Last to Laugh

They are the ones who laugh
The puppet masters pulling the strings

Bow down
Accept your fate

The world's coming down
What is this sorted twist of hell?

Don't pray
Just panic

Dive right into the unknown
Just bones stuck in a meat suit

Deceive the masses
To cover their *****

They laugh at our fear
Stand up!

Fall in line!
Pull the strings tighter

Who will be the one
To laugh last?

Feel it
Can you feel it around you
Let it in
You are needed
You are loved
You are your own God
Your faith is stronger
Your will is stronger
The stars shine in your eyes
The galaxy is in your heart
Can you feel it
Let it in
You are loved
Eternity is forever in your being
Can you feel it?
You are apart of something bigger
Let love in

I sit in silence
I'm not sure what's loudest
The silence

Or the voices
That are screaming
It's a terrible sense of dread

I lay in this bed heavy eyed
And like dust I want to rise
Erase the memories

Ashes blacken this heart
Erase the memories
I am tired of falling apart

I walked away from the sun
And walked into the gallows
Head held low
This world revolving around me goes by so slow..

Now I sit in silence of this night
Waiting for the end of this dream
Sorrow lives through this heart
I pray one day that it will depart
And like dust I want to rise

Running under the three moons
Her world is feral, it's her hunting ground
The moon is full

She sings softly with the children of the night
What music they indeed make
The river moves swiftly

Down in the darkness
She rose to the light
Queen of the woods

She shone brightly
Her porcelain skin radiates like a 1000 diamonds

They bow down to her grace
Slept for seven days & seven nights
Her kingdom growing rapidly

Two twins crying loudly
The world was never ready
All her ways paved
To where they will Rome.

Miasma

Once upon a midnight screaming
I prayed to the killer in me
And it brought out the killer in you
Drinking from the skulls of my enemies
Don’t you know dead is the new alive?
Found myself in the shadows of the light
Found myself bound by his might
Creeping through the mortuary
Get your gun cause it's getting scary

Lost, we were lost together
By strains of red
We were bonded forever
Lost
You lost your way
You, ran for the nearest cover
Into the devil's claw, you went
I fought with every trick in the book
To get you back, but I wasn't strong enough
I blame myself
You blame it on me
So set it all free
Nothing is holding you back now
Lost, we were lost together
By the strains of red
We are no longer bonded together
Brother, I love you
Brother, I miss you
Brother, come home
Blame it on me
Please set your guilt-free
I'll take your weight and make it mine
We were lost, lost together.

Solitary sinner in a God-fearing world
Heretic to some
Blasphemer to others

Mirror mirror
Is this my disguise
The disguise to hide
To hide- the anger
To hide- the guilt
To hide- the shame
Half God, half devil

This is the role we were meant to play
My roots are cut off at the base
My fight isn't against the world
My fight is with the demons within
My blade is stronger
My wounds lie deeper
Mirror mirror

Can I face this disguise
I show the world?
Tired of fighting back
Tired of lieing to others

My heart
My heart
Can't call out to
Something that isn't there
It won't call out
Into the unknown
You left me there
You left me there to die
How can I forgive?
Oh God! Save me!
Oh God! Save us!
This isn't my time
This isn't the place
Hell hath no fury
Like a broken heart!!
My heart can't call out
My heart won't call out

North Star  

My passion has always dwelled with the darkness
but things always are different for me,
but somethings have always stayed with me,
much like the darkness of my heart.

Its always been there haunting me like an
unwanted dream and desire. Under the moon and stars
I watch every night, looking to see if my heart
can over come this darkness.

You've always been there helping me
supporting me trying to make me better.
When I pushed you away all those times.
You've always been my north star when the path darkens.

I hope you never leave my side because
it'll **** me slowly. The angels have never
been so kind as to grant me a chance of
being so in love with you.

One sky
One destiny
All connected
We all feel the pain
One sky
One destiny
Feel it in the air
Let the waves crash
One sky
One destiny
The flames will burn
One destiny
Death
Rotting
Dying
One sky
6 feet long
2 feet wide
Open sky
She's not loving you anymore
One destiny

Remember there's good
Remember there's bad
Remember love is undying
Remember hate can last forever
Remember scars are rememberance
Remember I will always love you
Remember I will always hate you
Remember there's a light that never goes out
Remember the dark isn't easy to escape
Remember you are not alone
Remember I always feel alone
Remember faith gets you through tough times
Remember I wish I could believe in something real
Remember I will never desert you
Remember you are the fire
Remember you are strong
Remember you can break through the struggle
Remember you are more than you give yourself credit for
Remember you are loved...

In the night
They come
A token - of remembrance
Onto eternity

Your pain so high
Will your sins fall into me?
Are we alone now?
When the smoke clears
What is left?

Remorse?
Hatred?
Regret?

Onto eternity
Your pain so high
Was it worth it?

Done speaking in words
That no one understands
I'm not whispering
I am screaming

Onto eternity
Your pain so high
Will you be there to catch me?
or
Just let me fall?
Am I alone now?

Part II: Atmosphere

Every cut
Every burn
Another remembrance of self harm.

I found faith
Not in words
Not in religion
I found faith in my heart

God was never on my side
But I forgave a long time ago
Screaming into the atmosphere

I let my fears go
I let my hatred die
Heaven was never in my sights
If I'm going to Hell
I'll go out with a bang

The memories are what have kept me going
I'm a soldier
I'm a fighter

I'm claiming my throne
I won't give up
I'll never give in.

Our beds are full of phantoms
Of memories to keep us up at night
I can't deny that you aren't

Next to me when I'm alone.
I can't deny that you never meant something to me.

You are no longer in my life
You are no longer stealing my light
I've held grudges since I could hold a pen.

I should hate you but it left its scar.
You are nothing but a phantom
You are nothing but a memory

I wanted to end it all
To make you pay
I wanted to end it all
To make you suffer the way I suffered

One day I'll have the nerve
To tell you how I felt

Our beds are full of phantoms
You were the one I need to exorcise
Our beds are full of these memories
That's all you'll ever be.

Through time
Through space

We wander alone
Everything in ruins

They are not forgotten
Another page written down
Another book has ended

I lay these hands down
And go to the river to pray

"God is dead"

The amen is said
Faith is useless

These prayers are meaningless
Another tragic play of man for the masses

Another flaw in life's grand design
These prayers are unheard

Goodnight,cruel world
It's time to sleep with peace.

Preaching To The Choir

Hark! Let the Seraphim sing
You preach of love
But your contempt of hate is stronger

Where was your god
Where was he when tragedy struck
Get off your cross
With your martyred state of mind

You go through your motions
Preaching of the heavenly gate
When in your heart its only brimstone and hate

**** your idolatry
**** your hypocrisy

Use your mind before you open your mouth
Hark! Let the Seraphim sing

I'm preaching to your choir
I'll show more than just your hate

I'll keep my fists up
I'll stand up strong
My convictions are stronger than your words

Preaching to the choir
In Jesus name, amen.

She remains beautiful as I grow old
Her raven hair flown in and out of
The atmosphere if I wear to die
She would remain immortal.
She is time and space she is
Beauty in its finest form
And I love her in this
Prelude to tragedy.
The words breaking like
The silence, I've waited for
So long for HER to return
The sorrow feels so wrong
When her grimacing smile
Makes me feel so heart felt.
This tragedy is centuries old....
And her roses are all dead.....
The tales are all told...
And she will remain Immortal....

Rage
Rage

Go into that darkened light

Rage
Rage

Kiss my lips and tell me how to die
Expect us to change
Trapped like a rat in its cage

Rage
Rage

Fight against the dying of the light
Found myself in the shadows
Of Prometheus’s might
***** the candle
Drink from the poisonous well
Listen to the chiming of Deaths bell.

Rage
Rage

Sing the funeral song
Fight against the darkened light
Give us one last fight

Rage
Rage

Against the darkened light

𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕪 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕒𝕡𝕤𝕖
𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕣𝕖𝕓𝕦𝕚𝕝𝕕 𝕠𝕟 𝕚𝕥𝕤 𝕠𝕨𝕟

𝕋𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕕𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕤𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕤
𝔹𝕪 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕓𝕣𝕚𝕔𝕜𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕝𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕕𝕠𝕨𝕟
𝕋𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕕𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕤𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕤
𝕎𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕

𝕀𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕗𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝕣𝕖𝕔𝕜𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕤
𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕪 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕖𝕗𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕕𝕖𝕗𝕖𝕟𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕤
𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕓𝕣𝕠𝕜𝕖 𝕞𝕖 𝕚𝕟
𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕝𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕕𝕠𝕨𝕟

𝔸 𝕕𝕖𝕖𝕡 𝕓𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕙 𝕚𝕟
𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕 𝕚𝕤 𝕤𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕣𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕕 𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕥𝕞𝕠𝕤𝕡𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖

ℍ𝕠𝕨 𝕔𝕒𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕤𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤 𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕕 𝕤𝕠 𝕞𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕨𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥?
𝕀𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕗𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝕣𝕖𝕔𝕜𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕤
𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕪 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕖𝕗𝕥 𝕞𝕖 𝕕𝕖𝕗𝕖𝕟𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕤

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕥𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕞𝕪 𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕. 𝕃𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕙 𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕖𝕥
𝕄𝕖 𝕗𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕀'𝕞 𝕤𝕨𝕚𝕞𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕞𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕤𝕙𝕖𝕤..

𝔸 𝕕𝕖𝕖𝕡 𝕓𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕙 𝕚𝕟
𝕃𝕖𝕥 𝕞𝕪 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕝𝕕 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕒𝕡𝕤𝕖
𝔸𝕟𝕕 𝕣𝕖𝕓𝕦𝕚𝕝𝕕 𝕠𝕟 𝕚𝕥𝕤 𝕠𝕨𝕟

A deep breath in
Let my world collapse
And rebuild on its own

Tear down those walls
By the bricks that I laid down
Tear down those walls
With the light of her world

It was perfectly reckless
The way you left me defenseless
You broke me in
Then let me down

A deep breath in
And the world is spinning around into the atmosphere

How can these words hold so much weight?
It was perfectly reckless
The way you left me defenseless

You took my hand and promised me the world. Like childish intentions you let
Me fall and I'm swimming among the ashes..

A deep breath in
Let my world collapse
And rebuild on its own

Salvation

I looked into myself
Did not like what I had seen
The eyes have gone dark

I've seen the dark (my oldest friend)
I've seen the light (my newest friends)

In this moment
I saw you appear

A demon in my view
Laughing at my pain from the rear

I let it go
I let him go

For the last time
No fleeting words

Just evanescent of a former life
In this moment

I was saved by His grace
and his healing might...

Scrying

Scrying through a broken glass
The time has come and it has past.
The illusion go of what could have been is what hurts the most

We need to let it go-that things could have been different
Scrying through a broken glass

Left with a shattered glass heart
The ripples dance on the waters reflection
The sisters of fate put us in different directions.

Scrying through a broken glass
The hurt still lies underneath
With the stains of time etched in our palms

You are someone else
I am still right here.

Shadow People

Waves crashing
People sinking
I'm screaming
Soul searching

Trying to pick up the pieces
Pray to Gods above
&
Pray to Gods below

Help me understand the unknown
Darkness has always lingered
Is there a light at the end of the journey?

The silence is deafening
The silence is threatening

Calling out
Reaching out
Screaming out
I keep praying

Fear fall
Free fall
Losing my mind
They keep on reaching

Shine

Broken pieces still shine
They still shine bright in the dark
I am skin and bones
I am on my knees
Begging for a new way to bleed
I fed the dark for so long
That these pieces of my heart
Have turned into a maelstrom
Of a chaotic mess
I am skin and bones
I am on my knees
Begging for a new way to breathe
I have lived in this dark
That my wings are lost
I am skin and bones
And my heart will shine
These broken pieces will shine.

Tales of the Human Heart

A question I've been asking myself
"If I loved you, wouldn't I be with you?"

As much as I have feelings for you
I see behind your false words you try
and trick me with, I see beyond the
masquerade you try and fool me with.
I'm not some other fling on your list.
I'm not someone you can mess with,
because I WILL GET YOU BACK!

Emotions I had for you have made me
stronger, but my heart you try and play with,
that is something YOU WILL NOT MESS WITH!
I'm not some little boy so don't try and surprise me
with your words of flattery and words of emotions
that you don't mean.

My heart was senselessly touched by you
at a time but since then, it's only become
a thing of regrets and hatred for someone I had
longed for in my dreams, my dreams became
nightmares and I thought you where someone
to save me, heal me, fix me, but this isn't
some Dark Faery Tale come true, this is a
Dreadful Ever After.

Hate and anger are a senseless emotion, that
make the best of all humans into Neanderthals.
So I won't hate you, but I won't long for you
anymore it wasn't an obsession it was.

Whispered, misunderstood feelings that have
almost lead me to a death wish. When it comes
down to it I don't need you because I have myself
and I feel powerful, but I do feel dead and alone.

As much as I don't want to love you, your presence
will linger in my heart, because honestly I know
I will never get over you, because I never get
over someone who used to hold my heart in their hands.

Your kiss meant something to me, but my heart
took it in vain and my heart controls me
so therefore my heart loathes you and loves you
at the same time.

A question I've been asking myself
"If I loved you, wouldn't I be with you?"

Tear drops
Jealous of the ones who can
Teardrops

This sadness is heavy
But I can't help but be in love with it
Held down for so long
Held in for even longer

They never crash around me
Slap me back into existence
Slap me again and reawaken this heart

Held my head in the dark
This heart can't seem to restart

Teardrops
This sadness is heavier
Than it will always seem

He was a god
But only to those who knew him
He was their sun
Warming the hearts of those he had touched.

He was of the Holy Spirit
But only in his words
He was also the darkness
Spreading his lies and deceit

He was the moon
Hiding all of his intentions
He was the devil
Promising words of ill-gotten gain

He is the right hand of glory
He is the left hand of darkness
His desire to want more
His pride to never die

The hatred to keep burning
The sadness that is always overwhelming
The passions that are always endearing
He is the spirit that is inside all of us.

He is no hero
He is no zero
He is of flesh and blood

In this tragic story
He is human.

My sweat
My tears
My blood
My anger
My love
My desire
My roots
My future

You set me free..

Climb the ladder
Higher and Higher
Wanting to feel the love

Soul shattering screams are beneath me
Climbing the ladder
Higher and Higher

My words are free
Free from the shackles of the heart
Free from the poisons of the mind

Climb the ladder
Higher and Higher
Through the ashes
Through the darkness

I climb.
I will always climb
To escape
I will always climb
To feel the love
I will always climb.

I dreamt of you again
Your anguish resurfaced
And washed over me

It was not enough
For you to haunt me in life
But you even haunted me in death

I found your grave
Brushed off the face
Those lingering feelings remain

Like a vampire in the night
How did you sink your fangs
In so tight?

I dreamt of you again last night
Your anger was ready to fight

Bleeding
Screaming
I don't know what to do

Anger
Rage
It took its toll body and soul

You bestowed me with your love
You bestowed me with the truth
This is the end of a dream

I wish you well.

The Funeral Portrait

This portrait stares back
I feel the guilt burn behind those eyes
Once full of life
Now is the avatar of strife

Sunken cheeks
What reeks of failure and shame
Just another pawn in Life's cruel game

In this portrait
The birds of prey circle
The haunting call of the grave
She beckons, do I give in?

In this portrait
I do not recognize
Pins, needles poking and prodding
It's starting to crumble to ashes.

The moonlight shines through shattered windows.
The room is glowing with brilliant rays

This portrait now burning
Is this what it's like to feel finally alive?

The Game Is Over.

A vicious cycle
Comes crashing to an end
Twelve years
Was long enough
Twelve years
It's been a long road out of hell

Angry words--I've had enough
Can you hear this? As we come to an end
The truth-
The bitter truth

Can you feel the weight off my heart
You wanted me to sink among your demons, I know how to swim

The light that shone like the sun
The light I finally saw was from the
Burning of our bridges.

A vicious cycle
Came crashing to an end
I can finally breathe
This game is over

Amen.

The Grey

Sitting here in the dark
Cigarette smoke fills my lungs
I am not gay
I am not straight
Am I living just to breathe
Or
Am I just breathing just to live
I am not a They
I am not an It
My heart is pulled into several directions
Like Nut needing her extra days
I am pained
I am lost
I am needing this mind to be silent
A mouth of a sailor
The mindset of the lost and broken
I have no idea what I am doing anymore
I am somewhere in between
This divide is strong
Jeg Er Grå

By the light of the moon
Let its rays wash down.
Dancing in the garden
Wanting to sin like
Father and Mother

The first bite of
The golden apple was rotten
Was it worth it
To be haunted by what was to come

By the light of the moon
The serpent's kiss
Was ever so tempting
Was it worth it
To be haunted
By what was to follow

By the light of the moon
Paradise was burned
The hands now bound by fate

The seraphim ripped
Their world apart
The apple was rotten
And beautiful
Was it worth it to be haunted

The Last Winter

Porcelain face,
Dripping blood,
A misunderstanding,
Isn't that how fear breeds?

Another massacre to entertain,
The blood shed to the ground,
Running for your life,
Was it worth it at all?

Sirens ring throughout the night,
Bullets zing from wall to wall,
Battle scars from the jealous alcoholic.
Winter winds blow
The shivers up your spine.

A misunderstanding,
The bloodshed,
Was it worth it all?

A night turned to hell,
The stars are all gone,
The last winter with you..
Was it worth it all?

They say when one door closes another opens.
100 more have opened in its place
This don't will never shut.

I drank of his blood
Swam in his tears

I watched the flames surround me
And come out the other side

I waged war with the demons within
I found peace in His grace
I found love in a ravens embrace

Hold a gun to my head
And I have lived 1000 more times
They say when one door closes another opens.

The next door is open
Time now for the next greatest adventure

How did we get here
How do we grow from there
I used to love the burn
Underneath those blinding lights
There you are crying
But not for me, not now.
I always wanted to know
If we were the cosmic joke
There's this hole
That we will never fill.
There's this hate
That we will always know
How did we get here
How do we grow from there
You're a part of me
It's my turn to be the phantom..

Bleed it out
Cut out the tongue
These words are stronger
Like the pen and paper

Drag me out
Beat me down
This ritual of silence
Won't be the final death

You are the cancer
I am the nature to take back
The truth.
Hold me down
I'll guide your hand

In the end
You'll find your hell with me
This ritual of hatred
Will bathe you in the liea
You always wanted to believe

Bleed it out
Take away these words
Rites of the dead language
Will bring your empire crumbling
To the ground.

This ritual of truth
Will be the end of you

Pandemonium

Tomorrow

I walk by statues
Everything is a reminder
Remembrance
A Memoriam
A burning funeral pyre
All dedicated to you
I know nothing last forever
Tomorrow was never promised
You left a hole deep down in my heart
Tonight my heartaches
I cried for what seemed like forever
As I sat by your side
Watching the light leave your eyes
Brown eyes now a dark black
Tomorrow is never promised
I know you’ll be waiting on the other side.

I miss you

Part I. Tragedy of the Heart

She's found in the gardens
outside of his castle of
sorrow & history of death.

With the Grimmore locked
in her arms. she had hoped
to end the centuries old curse
placed upon herself.

She swore to Hecate in fragments
of blood. For a chance for
something sought by every mortal,
Immortality.

From wishes to eternity, she
watches the ones she cares
for wither and are placed
6ft under the soft brown earth.

For her consequence her heart
breaks piece by piece as the
night fall, falls upon her.
Eternity of heart break
and hearts where meant to shatter.

Part II. Thirteenth Winter

A blanket of snow covered the land,
the ****** cried her tears to shed
her pains of the thirteenth winter.

The church is gone, no revelations
could help her feel safe again. The
sun is only a distant memory, that
the books told her of the past.

It's only darkness now and the stars
don't shine, the wolves are howling
and she is praying for an escape from
this frozen nightmare.

The Grimmore, on the ground she's reading
the spells out loud hoping to end the
thirteenth winter's reign. There is no more faith
as the spell fails, she's calling for The Fire.

The Fire abandons her and all
hope is lost. Abandon her hope because it
surely has abandoned her and she suffers
this as the winter reigns supreme.


III. Redemption

Cry out to Heavens so that The Fire can hear her.
Nothing will ever be the same as she slowly slips away
into the Hell that she made from the bargain with Hecate.

Erase this, erase everything go in time before immortality
seemed so sublime. Erase the blood she shed before
the reign of winter destroyed everything that she loved.

The world is being engulfed because of selfishness of
not wanting to face what she fears, Death.
The Grimmore
cannot save her now. She doesn’t remember the feeling
of the sun beating down on her face.

This is the end of her nightmare, so start dreaming of
a better. She will bleed for another away out of this nightmare.

Everything comes at a price, she takes the blade and pierces
heart. Her nightmare is over and redemption has been given.

She closes her eyes to rest and slips away into Summerland
as the snow covers her body. Death finally embraced her
with opening arms.

Eternity came and went, the curse has been ended.

Truth

Seems to me that I found the root of why
I can't trust. It all leads back to you.

In your hate- I have found God
Everytime you held me against the
Wall screaming that I should, well
I'm not and I don't. I begged for Death
to take me, I'm glad he didn't.

In your sin- I have found love
I'll conceived, shot gun wedding.
The family you didn't want
The sobriety you weren't ready for.
You should have cared more.
Demonic abomination, ******* mistake
Your words to me everytime the *****
touch your lips.

In your faith- I have found forgiveness.
You're getting older, the grey hair shines.
The heart grows colder, the skins gets thinner
I look at you slowly dying.

The boy who wanted something real dies
with you. I'll mourn for everything
that we could have been.

The cold truth even after everything...

I'll miss you..

Two ships

Two passing ill lit ships
Passing in the night

You were looking at me
I was looking at you

Words left unspoken
We both know
It was a means to an end

The fire in our eyes
Now not even a spark
This is what was meant to be

Waves crashing against us
We had to hold onto what's dear
We tried to fly without wings

Leaving gravity behind
We finally found a way to breathe

Two ill lit ships
Passing with the light
This was a means to an end

You were staring at me
I was staring at you.

Requiescat.

Walk Away

Alone under the street light
You whisper "sink or swim"
"Live or let die"

My imperfections were crafted from the flames
Of the abuse... I can fight to see
Another day... I can let you all
Down and sleep soundly at night...

I have nothing to prove
&
I'm closer to that edge
The edge you pushed me to.

I love the way my pain feels
I hate that you have the wanting

To pull me down among all
Of your demons and those demons
You helped create it.

The world is already a ****** up place
I don't need you to remind me that
I was a failure in your eyes

Just walk away it's all you should have done.
I'll be stronger than you
I'll love harder than you
I'll be better than you

Just walk away
It's the best thing you could have ever done...
My fall won't be for you...

White walls
Empty beds
Silent nights
They scream loudly
They scream in terror
Lights flashing
Empty hallways
That echo into nothing
Praying to my faith
Praying not to die
Hell has found its new home
I don't want to die
All the voices echoing in my head
I'm not crazy
White walls
I don't want to be here

Wyrd (2022)

How can I cry over feelings that aren't valid
How can I mourn for something that was never gonna happen...

In this lifetime I've seen poets and fakes
In this lifetime I've seen sinners and saints
But tell me why we keep chasing these dreams
To be run over in the end?

The Universe you gave me the rites to what I needed
The Universe you took the way from me to get what I wanted...

I've always felt like I wasn't deserving of what I wanted to become...
You proved the fates right when you did what you did...

It was such a betrayal of my soul
It was such a betrayal of my heart

Ill never be able to forgive this audacity
I'll never be able to forget this travisity..

It wasn't enough you kept her from me
Now you take the only thing I ever wanted to be..

The Universe is give and take and I'll never forget or forgive...

Zeigst

Under the howling of the stars
Wrapping us in their moonlight desires
I was there in your time of need
Next to you on hand and knee

Desperation running down your face
You wanted me to be your saving grace
Screaming, crying how you wanted to die
You just wanted to soar and be ready to fly.

The baggage you held onto
It is the oldest of disaster pieces
In the end, I just wanted you to
Find a new kind of peace
Instead, you found a new kind of pain.

Sinking your fangs into my neck
I fell into your trap and took your bait
I wanted to help, I wanted to heal
But this boy you cursed won't die alone.

Another poltergeist added to
My haunted house
Another shattered glass heart

But this boy you cursed
I know he’ll never die alone.

חוֹשֶׁך

You say we are the darkness
We just harness what you fear
The light is in our hearts
The dark is our favorite form of art
We chose this way
Because of how you condemned us
You'll never face your truth
That there's a bit inside of you too
In this world of make believe
We can be the villains you can blame
In the end I can see-
I can see the darkness inside of your eyes.