another chapter begins
a new one, being friends
three in a row
three for a blow
nice to meet you
you're so new
what's your wish
to feel bliss?
god I hope this is the start of love
because it's like you came from above
to help and save
not being naive
you're so cool, you're so sweet
I'm so glad that we did meet

Feelin' the morning breeze
Fall's coming says the wind
Smoke's been paying the lease
as the coffee bean aroma spins

With a cigarette in hand
Friday ideal fills the land
We search for our true friend
as the bustle of the day begins

I feel like I am drowning
going deeper and deeper
no oxygen to save me
just the smoke at the end

I feel like drowning
there's no light for me now
only the shallows
where the predators prowl

I am drowning
it's my last attempt to swim
but my arms are tired
and someone stole my fin

That day, they brought me to a place for crack addicts and nut jobs and I wished I didn't belong there. However, this is where life brought me — to a silver lining of a place. I feel like screaming, but no sound comes out. I was a mystery and still am. The living hell of a memory that plays on a broken cassette.

Writing to time lost and to time regaining.

I know you don't know me
but I think we'd be a good we
we're only strangers
but let's go make a rager
let's laugh together
sleep together
be together
for one night
tonight with height
let's run
and have fun

they rush and flow
and come from below
they come from above
a glistening of love
they make you believe in light
sparks when it's bright
they help and they hurt
and make you decide your worth
its like fire and ice
naughty and nice
a poison of hate
when its too late
an act of kindness
when you're blinded
never not feel the feels
when you don't is when it becomes unreal

I want to be moved
Day to day
To revel
To  weep
Even in strangers conceit

But why can’t the thing that moves me just be my own two feet?

Was a hard time in a teenage girls life unrequited love, attempted suicide and her mind out of line

It was a cold winter morning and she was shaking again
the sun lit up the baseball field like an angel playing again

Smoke surrounded me like a cloud of exhaust
I was exhausted of feeling this way
I wanted out of my own mind, out of this thing called life

rules of our heart
include not being pursued
more so in art
creative interlude
we brave
we strong
we free
living under the cover
of  a mask
not being a lover
but a friend –
is all some can ask

You sit by the screen
Waiting for life's demean
I come to stay
To show you a way
As the hours go by
I hope to keep you by my side
You don't look to the past
Just hold fast
These beautiful days
So mother you can still say
All the things we need to hear

Let's do tests
On Frankensteins body
& be fearless
Let's cut up body's
Like Jennifer did
Let's make it scary
For all the kids
Halloween's around the corner
Like that horror show man
It's time to warn her
About the monsters under her bed

There are discourses in life
That cause strife
Small bumps
That cause rumpus
Small healings
That cause feeling
Bows of depreciation
That cause apprehension

Discourses of the heart
Discourses of the mind
Discourses of the soul

Things that need to be told

I fell and was caught
now I stumble and I'm not
how do I move without you
I saw clear, now everything's new
which way is right
who will not spite
why do I write

it's only an escape
from superman's cape
ducking and diving
revival of the surviving
everything's new everything's clear
everything's blue everything's here
how do I be bare

one date ago
one day ago

my heart was confused
separated by two

love for both
doesn't satisfy my thirst
need for it
doesn't satisfy my hurt

love for both
doesn't help my worth
need for it
doesn't help my mirth

one day ago
one date ago

I feel vague
This space between
cracks and breaks
The future rules my present
state, living for the day
Overshadows – the great wait
My heart in being, truly living
It all feels a billion light years away

beneath the sheets
where we don't speak
we feel, the burn of desire
and everything dire
trying to get close enough
to taste that bit of love
wrapped up in each other
being sweet lovers

love is a mysterious act
it's the good and the bad
and all it attracts
it can be power or pressure
or our worst confessors
we dream of a place
a place that is real
a place with some space
a place you can feel
love is a delirious act

So serene, in lying wake.

So close, to the end of days.

Another year, meant to weather.

Thank you my bouquet friend, my reforming lover.

Spent with family and friends
A time to rest and mend
The old and the new
A time for me and you

We laugh at the memories left behind
And grow towards a brighter goal
To rebuild what someone stole
A day of remembrance and soul

When we all see
the stars will be
speaking of a place
a universe of space
one where anything can happen

When our lives derange
it all feels strange
no one knows where to go
or who to be when they're low
but that is when anything can happen

You must climb down
to really see the beauty
of the hidden wonder

in that town
just a kiss
from the canyon

holds the most majestic
Aqua-filled fall
of streaming water

you shrink when you see it
incapable, small
to the grandiosity

a place where water flows
a place so normal
and yet begs to not be seen

In the bottom of the canyon
lies a dream of an aquamarine

the lost love of the sea.

Go on one by one
The search for purpose
Can be hard, oh lord
It feels like a curse
Sometimes.

But then, we feel lighter
The worry, stress
Goes away and it's brighter
All of it gets less
Sometimes.

You found me
waking up from a dream
I found you
in this reality

See you didn't just come into my life
At a place where I wasn't ready
You didn't catch me off balance
We found each other and we keep it steady
You say to me
Life's too short to question those beside you
And I thank you
For teaching me how to live too

You found me
searching for life
I found you
looking into my eyes

a young girl longs for the flames of her soul
burning and yearning to touch
        a                                   whole.
light                ­                 be
    that                      to
             illuminates

In this room
There is no you
Just me
And my thoughts
Thoughts of spite
Thoughts of night
Thoughts that linger
Thoughts to mingle
Thoughts of me and you

not the lion
a heart
a companion
a friend

my lovely little girl

she tends to be a free spirit
but i don't mind, chasing her places
she helps every space
feel like new lace

a lovely little disaster

a happy little thing
from the beginning
seen a lot
but always found her spot

her lovely little home

crazy to think
we might have never met
you turned my world upside down
my best bet

my lovely little friend

Nala

to change
to rearrange
a life gone askew

to make
to create
a life renewed

drop some
gain some
a hard choice to choose

you and me together
can break the chains for good

sometimes it shines
sometimes it wanders
sometimes it's mine
sometimes it's wonder
inner, outer
higher power
lanterns, candles, campfire
all different
yet all the same
the bright light and a flame
something more
something grand
something bigger than all the land
childhood memories
to adult humor
light is dark's only rebuter
some will say
not to lose
being able to wear any size shoe
because then
you will find
you will never lose your shine

we find
a mind
lost in the dark
searching for a part
not looking for a friend
trying to mend and defend
a love so real
it's not enough to kneel
a heart departed
from a life of the hardest

The stream of ever-grass grows,
unknown to the smallest creatures
the vixens and the rabbits visit some,
whenever the world stops turning 'round
the youthful days grow long and age,
my mirth and carefree wrinkles stay the same

We stay
And pray
Lifting our souls
Filling out holes

The ties
The lies
They come and go
As our lives grow

We're looking for those
To stay close
To not leave us behind
But to keep and be kind

My family is different
Confusing and diverse
Not at all absent
Something of the universe

You showed me there was more than the labyrinth
more than the cold still waters,
           the ripples

In a love so intense,
   I saw your past self
        your present
and who you could be



but why could I see this in you and not see it in me?

We sat in a circle of thrones
our madness becoming known
We talked of a life we wanted
but were only left with a being haunted