You want to know about pain
Try going to sleep
Having nightmares about
Your trauma

You want to know about pain
Try waking up to
The flashbacks
Of the physical
Torture
You endured

Want to know about about pain
Try having people trigger you


Try living with it all your f*cking life

No I am not a psychopath
No I don't have bells palsy
No I am not a fire bug
No I am not a ******
No I am not a serious killer
No  I am not a criminal

It's called ptsd.
It's called human.

After you were  gone
I kept an it on
The streets
Wondering where you are
My heart breaks
At thought that
You're not with me.

I was a toddler
There was an over night
Family BBQ
A big party
And I saw the stars
And the Big Dipper
And imagined
Star trek
What
Would
It
Be like
On the
star ship enterprise.

On Saturn's moon
Titan
There is a purple world
Purple mountains
Prurple lakes
And purple atmosphere
For God is the
Best vaporwave
Aesthetician.

As xena sees
The
Flames
On the
Bare
Dead trees
She is faced
With
The fact
That she is in
Underworld
That to stay
For her past misdeeds.

Just
Help
Someone
For
The
sake
of
helping
Another human being.

I
Eat
My
Muffin
For
Breakfast
Than
I
think
to
my self
I
Am
Going
For a
Little
Walk
To
Wake
Me
Up
And
Get
My
Creative
Juices
Going.

The bartender asked
Dark matter
What do you Want to
Drink
He said that he wanted
A tiny star
Innocent
On the rocks
Thus the star is gone.

I have to go
To my quavk
And
This is how unstable
My moodyness and
Brain is right now
For I hate her.

Kissing in the
Park
In a dusky
Fog I throw my hand as I
Await his love
Who
Said forging
R a I n y days aren't
Romantic

I walk to fight
The demons
Of the past
That I fight inside me
So I go out for a walk
I the hopes that this battle
Royale
Can ease off
But sometimes
It does ease
And some times the painfull drama previails
So I take another walk.

On the water
I find peace
In the air
I find zen
Driving and walking ruins
My moom

As i set on this boat
I meditate
Under the sun

What was I thinking about.

You
Said
I
Was
The
Most
Exotic
Flower

A quite listner
A quiet smile
Not sure if
I
Will
Have
A
Good
Or
Bad
Day.

After the first day of school
I remember getting into
Sh*t
So to avoid my parents yelling at me
I see on the back porch
Seeing the sun set
To quiet the mind

The thing
I like about summer
Is
The thunderstorms
The louder
Brighter
And disturbing they
Are
The better
For they help me be entertained
Or fall asleep.

Dear doctors
How can you
Call yourselves human
Yet cause suffering to Hindus,
Muslims,
Jews and Buddhists
You are not human
You are **** ****.

It
Is
Hard
To
Let
Go
Of
Your
First
Love
When you're were made
For each other.

Three people
Star gazing
On a beach
I wonder if
The are having a
Star
Party
If so
Count me invited

Evil doers
And unsavory
People
If I had the power
I would
Strick you down with a sign peace of lightning
During a storm
For I control
The weather.

As the trees
Stand up
Like wicks in a candle
Te green fire seems to
Set them ablaze
But unbenunce to anyone
It's the sky that's burning
Burning green.

As the summer
Comes to a close
A young
Geisha picks a flower
A
Dark pink poeny
Appreciating it
Before it falls apart.

This clown is
Not a crying clown
But one that smiles
In the sun

Purple ocean
Purple waves
Pink sky and
Purple clouds
This cruise as gone vaporwave
And soon everything is in pixels......
Some vacation!!!!

A girl who love weat fields
Has died
From unknown
Causes
But she has not
Left a hole
In those she loved for every
Autumn
She popps up in the sky close
To the great Dipper
As comfort to everyone
She has touched.

One
Winters night
I pear through
My
Cabin window and
See
The word why
Ablase
When everything
Is snow and ice

As the rain ends and
My kitchen window
Is fogged up
I trace the words
I
Love
You
Hoping that they will come to you.

A pretty little
Flower
Alas the last
Wildflower of
The summer
How sad.

Enough talk more action
As that I want you
To
Kiss me at sun
Down
On a fine September evening
On the back porch
Between sun set and dusk
I want more of you
And less pillow talk
My love.

I still remember our kiss
As we hold eachother
We fell in love
With that kiss
Then parted ways after that
How I miss you
And your kisses.

Dearest Hill
Your are the only good thing in my life.  For I feel like a freak of nature and I you are the same boat. Your the only loving and comforting person I have and sifted heart that rivals my bed. I wish to cuddle in the love and softness.

As I walk out of the
Potteryplayhouse
There I see
Some dying roses
The seem to glow in the dark
As if changing colors.

Three teenagers
Standing
Like young solars
Up to no go
But under that orange sky
They have a cold one
What
Happens if they get caught
On this fine night.

Stain glasses windows
In a beautiful church
Has all the colors
Red
Orange
Yellow
Green
Blue
Purple
Violet
Pink
This is why I
Only went to church
To see the Colours.

I hate traffic lights so
Much
That I
Thought myself
To mediate
And be calm
So I can focus all
My negative
Engery and karma
On making them
Explode
With my mind

Have
You
Ever
Been
Hated
For
Something
Traumatic
Happening
To
You­
And
Been
The
****
Of
Ignorance
And
Stereotyping
Because
Of
It.

As it rains
the ghosts of the
Traffic light
Spill out
To haunt the intersection
On this Halloween
Night
Happy sahoween

.

Though i am
My living room
I dream of looking
At the stars
And visiting the cosmos
Like my mind
I wonder how it works
So complex.

Freaking rush hour
I am either
Trying to get home
Or get to a flight
This time it's a flight
And there are many cars
Stop and go
Will I make it to my flight
On time
Or will I miss it because of
Rush hour.

This is no
Poker face
This is no
Cocky smirk
I am actually smiling

I am angry
I am *******
I am enraged
I feel like my was going to explode
This morning
Over stupid small things
Don't sweet the small stuff.

The star
Flower
Is
Showing of
A nebula of
Starts
Instead of
Pollin
What will the bees do.

As I drive
Down this forest
winding road
I feel a chill going up
And down
My winding curved
Spine
As this was
Called the trail of tears
From long ago
Haunted.

Taking a flashlight
To the starry
Milky-way
I wonder if
He is doing the same looking for me
As i am him.

You
Keep
My
Vibrant
Colours
From
Fading
Away
On
Me

Rocks and
Rolls
At the bottom of the river
As i see
Through the crystal
Clear water
I am amused
By this
Thing called nature.

Is this bat man
Is this joker
Who the hell knows
To me its just a happy
Go lucky person
Ready to tackle something
Of importance.

Do you know that If
You fear death
Rather than
Accept it and flip it
The bird
Your life seems shorter
Life is to lived for a long time
Not in fear of death.

I do imagine
Me and
My love
Being together
At least once
If not forever
For I love him
And he
Loves me.