Jenna

Jenna Mar 2019

I could have stopped him,
but I knew he would die
So I left,
Leaving behind the ashes
of flaking memories and
emotions of my friend
Never truly understanding,
why the will to die was so strong

#sad #death #suicide #hurt #guilt #memories #die #friend #friendship #heartbroken

Jenna Mar 2019

Scattered Dreams

My dreams scatter
like the seeds of a dandelion
Drifting here and there
wanting to settle down
somewhere I belong
A family wouldn't be so bad after-all

#flower #dandelion #dream #dreams #hope #lost #home #house #belong #safe

Jenna Mar 2019

Winter's Crack

River by the bend
Winter seems to have no end

The sweeping sunset begins to transcend
ice became my best friend

It did not mean to offend
but, it did try to amend

Though the more it tried to defend
it spider-webbed and began to distend

Tired of all the snow here.

#weather #cold #ice #winter #snow #season #friend #river #water #sunset

Jenna Mar 2019

Imaginary Friend

Sometimes I pretend
to be what I am not

that I have an imaginary friend
who's trust doesn't need to be bought

this pointless bond has a bitter end
And everything I did will be for naught

#friend #friendship #people #trust #love #bitter #reality #fake #dream

Jenna Mar 2019

Mirror on the Wall

Reflection of one's self
relies on the person
staring back at themselves
for the mirror only shows,
what it sees in you
not what you want to look like

Why do you think it hangs face first?

#fake #new #normal #person #mirror #reflect #reality

Jenna Mar 2019

Little Lost

A little lost person
felt so small in a world
that oh, so big
but nothing could compare
to their thoughts and dreams

They liked what it thought;
their dreams were unbelievable
yet when someone asks them
What do you like?
They draw a blankness reply

For what they liked,
felt impossible to do
the future seems to clog
the wheels stop spinning
they question themselves endlessly

I really am struggling with a major for college right now. Right now I'm open-major. I thought about going for Creative Writing, but I ask myself if I will really get anywhere with that degree.

#help #helpless #lost #future #goals #promise #impossible #sad #torn #heartbroken

Jenna Mar 2019

A Dream; Well Fought

Nothing can stop me now
not even this brick wall
that was filled with selfish emotions
of everyone that told me
that I couldn't do it
no one can break something this tall
however solidified it is
not even heaven and earth
can stop me now
as I trudge through
with heavy stomps toward
my goal that will keep me alive
in this uninspiring world
filled with vexatious people

I will do what I want
to achieve the highest standing
of emotional wellness
and pursuit of a thing called
Happiness

Don't let others stop you from achieving your happiness and tell them to stop comparing it with theirs

#happy #pursuit #emotions #feelings #strong #pride #selfish #glad #proud #heaven