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 Dec 2014 Jolene D'Souza
Jason
We go through life
Trained to question,
To seek knowledge,
To understand.

But this isn't
An easy task
We have here on hand.

The truth hurts,
And facts aren't always pretty.
A simple "yes" or "no" response
Can bring you down
Quite quickly.

"Is it cancer?"
"Is he cheating?"
"Am I really wasting my life away, sulking in cheap pity?"

Questions like these
Cut beyond flesh and bone.

Their answers go deeper;
They penetrate the soul.

So here's a tip
As you journey and grow:
Don't seek answers
you don't want to know.
The original works and writings of Jason Deegan.
All Rights Reserved. ©2015
Looking deep into your eyes

Makes me feel something inside

Showed you feelings

I meant to hide

My heart thumps deep

Into overdrive

Talk it out

And let me in

This is a war

I know we’ll win

And though our skin

Is oh so thin

We’ll work things out

And we’ll begin

The exorcism

Of your soul

I’ll **** the demons

I’ll pay the toll
My mind is wasted

On disgrace and hate

My life moves

At a 100 mile rate

I want to find an exit

But the highway just goes on

My heart beats fast

And everything seems wrong

I’m a skinny little nothing

A failure at the least

I’m dead at the most

I couldn’t defeat the beast
The scars on my heart

They seem so real

But maybe it’s less

Than what I feel

It’s been manifested

Into something more

It’s shot me down

Right in the core

Of my darkened heart

I feel so numb

I’m cold inside

I sit in bed

I sit and cry

I scream your name

Out to the sky

Save me now

Before I die
The pain

Inside my brain

Is slowly driving

Me insane

I still can’t see

What leads

The way

I might be leaving you

Today

Although I might be gone

Please know I won’t be long

We’ll meet again one day
You pushed me down

You made me cry

You made me wonder

“Why, why, why.”

Am I a fighter

That’s still in need?

Or am I the monster

You’ve made me out to be?
Screaming in pain

Screaming in blame

Screaming in fear

Screaming your name

Screaming through water

As Poseidon grabs my neck

Silently choking

As I breathe my last breath
I hate myself

I need to die

For all that I can do

Is cry

Create the storm

That rips apart

Bit by bit

My broken heart

My broken soul

My broken start

My broken mind

My broken heart
I know what you'd all like to say
      To make me feel better
"Beauty is on the inside"
            Or
       "You are beautiful"
But my soul is so tattered
       And my heart
Has been repeatedly
             shattered
All the scattered
      bits and pieces
   You might find in there
          Between the scars and creases
     Would make you all run and hide
               If beauty shines from the inside,       Then I'm the **ugliest beast alive
The second in my series of 'lies'. Click #mylittlelies and #mytruths to read the rest.
Thanks.
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