What would happen
if I hadn't met you?
What would I do without you?
Having friends but feeling alone
passing you by without a second glance
no smiles shared
no small embrace
Nothing to miss
but my missing piece

Nowhere to look
no map in sight
wandering towards something to bring back my light
Missing a piece but not seeing it
Missing a heart but not feeling it
Missing a breath but not breathing it
endlessly searching
never knowing
that it's you
I'm missing

Home is not
a prison
yet that is where
i lie

I wish time would stop
so i could stay here in this
moment, forever

It’s one of
those nights
again
another night
another sob
another rip in my skin
another dream
another hand around
my neck another squeeze another
scar on my hip
another bandaid
another tissue
with blood and snot and
tears

another night.
another day.

I didn't think that
I would fall in love with you
but I'm glad I did

A catalogue of
past loves, a heart on paper.
Alas, time moves on

Hm!
it appears i am
incredibly average
at everything i do

I wish I could tell you
everything that's going on
in my mind but
I'm not even sure
I know

and suddenly
every love song
was about
you

clouds drift across the
evening sky, covering
colors that paint my world

I cant help
but wonder
if I could have
done something
to help you
to stop you
to free you

funny how one chord
can say so much
while i
can’t say anything

please split my heart in
two and take half so that you
can have a whole one

Sometimes
I feel like
the world
is
closing in
on me,
trapping
me
in a
tiny capsule
until I
suffocate

why
do you care
so much

what did i do
to deserve
you

why
are you
here

why do you
make me feel
the way
i do

what is it
about you

what is it
about me

why do you
stick around

why don't you
hate me

why can't you
leave me be

why can't you
just abandon me

why do you stay

am i really that worth it

do you really think that of me

why?

why do you love me?

shut your mouth!!
nobody wants to hear you speak

I wish i were strong enough
to weather the bad
so i could appreciate the good
but every drop of rain is like acid
and I'm dissolving beneath your feet

My heart aches for you
my dear, my light, my star; I
wish I could love you

we are not bound to
one reality; we make
it in every thought

You don’t
have to
speak
to tell me
you love me
i already
know

It will all be okay
that's what I tell you, at least
but you don't believe me
I don't blame you
I don't believe me either

I want to be your
mirror so that you can see
yourself like I do

I wish that I
had met you later
so we
could love
without limits
without walls
without restraints
for I know
that if we could
we'd be so much
happier

together

the two of us
against the world

the blade that
cuts me
wounds
us both

Wrap my throat with barbed wire
clip my tongue and yank it out
sew my lips and make me
silent

Tell me when to wake
for if I could choose then I
would sleep forever

a nightingale sings
of wondrous things
like shiny bright strings
and wind on your wings
moonlight on water
mother and daughter
sweet smelling flowers
and sunny rain showers
of wondrous things
this nightingale sings
Such joy that it brings!
A gift to the Earth
That happiness birthed

it's funny how
one sour bite
can turn the whole apple
rotton

Cool
Calm
Blue
I always liked blue.
It’s strangely comforting
To see a color
That feels like you do
Bright
Happy
Yellow
I never liked yellow.
It hurts
To see a color
That feels like you wish you do

Then
I met you
You made me something I never thought I could be
Bright
Happy
You’ve always liked yellow.
Now
I see sunflowers
I think of you

cry!
tears are the vessel
in which pain escapes

I am thinking thoughts.
Thoughts that I think of every day
Thoughts that lead to other thoughts
I wish, I hope, I plead for them to stop
But they never do

I’m always thinking thoughts
Like a ball rolling down a hill
Around and around and around again
My thoughts are spiraling spiraling spiraling
Faster and faster they go more and more and more thoughts
They don’t end, they never end
Each thought growing more desperate like a child yelling above the din

LISTEN TO ME!

I can’t listen.
I can’t hear.
I am not the one in control.

you try so hard to be friendly
you try so hard to be nice
you try so hard and they spit in your
face
and tell you you're
nothing

I wish I could say
you made me happier but
my heart cries for you

I'm not sad
just tired
I'm not hurting
just tired
"just tired" I say

I am tired
tired of apathy
tired of feeling alone
tired of failing after trying my best
tired of the same monotonous routine that bears no fruit
tired of being abandoned
tired of being ignored
tired of being told I'm faking it
tired of hiding myself

I wish I could fall asleep and forget everything
but everything is still there when I wake up

I’m homesick for a
home I’ve never known. I wish
I could leave this place.

I am weak
soft and crumbly
like feta cheese

I wish I were strong
sharp and rough
like razor blades
but I don't think
blades are too tasty.

i wish we were in
love because together we
could have conquered worlds

I've loved before
My heart enraptured by those who ignore me
Wish they would adore me
They don't look my way
I pine for their love and affection for a time
But when the sun begins to shine
My love fades away

Sometimes someone's love seems to stay
So I'll give them my heart
They'll take it
They'll break it
I'll shatter because I had too much faith it
hurts

This time though, my love feels different
Through my blind eyes I can't feel the thrill of it
My heart isn't seized by passion anymore
But I love you more than any before
In your arms it feels so right
Though your stare doesn't make my throat feel tight
I dream of you still
Day in and day out
And I just know that without a doubt
What I feel is love

Because when I'm with you
My heart glows like a fire on a cold winter's night
Illuminating my mind, driving out the fright
I feel nothing but joy with you
'stead of worry and jealousy
Which I never even wished to see
I find a place of security
with you

im yours
always yours
forever yours
yours and only yours
your little toy
to use as you wish
use me and throw me away
im yours