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Ciara Ryan May 2016
Why? Why do we let ourselves get attached?
When we so plainly know it is never going to end well
The amount of times we have to say bye has no end
Why can't life be full of life and swell?

Why do we have to go through all these tough moments?
To learn a lesson?
Whats the lesson in death? That it's near? That we only live once?
I was a mother and he was my son

It's not easy being there for a living creature
Expecting, hoping for it to have the best in this life
You know, subconsciously you know that it's run out of time with no cure
And you try and try, but nothing helps and all you are left with is grief

So called God is supposed to be the good guy
But what is the sense in creating life if all he does is take it back
These things is what makes me question the reality of this guy
Is he real? Because I see no proof of him
Ciara Ryan Aug 2016
I bumped into you the other day
I still think I truly love you
I thought the pain had gone away
But I guess for my heart that's not true

I have been with other guys since we've been apart
But none of them seem to be like you
We wanted the same things but then our river started to part
And sometimes a river stays sliced in two

Do you remember the tears left on my face?
Do you remember all the broken promises we made?
I try to hide it well behind this facade, certain I left no trace
But I guess everything has an end, even a masquerade

I don't know why I started to cry over you, is it maybe moving to Paris?
Or maybe I just have so much yet to discover about who you are
Maybe you're the brightest star, possibly my Polaris
All I know is now you are just a memoir

These mixed feelings seem to get the best of me
But I know apart is when we are best
You were a challenge that astonished me
I've overcome the urge to pass the test

To love is not the same as to be in love
That's a lesson we have all learned over time
I guess it's safe to say none of us were "in love" but more like for a moment we were each other's behove
At least we didn't leave it on a note people could find begrime
Running into an ex unexpectedly can bring back so many feelings you thought you were over. We will always love the people who meant the world to us once, we just won't be in love with them.
Ciara Ryan Jan 2017
I bumped into you the other day  
I still think I truly love you
I thought the pain had gone away
But I guess for my heart that's not true

I have been with other guys since we've been apart
But none of them seem to be like you
We wanted the same things but then our river started to part
And sometimes a river stays sliced in two

Do you remember the tears left on my face?
Do you remember all the broken promises we made?
I try to hide it well behind this facade, certain I left no trace
But I guess everything has an end, even a masquerade

I don't know why I started to cry over you, is it maybe moving to Paris?
Or maybe I just have so much yet to discover about who you are
Maybe you're the brightest star, possibly my Polaris
All I know is now you are just a memoir

These mixed feelings seem to get the best of me
But I know apart is when we are best
You were a challenge that astonished me
I've overcome the urge to pass the test

To love is not the same as to be in love
That's a lesson we have all learned over time
I guess it's safe to say none of us were "in love" but more like for a moment we were each other's behove
At least we didn't leave it on a note people could find begrime

But does that seem right for you?
I feel like it'll never be the case in my reality
I really must speak with you, put on my high shoe
Face you, and tell you how I really feel. Maybe then I'll reach proper mentality
Added a last verse to the original.
I forgot I had already posted original.
Ciara Ryan Dec 2015
You asked me for some time
I said fine
But then I thought we would be better apart
Instead of confusing my heart

I will never regret
The day that we met
I will never regret
The tears which left my bed wet

It's come to a point
I've accepted we are no longer joint
Because I believe in fate
Even if it feels like it has closed a gate

I know that on this path
There is no need to feel wrath
Since you are not to blame
Please don't you feel any shame

Put away all your insecurities
It's time to show all your abilities
Because deep down you know you can
And when you do I'll still be your number one fan

Will we ever get a second chance?
A second chance to dance
I believe it's what's best
But I understand if you want to give us a rest

Even if it means forever
I'll be here for you whenever
No matter how far
Even if it means getting on a shooting star

You'll always own a piece of my heart
Your love carved in it like a piece of art...
Ciara Ryan Apr 2015
If only you knew
The pain I went through
When you
Took my heart and broke it

If only you saw
The tears on my face
Would you come to me?
And wipe them away

I know I’ve changed
But so have you
So please don’t go
Blaming me for everything

If only you knew
I still love you
And if only I accepted
That we are separated

If only I could
Move on
And forget you
It would all be easier

I remember the time
You picked me up
That was the time
That I knew I loved you

If only you knew
That I
Still love you
Would that change anything?
Ciara Ryan Dec 2015
I wish I could fall in love again
So no time, no time wasted was spent
I would stand up and kiss you all day
In the hopes that you would stay

Follow me into the night
Your eyes are the only things left that are bright
Kiss me, hold me, never let me go
Cause I just want you to know

You're the only one for me

Follow me into the dawn
Everything else is foregone
It's just you and me
The rest are asleep so no one will see

Just lay your head on my shoulder
Can you tell that the world is getting colder?
That's the distance growing between us
Only we can change it with one simple buss

But I don't want it anymore
I suffered for too long
Trying to get us to go further along
But all I was doing was forcing what we really are

Strangers
...
Ciara Ryan Apr 2015
Watching the stars
It’s like looking into your eyes
A tear starts to fall
You left and gave us scars

The memory of you lingers on in my mind
I don’t understand why you would hide
You were the king
Your name repeating in my head like a song

I always knew there would come a time
A time that we would have to say goodbye
But I never expected it to be this way
You were caught up in a lie

Even if you made mistakes
We all still loved you
The biggest mistake was when you left
No word, no noise, it was silent

If you were to have just asked for a helping hand
It was just one simple step to make
Instead you kept it - that’s when it went bad
That’s when you made your biggest mistake

Now there is nothing left of you
And it’s now the time we have to accept
Because there is nothing we can undo
I know you wouldn’t want us to be upset

You were surrounded by love
Even if they didn’t share your blood
You were family to them
To us

Everyone says I’ll get over it
But I know I’m not
How can someone forget?
About someone so amazing as you

People think it's just one other person's death
But it was yours
Ciara Ryan Sep 2016
The day has come
Can you hear the sound of the drum?
One of us has left us all, tragically
In a way we see becoming more classically

You may have known him or heard his name
Teachers had his name on a wall, in a frame
He was all about jokes
So this sudden event seems like a hoax

Barely out of this somewhat cruel adolescent world
He has become Peter Pan, off to Netherworld
Ciara Ryan Sep 2016
Because you are my one and only
I'll never let you feel lonely
No matter how far we are
You'll always be my star

You'll always be the soul
I can't live without
I only have one goal
Which is without a doubt

To love you for eternity
Through all the insanity
To always fight for you
And to always stay true

It's only been a year
Yet it's so clear
You and I were meant to be
I promise I will never flee

Because you are my one and only
I'll never let you feel lonely
No matter how far we are
You'll always be my star

The only one bright enough
To light up my everyday
Every second of my life
I hope you always stay

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