I'm struggling?
It's right there in black and white.

In all your musings
has the thought ever crossed your mind
That Everest will
one day
Be nothing but a pile of dirt?
or the city that never sleeps
will close its eyes for good?

Outline me with purple
Let my imagination roam free
Dress me in blue
Add some stability
My skin should be yellow
So I can soak up the Sun
My lips could be orange
So I'm cheerful and fun
I want silver in my hair
So it shines like a star
Green for my nails
So natures's never too far
Make my words black
So they make an impression
Color my thoughts red
For they burn with a passion
I think white for my breath
So innocence flows through me
Brown for my nose
So I have some reliability
I don't want any gray
For I don't need depression
A bit of turquoise would be great
For I value communication
Don't forget pink
It's the most girlish color
But it takes a real man
To don it and walk taller
My bones must be indigo
So they provide me with structure
Draw my teeth magenta
For all the emotions I can muster
Make my aura gold
So I can always shine
Maybe throw in a little beige
Can I depend on you this time?
Ivory would suffice
For my eye color, I think
I always wanted them to look nice
And the calm of ivory is just the thing
I want the colors to belong to me
To live under my very skin
To swim and splash in serenity
And never begin to dim
So with your brush and pastel paints
Won't you please color me in?

Roaming through the twisted trunks
Of the jungle trees
High on the mist laden mountain,
Rustling in the undergrowth,
Searching for Life's bounty
In the dry, rusted dirt,
Chipping away at the mystery
Of your land,
Feral and free

No one can tell me who to be
No one can say who I am
I created who you see today
I built my life with my own hands

No one can say they own me
No one can stake a claim
I refuse to act as society's slave
I will not know such shame

No one can ever hold me back
No one can quench my fire
I will simply add more fuel, you see
I will glow to my heart's desire

No one has burned more bridges than I
No one has pushed away so many
I was stupid to give them all a chance
I have made too many enemies

No one thought I could do it
No one believed it when I did
I wish to Hell they had some faith
I wish they trusted the words I said

No one tried to save me
No one saw me slip away
I lived a life of solitude
I pushed through so much pain

No one ever doubts me now
No one thinks me a weak essence
I proved every one of them wrong
I earned my independence

No one dares dictate my life
No one braves the ice cold waters
I, myself, and me stick together
I don't need any followers

My future is all planned out
But not by me
My parents took it upon themselves , y'see
They want me to succeed
But not at something that interests me
"You'll never work a day in your life
If you truly love your job"
If that's so then I suppose
Work is all my life will ever be
If you won't let what I do
Be decided by me

Staring at the coals
Watching as they change colors
And burn into nothing
Enchants me
I can't tear my eyes away
From the bright flashes
Of orange
Licking and tasting the wood
It craves to devour
Smoke rises
Effortlessly
Into the night sky
Shivering
Moving closer
But not too close
For though its flames mesmerize
They can inflict pain
And ****** the breath from my body
So much suffering can come from
Trusting Fire

I am a blank canvas
Waiting
Praying
For an artist to give me purpose
I need to feel the brush strokes
He makes as he trails the fibers
Over my skin
I love the colors he chooses
Warms and cools
The paint is thick
And oily
But it feels perfect
Against my contours
And with every swish I become
More and more
Beautiful

I used to see beauty
And find comfort in the stars
But of late
They have lost their luster
Why should I dwell on ***** of fire
Thousands of light years away?
No longer can specks of light comfort
My tortured soul
No longer can I believe
There is a God watching over me
I have lost too much
And been cut too deeply
To put faith
In the night sky
For once the stars filled
My heart with wonder
But now they fill my heart with cold
Because when I look up at them
All I can see is your smile
All I can taste are your lips
All I can feel are you gentle hands
All I remember is a clear autumn night
Stargazing with you
And these memories destroy me

Kindness is understanding
That how we're born isn't a choice
It's smiling at strangers
And appreciating their voice
It's always being gentle
And just trying to help
It's not being judgmental
It's passion and it's poise
Without the kind people
This world would be a mess
So next time someone asks you
To lend a hand just say "yes"
Remember you're making a difference
Even if it's very small
The tiniest of smiles
Can save someone from a fall
Beauty is in the eye
Of the beholder, they say
And the beholder can choose
To see everyone beautiful today

Standing alone
Watching time tick by
Hearing the world spin
Seeing silence
I am at peace
With nature
And she
Is at peace
With me
Not a whisper of wind
Through the oaks
No stir from the man
Hiding in the Moon
I have never been
So close
To Heaven
And so far
From life
The stars and constellations
Are nearer now
Than ever before
I can touch them
Feel the hot
In the blackness
We perceive as cold
I know
Why I am here
I was born
To be silent
To touch the cosmos
To feel the icy heat
Of a shooting star
Zipping next to my ear
I am the Watcher
And the Listener
I cannot change the Universe
All I can do
Is observe
The infinitely finite landscape
Around me

A star goes out
unnoticed by all
down here
But up there
so far awa
a section
of The Universe is thrown
into chaos
A speck that used to shine out
in the sky
is extinguished
No one notices
No one cares
But nothing
will ever be the same
A star has died-
become a black hole
What is inconsequential
here
is the undoing of
another World
the obliteration
of another speck

The sky is changing.
The wind has shifted.
The pattern of the tides is broken.
Clouds settle over distant mountains.
A storm is brewing.
Divine forces are at war,
Tearing the balance
Between Light and Dark,
Good and Evil,
Right and Wrong,
Life and Death.
Flee before the wrath
Or perish,
For now it rains a rain that will never cease.
The wolves have come down from the hills,
Hungry and full of hate.
Hunting through the Forest;
Hunting through the Village.
They prowl, ever watchful,
Waiting.
Waiting for the Heavens to drip red.
The End has come at last.
The Universe itself is dissolving into nothing.
Fire illuminates the skies.
Tremors travel through the ground.
Lightning reaches its long, spindly fingers
Down, down, down
From the clouds of ash that spew from the Fire Mountain.
Hope is lost.
Dreams fall to their knees,
Dying.
Laughter is extinguished,
Wails of agony taking its place in our hearts.
Death is all around.
The forests are ablaze,
The mountains are crumbling,
The Seven Seas evaporate into space.
The Devil sits on his Dark Throne,
Joy shining in his eyes as he watches The Pearly Gates fall.
Screams fill the air.
The Sun is no more.
The Moon is no more.
The constellations have disappeared.
The River of Time flows crimson
As all light is obliterated.
The world has met its demise,
And what can we do but burn?

If a tree falls
When no one's around
How do we know
If it still makes a sound?
If a star disappears
And no one sees it go
Then how, I ask you
Did we know it ever glowed?
If a girl hides her pain
And pretends that she's fine
How will anyone know
That she's dying inside?