porcelain wrist my blade doth kiss
drawing blood unto its lips

drop by drop until i'm drained
nothing left within my veins

the beating stops, my heart doth still
there's nary a drop of blood to spill...

You wield your words like knives to make me bleed,
and while I welcome my self-inflicted agony,
the cuts from your barbed tongue are unwanted.

My demons howling at the door,
are desperate to get inside.

I debate for but a moment,
and then fling it open wide.

Better to brace myself for impact,
than to run and try to hide...

You don't deserve to miss me,
and I didn't deserve to cry.
I did my best to keep you,
but you filled my head with lies.

My heart still beats your name,
though I can't trust what you say.
I gave you everything I had
and you threw it all away...

You tasted of heartache and confusion,
broken promises and disappointment.
I was desperate to heal your wounds,
sooth your aches and show you joy.

Now I taste the exact same...

boy with the name of an angel,
you make my heart beat faster,
my pulse race and my palms sweat.

i fear our love should not exist,
for you are a holy being
and i am a mere mortal.

shall we sink into the depths of sin
together?

I believed that you loved me,
though I didn't know for sure.

I believed that I could be enough,
and that you would feel the same.

I believed that we could work,
but I was the only one trying.

You didn't want me
when asked who you would choose.

Why would you deserve me
when you change you mind?

They told me
"love is beautiful"
and I believed it...

But why?

Why has something so wonderful,
something so warm,
made me ugly?

You don't have to understand,
for I know I can't explain...
Yet all the sweet things you say
now fill my heart with pain...

I wish I could regret it,
but loving you was sweet.
The only part that I would change,
is when you fell for me...

Good luck finding someone
that can love you like I did.

Like I do.
It's not past tense.

Not yet.

You are the reason I wake
in the middle of the night,
with terror clawing my chest
and fingers fumbling for light.

Snakes masquerading as friends...
Shed the facade you have crafted;
I can see your forked tongue
tasting the air.

Sometimes she misses him,
and others, she doesn’t.
Usually she simply tries
to hate him…

Lies cloaked in promise,
drip from lips I love to kiss.
The mouth I've come to trust,
speaks words dipped in sugar.

Your pinky links with mine,
you assure me that all is well.
No matter what happens,
you promise to stay.

It's a lie...
beautiful deception disguised as love.

I hand you my heart,
advise to handle with care.
You assure me that you will,
make me believe it's safe.

And it is...
until you lose interest...

I want to paint red Xs on my skin,
and play a sinful game of tic-tac-toe.

I hate who I've become,
but I forget who I used to be...

You turned me into something
forged of bitter jealousy.

This ugly creature with my face
couldn't possibly be me...

You used to tell me I was beautiful
and that you would never leave,
promised there was no one else
you loved as much as me.

I used to think you wanted me,
believed every word you breathed,
until you proved that it was false,
and you would rather she.

Ultimately I was left alone,
a simple blip in time.
You packed your bags that very day
and told me I'd be fine.

I assure you that I am not,
and that I will never be...
But you wouldn't know the truth,
because you aren't here to see.